I Took A Hiatus In 2019. This Is Literally All I Have To Show For It.

Anyone else ever experience that sudden horror when something loud just goes... silent?

When the constant hum of something making noise just drops?

It's like the air suddenly feels heavy and you're aware of where you are in your body and the space around you all at once.

It's a little frightening.

Artwork by caelusart

I know I'm fat, but GOSH do I want to wear skirts and dresses.

This is all I can show from 2021, but I was nearly there.

artwork by loi-loi

72 F today. It’s beautiful. I felt the need to be barefoot and sit in the grass. I hate being barefoot, but today I needed to ground myself. It feels right. Being outside has always been a joy to me, no matter the weather. I am so glad to live in this beautiful world.

I made the decision to finally delete Facebook. Now I just feel guilty for deleting it. Is this part of addiction?

Another successful walk today. The weather was gorgeous and there were so many people out! I didn't talk to any of them (I complimented one's dress), but it was nice to just be around them. I also saw a naked squirrel (might be a rat, but it was running with a bunch of other squirrels) and how nature can't be stopped from going where it wants to go.

I bought a scale, as well. I am now below 260 lbs and I am so excited! I am slowly getting to a healthy weight and getting away from diabetes. I know it's only been two walks, but I have to stay motivated, so sharing these moments feels good.

Remember, only you can make changes for yourself.

The unicorn lived in a lilac wood, and she lived all alone. She was very old, though she did not know it, and she was no longer the careless color of seafoam, but rather the color of snow falling on a moonlit night.

Though this story has been my favorite and the most influential tale in my life, I have never taken the time to read the book. That changes now. I feel like a child again reading the pages and my heart is so excited to finally have the full tale.

Men only want one thing.