The Concept Of Doctors Is Better Than Reality

not being able to sleep due to pain sucks, because sleep is the one time i am not in pain

i know i shouldn'r be but i am kinda scared to use my cane out in public alone... i just use it with someone i trust around

despite going to the doctor way too often there are still so many things wrong that i don't even know where to start

(the list of things i should probably get checked is loooong)

i'm in too much pain to sleep and i have to get up in a few hours cause it's a busy day

i am lucky if i get to close my eyes for a few minutes and it sucks

my mom told me she doesn't know what to do anymore with all the different health issues i got... which is like fair enough, but i wonder if she realizes how i feel and how draining it is to actually go to all the different doctors appointments

they CANCELLED the cardiologist appointment i was waiting for for OVER HALF A YEAR!

i was waiting for over an hour just to have someone come up to me to tell me they have to cancel and that i should call in 3 weeks to make a new appointment

the medical system is fucking bullshit and neglectful

i think younger me would be disappointed, but current me is just grateful for the opportunities i have

someone told me that they would end themselves if they had even half of my health issues... idk what to do with that information...

started doing physical therapy again and my chronic pain got worse... really debating just quitting rn

love the random wave of nausea that hits me multiple times a day /s