Everytime I Am Out Of A Flare I Convince Myself I Am Usually Dramatic And This Won't Impact My Life In

despite going to the doctor way too often there are still so many things wrong that i don't even know where to start

(the list of things i should probably get checked is loooong)

how are you supposed to tell people who you recently became friends with that you sometimes need to use a mobility aid?

is there even a way to make it not awkward? because it shouldn't be awkward

i think younger me would be disappointed, but current me is just grateful for the opportunities i have

pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering,

i don’t know. i’m barely a person. i just want to be kind and hold someone’s hand. eat an ice cream cone. stare at the lake. feel the sun on my skin. lay in the grass. run through a sprinkler. it’s so easy to forget life is supposed to feel like a deep breath and not a gasp

Being chronically ill and a “normal” illness on top of it (cold, flu etc etc) SUCKS

I see you

It sucks and it’s twice as painful and you’re twice as nauseous and can’t keep anything down and have less than the zero energy you had before

I see you I’m sorry it sucks and I’m right here with you

really tired but making sure to stay awake until the point of exhaustion so i hopefully actually fall asleep

loving people with chronic health conditions and there being nothing to do to help them SUCKS

i have chronic issues myself but when i break down it's mostly because the people i love are miserable

i am tired of seeing the people i care about suffer without being able to help

i think i keep forgetting my chronic illness won't just stop once i graduate... like i'll actually have to live with it in the future and i have to work with it

i've always seen my graduation as the final goal before having the freedom to decide what i want my life to look like and now that is being taken from me

i always forget... i guess despite all i am still secretely waiting for a magical cure

overdid it today... will suffer the consequences later