If There’s One Thing That Motivates Me To Draw It’s My Dumb Ass Art From Two/three Years Ago.

The fucking scene where Thorin is really struck with dragon sickness and sounds like Smaug makes me so physically sick. Like my stomach HURTS. I need two paracetamol, a glass of room temperature water and maybe like half an hour laying in the paddock next to my house in the dark… agh.. so so so upsetting.

How do I get less shit at art?

Eeeeghhh 😬 who would have thought it, my mental health I’ve been neglecting finally caught up with me.

Guess who is taking a mental health day tomorrow and staying in bed?

Elves yawn like snakes. Pass it on…

Oh my god

I, for one, like Roman numerals.

Day 2100 of being ID’d trying to buy wine because I guess even though I have crows feet and bags under my eyes large enough to fit bowling balls, wrinkles between my eyebrows and on my forehead and smile lines I am still some how a child who can not buy wine. The legal age to buy it is 18 in my country.

I had someone ask me last night at the party if I was in my teens.-I had just gotten off work. My eye is twitching thinking about it!

God I wish I had so much sparkle and energy as a teen, I mean it was nervous energy and the sparkle of someone going insane but still… sparkle and energy

I feel so tired and sore all the time, I was sitting in the most comfortable chair in the whole house last night and the weather changed so my knees started hurting.

Good grief

(Also someone asked me ‘how was the world 100 years ago’ and I said ‘soup and racism haven’t really changed as much as you’d think’ so that was random)

Awwwwwwwww

Watched some LOTR. Couple of hobbits(?)

‘A dwarrow dame of Erebor’

She’s so pretty I’m in fits. What’s her name? What’s her job? What’s her story?

Brain storm:

I imagine she is very much in the upper class, if she works then she works a soft craft possibly with textiles. Perhaps she works with a manual loom and between that an an instrument she plays she has very callused finger tips for a lady of the upper class.

I imagine there is very little visual distinction between men and women in all classes but the upper classes are all very prettied up.

She uses gold, oxidization from bronze in powder and fat to make eye shadow too (also lapis is ground to a powder for make up as well but it’s not a color this dame wears often) (Thorin wheres so much eye coal and never washes it off before bed. His pillow looks like it belongs to Bofur)

Her parents are likely merchants who spend a lot of time away from Erebor traveling as far so Gondor and the Blue mountains returning with gifts for her.

She is only young, about 65, old enough to work with her grandmother in textile production but not old enough to travel with her parents on such dangerous roads. Though she is born at the beginning of the age of men there are still orc strong holds and devotees to the fallen enemy that are known to waylay caravans of traders

Thrirli daughter of Flenik the merchant.

A drawing of Thorin that baby Dis got ahold of and added some important details that the artist left out (sorry Dis)

Guys

I watched the first two hobbit movies with my partner but I can’t bring myself to watch the last… in his mind.. everyone is still alive.. and I just can’t… I’m too weak