Gonna Start Answering "i Hope You Get Better" With "thanks, I Probably Won't"

i explained to my teacher today that my medical condition won't just go away, there is no cure... he said that it can't be true, because he can't believe that all you're being told is "you just gotta live with it"

he also said i shouldn't choose my carreer path depending on how doable it would be with my illnees, but this is my reality... i need to consider things like that

i need to lay in bed for a week to make up for one day i overdid it

not being able to sleep due to pain sucks, because sleep is the one time i am not in pain

i would love a no symptoms day

how are you supposed to tell people who you recently became friends with that you sometimes need to use a mobility aid?

is there even a way to make it not awkward? because it shouldn't be awkward

despite going to the doctor way too often there are still so many things wrong that i don't even know where to start

(the list of things i should probably get checked is loooong)

me: "i'm so fatigued and my brain fog is pretty bad"

healthy person: "stop complaining, i'm tired too"

your "tired" is not the same as my fatigued! sleep won't cure me, this is not how it works!

loving people with chronic health conditions and there being nothing to do to help them SUCKS

i have chronic issues myself but when i break down it's mostly because the people i love are miserable

i am tired of seeing the people i care about suffer without being able to help

i ate a dry piece of bread... nothing else... my stomach feels like someone is stabbing me

being chronically ill it's so difficult to not dismiss healthy people struggleing with a short time illness

like "i'm sorry you got a cough, i have to make big adjustments to my everyday life to not regularly faint" is not the answer i wanna give others

saying "oh you're tired cause you stayed up on tiktok for too long? i didn't sleep at all cause of how much pain i was in" isn't empathetic

it's just hard not to compare my suffering to others seemingly minor issues

i always need to remind myself that this isn't minor to them, no matter how i might feel about it... i refuse to loose my empathy in addition to everything else i have to limit