Rain Is Annoying Because I Don't Have The Strength To Use Both A Cane And An Umbrella...

had to cancel so many plans with my friends recently...

do they seem mad? -nope

did they say that they are mad? -nope

do i still think that they are mad? -absolutely

me casually overdoing it on a low symptoms day and then wondering the next day why i feel bad

(will i ever learn? probably not)

having insomnia when having a chronic illness sucks!

my chronic illness flares up cause i don't get enough sleep, but i don't get enough sleep cause of my chronic illness

i wish stores would have more places to sit and rest for a little

like pleaseee i don't wanna pass out on your floor

me: "i'm so fatigued and my brain fog is pretty bad"

healthy person: "stop complaining, i'm tired too"

your "tired" is not the same as my fatigued! sleep won't cure me, this is not how it works!

my mom told me she doesn't know what to do anymore with all the different health issues i got... which is like fair enough, but i wonder if she realizes how i feel and how draining it is to actually go to all the different doctors appointments

someone told me that they would end themselves if they had even half of my health issues... idk what to do with that information...

some guy invited me to go clubbing with him and his friends... i tell him i would go, even though it's not something i usually do, but i couldn't drink because of the medication i'm taking/health issues

he looked at me and just went "oh maybe some other time then"

and my question is why? WHY am i required to drink to hang out with people? and if that's just a rule then there won't be some other time, because i got a chronic illness and not just a cold

can I have one *points at you*

started doing physical therapy again and my chronic pain got worse... really debating just quitting rn