On A Dark Cold Night

When I was young

I thought I was strong

Thought life was just a laugh.

Till the voice in my head ,

Kept screaming for a chance .

Showing me things

My own eyes

Could never believe .

I ignored the noise

A racket in my brain

Used to tell the fucker

To just go away,

Always screaming at me

A fight against the other.

always in the inside

No one else can hear my brain

It sent me crazy

Used to screw

Wanted it to just escape

But it wanted to stick like glue .

Who was this screaming inside of me

I used to ask the fucker

But it would never accept the anwser .

I learnt to listen

And accept it

that’s when my words started flowing

It started screaming a little less louder

Then I realised it was me against my self

The devil and angel balancing me out

Till I accepted

That’s what my life was about

To find peace with my other self .

@trueemotions91

Billy bong billy bang,

I just want a snack,

To calm my attack.

Things got me having a panic Snack ,

For better ,for worse,

My chocolate habit won’t

Stop it

Love it

Twist it

Grab it

Shove it in and shut it.

Like a trap , with a snap

Waiting for it’s next lick,

I just can’t kick it,

With such delight

Cant help but bite it,

The melting stuff,

Gets twisted in my tongue ,

Dribble it

Lick it

Swallow it .

Now I’ve done it again

Fucking chocolate habit .

@trueemotions91

“Be very, very careful what you put into your head, because you’ll never, ever get it out.”

— homas Cardinal Wolsey (via thoughtkick)

14 months & counting ,

Crammed into 4 tiny walls,

No fresh air ,

For me to breathe ,

No one else to reach,

Covid they said,

Don’t catch a cold,

Keep your self to your self ,

14 months you know ,

Not even a glimpse of sun,

Or 2 minutes of fun,

My brains starting to go into over drive ,

With no end to the wave,

I’m losing my sanity & all hope,

That my soul will ever feel the same .

@trueemotions91

Heart broken

Spoilt little whore ,

Why you looking at me

Look at the floor.

Fool ,

Your heart is filled of

Stone cold coal.

I was only trying to find

Something inside.

He was petrified.

@trueemotions91

Gosh your poetry is so nice and you express yourself so lyrically!

Thank you , I’m glad you enjoy 😁 x

Beautiful ! X

Yoshitaka Amano

You reading this

Promise me

One thing

In life don’t give up

Never check the competition on the other shoulder

Always breathe and just get stuck in

The thicker the better

Don’t let anyone make you feel worthless

Poisonous people only do this

Don’t never go in with your eyes closed

Always make sure they are wide

Don’t get stuck in the gossip

Take a seat back and be the listener

Your be amazed what you hear ,

When your hurting ,

Please just scream,

Don’t let it burden you ,

I’m here,

When you want to cry,

Let it stream,

Tears are free ,

So don’t let it burn you out

from inside out ,

Believe me when I say,

Your brain is a weapon for all,

But mainly for yourself ,

So don’t let it take control,

Remember it’s your body in the line ,

Don’t let the voices roar ,

If they do, scream right back at them

Coz them bitches should be in line with your core,

When your happy ,

Enjoy,

And when your sad

Just remeber the man who shook your hand ,

Without a penny to his name ,

Yet he still has a plan,

Every single being here has a path,

And when it gets tough

Just know that’s the worse ,

The only way is up baby,

So please just breathe ,

And no it’s just the path

To make your journey on earth

Complete .

@trueemotions91

That’s what I dream of heaven to be x

I don’t fit here

I don’t belong

I stand out like a sore thumb

My hearts too soft

This world’s too hard

I hold on to details

It disregards

I’m on the outside

Staring in

I’m not like them

I don’t fit in

My hearts on my sleeve

I can’t hide it within

Yet I consume judgement

Until it’s part of my skin

I let it fester

Let it rot my soul

Until I’m spiralling down a familiar hole

“I don’t fit here”

I protest from outside

On the sidelines

Is where I’ll always reside.

-JF-