I Know I'm Fat, But GOSH Do I Want To Wear Skirts And Dresses.

Leriff Anduion by sketchygoat (deactivated. if anyone has a link to their current social media, please let me know so i can update this post!)

Yurah Tsukino by Kimichii

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Can we stop "flipping" houses? You're not making it better, you're 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 the poor building. You don't know what you're doing, you're not trained nor a professional. Stop ruining good homes.

me: i should really start watching my caffeine intake due to my anxiety, so decaf coffee and tea from now on

also me: SMASHES TWO JAVA MONSTERS A DAY

10/10

To say I am disappointed is an understatement.

"I'll set up my new journal!"

My cat:

70 F outside with a soft breeze. It's a beautiful day and all I wanted to do was sit in my front yard and exist.

So, I did. I quietly existed on the ground for about 20 minutes, just allowing myself to be. It was refreshing, comforting, and I felt that everything was going to get better.

February has been a rough month with lots of ups and downs in my mind. I know it hasn't been terrible, but my anxiety and depression have created this image of failure in my mind. I was ill over my birthday, I didn't do anything romantic for my husband over valentine's, I wasn't able to take part in the simple photography challenge I set up for myself because I just wasn't motivated.

This all gathered up inside and makes me feel as though I wasted February. Winter should be about rest - the calm, silent season before the colorful rebirth of nature. I think I'm ready for spring.

I think I have sat still long enough that I am simply wallowing in the quiet and unable to relax. I live in a state of anxiety, so it's difficult, but I am ready for life. I'm ready to live.

I need to stay positive, to stay motivated, to allow myself to take days off to simply exist, but I want so much to enjoy the world around me and feel connected to it.

I'm optimistic.

The desire to pick up art again is boiling over. I just don't know how to approach it. I don't want to do just anime portraits digitally, but I also want to try traditional media. I'm just not sure how to start. I never am. Starting anything is the hardest part for me.

I also want to bake but I am trying to LOSE weight and "healthy" recipes keep having really expensive ingredients???

🥳It's my birthday!