Playing A Fun Game Of Anxiety Or New Chronic Illness Symptom

some guy invited me to go clubbing with him and his friends... i tell him i would go, even though it's not something i usually do, but i couldn't drink because of the medication i'm taking/health issues

he looked at me and just went "oh maybe some other time then"

and my question is why? WHY am i required to drink to hang out with people? and if that's just a rule then there won't be some other time, because i got a chronic illness and not just a cold

started doing physical therapy again and my chronic pain got worse... really debating just quitting rn

love the random wave of nausea that hits me multiple times a day /s

people that adapt to your chronic illness,

people that give you a ride and pick you up places without making you feel guilty

people that go to the ER with you

people that make sure to walk slowly so you can keep up while using a mobility aid

people that are willing to try different things to help you

people that are willing to learn and listen to you when speaking about your chronic illness

everytime i feel something even just mildly wrong with my body for more than a few minutes i immediately panic thinking that this might be a new chronic symptom...

which sucks, because that makes my heart rate go up with then causes even more of my regular symptoms

how do i get rid of this anxiety about new symptoms?

how are you supposed to tell people who you recently became friends with that you sometimes need to use a mobility aid?

is there even a way to make it not awkward? because it shouldn't be awkward

having to wait a long time for a doctors appointment sucks, because until i got proof i am not getting any accomodations from my school and it's affecting my health even more

chronic pain and final exams at the same time isn't fun

overdid it today... will suffer the consequences later

someone told me that they would end themselves if they had even half of my health issues... idk what to do with that information...