Being Chronically Ill And A “normal” Illness On Top Of It (cold, Flu Etc Etc) SUCKS

people that adapt to your chronic illness,

people that give you a ride and pick you up places without making you feel guilty

people that go to the ER with you

people that make sure to walk slowly so you can keep up while using a mobility aid

people that are willing to try different things to help you

people that are willing to learn and listen to you when speaking about your chronic illness

one good thing about being chronically ill that i learned about this week is when you need to drive your friend to the hospital for drinking too much alcohol you know your way around and exactly where to go

being told you look like shit is weirdly validating. like at first it’s a bit hurtful but then i’m like…you can see it??? YOU CAN SEE IT????

hypothetically in how much pain would i have to be in order for it to be okay to tell people to fuck off? because i am close

playing a fun game of anxiety or new chronic illness symptom

cluster headaches SUCK

i'm just existing and my head is all like *ouch* *ouch* *ouch*

i'm tired of being scared of how i feel

i miss travelling without basically taking a mini pharmacy with me

doctors will give me a test and go “well obviously we hope it’s not that” and I’m sitting there like bitch I have been through so many tests so many doctors so many specialist I have been in the ER more times than I can count I almost do hope it is that because then at least I know what’s fucking wrong with me instead of walking into the ER with my issues and being told it’s anxiety even though I know it’s not

the flesh is unwilling and honestly, the spirit isn't too keen on the idea either