“Took A Break To Find Myself, But Instead I Found You.”

“He came into my life dressed up as everything I’ve been looking for and stupid me couldn’t resist. He found his way under my skin and into my bones. Now all I can do is pray that he won’t add any more wounds to my recovering heart.”

— I never learn - Jess Amelia 

I’m sick of flinching when people move. I’m sick of panic attacks in public because I thought I saw your face. I want to sleep but nightmares haunt my slumber and keep me awake. YOU may not have put your hands on me but there are people who have. You never touched me, you just scream and rave and threaten and starve me. I still remember hiding the bruises. Long sleeved shirts in summer and knowing stares. Head down, curl in, be small, make no noise. These habits have stayed with me.

“I had a dream that we kissed last night. And suddenly, I prefer sleeping to reality.”

— Dreaming of You (h.c)

abusers be like “if you loved me you’d let me invade your boundaries and make you feel like shit if that makes me happy”

signs you love her

1. you think she is beautiful even when she has acne all over her face and hair tied in a messy bun. you think she looks hot when she tries to be mad at you for being too hard on your self. you think she looks better than most of the human population and you think she looks best when she’s in your arms professing her love for you between sips of that bitter vodka you bought her.

2. you can’t stop thinking about her brown eyes, short black straight hair and freckled pointed nose. you can’t stop thinking of how her lips would feel against yours right this instance. you can’t stop thinking about how perfect her breasts feel in your hands. you can’t stop thinking about the late night conversation you had with her. you just can’t stop thinking about her even when you’re sipping coffee at starbucks, even when you’re watching a horror movie, even when you’re in class studying discrete math.

3. you know when she is angry, or when she is pissed at you for talking about other girls. you know what she likes to eat when she is on her period. you know when she is upset about that paper that she turned in late to her professor. you know she likes to be the centre of your attention always. you know she smiles when you hold her hand firmly in public. you know she bites her nails when she’s stressed out. you know her inside out.

4. you smile like a crazy man when you see her. you smile when someone says her name. you smile when you see a text message from her. you smile when you’re around her. you smile when people say you look good together. you smile when someone tells you she looks beautiful, like its a compliment for you and not her. you smile when she tells you she loves you. you smile when she tells you she loves to be your girl. you smile all day like an idiot and you smile until someone tells you to stop smiling because she’s not even around.

5. you talk about her to everyone, to your mom, to your bestfriend, to your room mate. you tell them everything about her. you tell them about how you read this tumblr post and it made you think of her. you tell them she’s perfect, not because of how she looks, or how smart she is, or how well she writes but because she’s yours. and only yours. you tell them how you don’t date a nine, but always a fucking ten, so yeah you tell everyone how and why she is a perfect ten.

We should stop making kids who already struggle fixing themselves think that it is their responsibility to fix their bullies too

the sad thing is, is that this whole time that I’ve been missing you, I probably haven’t even crossed your mind

that doesn’t make me miss you any less (via bluerainjacket)

For the TUMBLR NSFW PURGE

I’m pretty sure everyone knows what I’m talking about but Tumblr staff released an update saying that blogs flagged as nsfw will be banned on December 17th, 2018. Nudity, genetalia, or “"female presenting nipples”“ are all considered forms of posts that can get you banned. People are calling this the Tumblr purge and everyone is freaking out. Tumblr has been flagging accounts under the radar as well SO:

If you don’t know about your blog being flagged or are worried about someone else, if you go on this site postlimit.com you will be able to search your blog name to see if you’ve been flagged for being nsfw. Your icon will be blurred out and there is a section (that I highlighted in blue) that will tell you whether or not staff considers you nsfw. You can ask for an appeal, however at this point and considering how in the rules and guidelines ED related blogs are not allowed I would be careful. Tumblr staff might be drawn to your blog if you ask for an appeal and just might straight ban you before December 17th even hits. But, if you’re desperate and don’t care because you’ll be banned anyways, go ahead and try, it might be worth a shot.

Here is what you’ll find if you scroll down after typing in your blog name or someone else’s:

If your blog is marked to be banned by d17, your icon will be blurred and there will be a red ‘yes’ by the explicit section! However, remember you can appeal.

!!PLEASE REBLOG AND BOOST THIS POST FOR EVERYONE IN THE COMMUNITY! STAY SAFE AND MIGRATE!!!

Growing up I was constantly invalidated/told I was wrong or bad/in trouble for the smallest things.

As a result I’m constantly apologising and afraid I’ve done something wrong.