I'm Not Losing Weight Fast Enough. For Now On I Will Limit Myself To Only 500 Calories Perday. Although

Fear foods

Bread - enough said.

Peanut butter thick and Creamy about 200 calories per tablespoon

yogurt makes my stumach hurt also high in calories

any kind of chips- high in salt and super addicting 😅

ice cream way to thick and heavy on my stomach

full fat soda - way to much sugar and empty calories

steak full on choking hazard - way to much fat and high in calories also bad for your heart-

Egg yolks- high in calories and cholesterol

Grocery shopping today-

Zero sugar torani flavor syrup carmel and vanilla

Zero sugar coffee creamer pumpkin spice

More tea flavors

Canned pumpkin

Cinnamon

Tomorrow I will start taking pictures of my foods that I eat and post them to my account. Even if I drink a cup of water.

Help me stay motivated!!

I wish I could survive on as little calories as possible. I long to punish myself for the wrong I've done to my ex, my mother or just anyone really that I have displeased with my presence. I need to punish myself. Only then I'll be a good girl inside and out. I'd say a good number for myself would be 500 calories. I need to punish myself. I CANNOT exists on food. My suffering will be atonement for all my sins.

I fasted all the way untill supper. I drank some tea, slept, and went up to the roof and listened to a podcast by shrouded head and binge watched YouTube. It's not even dinner time yet. It's 6pm and I'll tidy up by 7pm and shower then I'll start on dinner around 8pm. The sky is nice and gloomy this evening and I feel so lonely, dispaired and hopeless... I wonder if ill ever not be lonely someday?

I feel like a fat pig. My ex just confirmed that he eats 350-500 to 1000 calories perday and he's so skinny and beautiful. I NEED to catch up and get better at loosing weight. I don't want to be the fat freind. It wil be so worth the hunger when I get to wear cute clothes and have smaller boobs

My coworker said it looks like I'm loosing weight!! She said my tummy and back are looking a little smaller. I didn't know 7lbs was enough for people to start noticing. Then again me and them work like 10 and half hours with each other in a small room. But I'm proud never the less.

Things are gonna start getting tight around here. I'm gonna really restrict my food intake as I really want to keep losing weight. I donot care how I get there. All I know if I have to lose 40lbs as fast as possible.

NEW UPDATED SAFE FOOD LIST

Tea

Coffee

Splenda

Fruit

Vegtables

Pop corn

Zero sugar torani coffee syrup (0 cal)

Diet soda

Diet energy drinks

Soy milk

Eggs whites (only 18 calories)

Zero sugar coffee creamer 15 calories per table spoon

When I go home I'm gonna throw away all the foods I shouldn't be eating. The fatty chicken, the oatmeal, pasta. And what else I'm not supposed to have.

I WILL GET THINNER. I don't care HOW I get there but I will get there. Fuck being obese

Low calorie food list

**Food items should be weighed for accuracy

Tea- 0 calories

Water- 0 calories

Coffee medium roast/flavored 0 calories for flavored check the bag to make sure.

Arugula 5 calories per cup

Lettuce- 5 calories per cup

Egg whites- 18 calories per egg yolk has to be removed

Alfalfa Sprouts- 8 calories per cup

Napa Cabbage 13 calories per cup

Cucumber 16 calories per cup

Celery- 14 calories per cup

Radishes - 19 calories per cup sliced

Bok Choy- 20 calories per cup

cabbage- 22 calories per cup

Mushrooms- 22 calories per cup

Eggplant 35 calories sliced

Swiss Chard 35 calories per cup sliced Asparagus 40 calories per cup

Spinach 41 calories per cup

Summer Squash 34 calories per cup

Diet soda - 0 calories

zero suger coffee creamer 15 to 25 calories always check the package-

splenda - 0 calories