Sometimes I Forget You Can Actually Just Pass Out From Pain

some guy invited me to go clubbing with him and his friends... i tell him i would go, even though it's not something i usually do, but i couldn't drink because of the medication i'm taking/health issues

he looked at me and just went "oh maybe some other time then"

and my question is why? WHY am i required to drink to hang out with people? and if that's just a rule then there won't be some other time, because i got a chronic illness and not just a cold

"Why do I feel sick" my brother in christ you have a chronic illness

grateful for everything my life is besides the illness

grateful for everyone i get to have close to my heart

grateful for everything i get to experience

i refuse to let being sick stop me from being grateful for the rest

just bonded with someone over the fact that both of our bodies seem to hate us

watching other people just live their life doing things you don't know if you'll ever be able to again...

i can't get rid of this constant nausea ffs

being told you look like shit is weirdly validating. like at first it’s a bit hurtful but then i’m like…you can see it??? YOU CAN SEE IT????

playing a fun game of anxiety or new chronic illness symptom

rain is annoying because i don't have the strength to use both a cane and an umbrella...

love leaving the house thinking it's just a few drops of rain and then basically taking a literal shower

casually having a low symptom day the day of a doctors appointment