I feel so gross, I need to cleanse myself somehow.
Success doesn’t care how you feel right now.
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I love talking to “@na” in my head like we’re besties. she’s cool . like today our convo was about how she’s just here as a cosmetic thing and compared herself to makeup. It makes a lot of sense, makeup is inherently unhealthy but we all wear it for fun to feel pretty and accepted. Everyone just kind of sweeps under the rug how bad it actually is lol. Maybe in the future it will be looked down upon as much as @na is, but just some f00d for thought???
i feel respectless to call myself anorexic. Even atypical anorexic.
I'm just someone who wants to lose weight, but eats normally and only sometimes has the control to restrict.
I know it's not a weight disorder but why the fck do i feel so invalid?!
I hate boys almost as much as I hate food!
(He got a new gf)
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Day two has passed!🥳 2/5 fast
My current affirmation^
Ik I might sound crazy but I want my mom to worry. I want her to feel bad for not realizing the pain I was going through, how bad I’ve been getting. I want her to know that every time she ever said something about me being a bad person it didn’t just affect her, but me too. She thinks that it’s all about her because of her addiction, but I want her to know that she isn’t the only one with problems. She is always going on about her stuff, how much her recovery has changed her, don’t get me wrong I’m really proud of her but it’s like since she has recovered she hates me sm, like whenever she was drinking she would tell me how much she loved me, how special I was, but now that she’s been recovered she can’t even speak without saying something remotely rude about my existence. I want to be the girl she thought I was. I think that If I get bad enough she will start to worry and maybe care again? Idk I’m crazy but whoever made it this far, thanks for listening.
Sacrifice now, thrive later.
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Nothing infuriates me more than a menu not having c4lori3s