“You’ll Ache. And You’re Going To Love It. It Will Crush You. And You’re Still Going To Love

A beauty only I can see

Because I hold the key

To my own twisted art

That’s locked inside of me

It’s not my eyes who make me unique

Or the fact I have 2 ears and a nose

It’s the fact I can control

My life long goals

ain’t no one stopping that

You can put a end to my legs

Or maybe even my sense

But my mind won’t let you

Mess up that

It’s not visible to see

For a reason

It tells me daily

Scary .

@trueemotions91

On a dark cold night

Awoken my soul under the moon light

Like a wolf in sheep clothes

While the whole world stayed closed

My soul opened to the universe

On that hill rise

I was exposed

To the elements of life

And lord behold

As the devils hide

And nature took hold

A beast , I felt , deep inside .

@trueemotions91

My mind is my haven

Yet I have no where to hide

Crazy thoughts

Constantly running in my mind

Wired feelings

I’ve never felt

Makes me giddy

Makes me wanna shout .

Feeling of something

Deep within me

Trying it’s best to reach out

With all my might

I struggle to keep it locked in

I’m fuckin petrified

If I declined

What would this thing do to my insides

It creeps in my throat

I promise you not

I feel it real tight

Makes me want to choke .

To keep it down

Is a strength I hold

Coz this fucker really wants to take hold

But I’m scared how my future will unfold .

@trueemotions91

“I felt like lying down by the side of the trail and remembering it all. The woods do that to you, they always look familiar, long lost, like the face of a long-dead relative, like an old dream, like a piece of forgotten song drifting across the water, most of all like golden eternities of past childhood or past manhood and all the living and the dying and the heartbreak that went on a million years ago and the clouds as they pass overhead seem to testify (by their own lonesome familiarity) to this feeling.”

― Jack Kerouac, The Dharma Bums

14 months & counting ,

Crammed into 4 tiny walls,

No fresh air ,

For me to breathe ,

No one else to reach,

Covid they said,

Don’t catch a cold,

Keep your self to your self ,

14 months you know ,

Not even a glimpse of sun,

Or 2 minutes of fun,

My brains starting to go into over drive ,

With no end to the wave,

I’m losing my sanity & all hope,

That my soul will ever feel the same .

@trueemotions91

Good morning ❤️

A mess from the best

Ain’t like the rest .

She was blessed by the man

With his shoulders at rest .

A danger to the devil from the inside , out

As her emotions were made to be numbed out .

Like hitler , wanting you to be his butler ,

Hid in the darkness from the stars ,

Never knew what it was like to see past the dark .

It’s a shame , but we don’t pass the blame ,

especially when your blinded by The other game .

Now she can see , so much more clearly ,

She is starting to look a lot more pearly .

The sadness in her eyes , are replaced with the sunlight .

The breeze on her skin , awakens her inner self esteem,

Something you tried to keep locked in .

A beautiful soul, you tried to hide ,

Hid beneath your evil eye .

The man with the rainbow eyes , clearly showed up in perfect time .

Her soul was crushing , a big mistake,

Made from the man, with the holes in his skin,

Who now has nothing to sink his claws in .

@trueemotions91

I look at a photo And a million words and memory's fly through my head.

They also bring tears to my eyes Why?

I want to smile and I want scream But that's good Means I'm still alive.

Means I know how to associate pain with happiness But Also means I'm strong enough to over come that pain By smiling By knowing one day all will come into place.

The puzzle may be missing pieces and some have been lost through out my life.

But they are there and they will one day be complete .

And when that day comes My heart and mind will in twine and awaken a deepen sense thats along been waiting .

A sense of fulfilment of love and happiness and my tears will still run through pain but it won't be in my eyes no more forever hid away

@trueemotions91

Warning - I’m not sure if some people will take this I’m ignorant which I’m far from , just easiest way for me to explain a voice in my head so please do not take it personal anyone ! Just enjoy !

Lost young soul ,

Life is low , life is high ,

We have to just ride the tide. ❤️

The biggest challenge in life

Is learning to live , with the voice inside ,

Sometimes he roars and sometimes he whispers,

He’s trapped inside

Constantly taking you on a mad ride

It’s your call to reply

But before you do

Just listen

To what he is speaking

He may drive you crazy and make you hate

Every aspect of life ,

But their is a message hidden deeper then your imagantion ,

But the voice is they for a reason

Even if invisible on the other side

It’s the man inside

trying to make you recognise

I know you want it to go and he won’t shut up

But please just go with the flow

Don’t think the words that are going Through your head

Are a representation of yourself ,

Thats way to far , even for his control ,

That voice is a reckoning

The only way your inside can get you to listen to your true calling

Maybe not in the words you need

But this is where you have to be smart

Our brains are dangerous

The damage is strong

As no other can hear the song ,

He may play you some fucked up lullabies

And make tears come into your eyes

But I promise that’s not you breaking

That’s your soul accepting ,

The voice is usually your own well being ,

Calling for some help , from deep within yourself ,

He is nothing to be scared of

He is invisible , a voice all alone ,

But you can’t let him take control,

You have the power to show him differ ,

befriend that voice in your head ,

make him work for his chatter

we were born wild and free but

our imagantion always runs quicker

then our own two feet ,

So sometimes you need to breathe , it’s all just a release

Its a craft , and once you make the art ,

That voice won’t be a burden, he will be working on your behalf .

@trueemotions91

Don’t lose yourself like me

Just sat staring at the tress

Admiring the beauty

Beyond your own little lies

Believing all you see .

Don’t let the pretty things in life

Fool you

Remember a face is a blessing in a disguise

And the fool will always turn out to be you

If you truly loose your soul .

@trueemotions91