I'm In Too Much Pain To Sleep And I Have To Get Up In A Few Hours Cause It's A Busy Day

they CANCELLED the cardiologist appointment i was waiting for for OVER HALF A YEAR!

i was waiting for over an hour just to have someone come up to me to tell me they have to cancel and that i should call in 3 weeks to make a new appointment

the medical system is fucking bullshit and neglectful

i think younger me would be disappointed, but current me is just grateful for the opportunities i have

wishing my chronic illness would take the day off on busy days

making jokes about being chronically ill with my friends, because somehow things are a little less heavy when you laugh about it

made the typical joke about "being allergic to gravity" today and i got an understanding nod instead of a "wtf"... now i'm the one that's confused

cluster headaches SUCK

i'm just existing and my head is all like *ouch* *ouch* *ouch*

grateful for everything my life is besides the illness

grateful for everyone i get to have close to my heart

grateful for everything i get to experience

i refuse to let being sick stop me from being grateful for the rest

it should be illegal to take a nap and still have a headache when you wake up. like no i shut it off and back on again why are you still here

i just went climbing today which is something that will probably send me into a flare up, but omg it was so much fun...

i wish i could do things like that without consequences

i always feel bad thinking i would prefer having a weelchair some days

i would never say it out loud because i know it would be an invonvenience and people already look at me weird for using a cane, but i would actually just be able to do things whenever i want to...