In This House We Respect The Fullmetal Alchemist And His Younger Brother, The Angry Child In The Red

movie artemis fowl: the power of friendship will save the world :)

book artemis fowl:

IN A SENTENCE: book recs and why you should read them

FANTASY

carry on by rainbow rowell: it’s harry potter but gay and with extra scones and dumbledore wears tights

the raven cycle series by maggie steifvater (everyone has heard of this already so): delightfully weird with the strongest set of characters in anything i’ve read and lots of cars and bees

shades of magic series by ve schwab: whimsical fantasy and cross-dressing pirates and again, brilliant characters and just excitingness

monsters of verity duology by ve schwab: so so dark with savagely beautiful imagery and creepy nursery rhymes and almost horror writing in book 2

villains duology by ve schwab: moral ambiguity!!! edginess!!! subversion of the superhero genre!!! characters you both like and hate!!! gritty urban settings!!!

six of crows duology by leigh bardugo: more moral ambiguity and an absolutely stellar cast of six with an insanely well-crafted heist

the great library series by rachel caine: a book about books do i need to say more also christopher wolfe is my dad, the worldbuilding is insane and this is SO underrated

the girl at midnight series by melissa grey: the poetic justice makes me cry every time i think about it and honestly it’s just worth reading to see the character development dorian goes through

magisterium series by cassandra clare and holly black: harry potter but so much darker even though it’s mg not ya, and it has already made me cry my entire soul out so considering it’s written by 2 of the most popular authors this is criminally underrated honestly

strange the dreamer by laini taylor: i’m only halfway through this but the worldbuilding is amazing and the writing is absolutely gorgeous and it actually has a plot unlike some books this reminds me of

CONTEMPORARY

all for the game series by nora sakavic: so dark and so quick-paced and exciting with more amazing characters and more jaw-dropping plot twists and a mc who likes to destroy people on live tv

one of us is lying by karen m. mcmanus: criminally good ending that might be a direct comparison to a certain other popular tv series around rn with also a good cast of characters

troublemakers by catherine barter: really poignant narrative on protesting and things and it really helped me come to terms with the attack on my city in may

release by patrick ness: ok this crosses over into fantasy but it’s like 80% contemporary and it’s just a really good story on coming out into a homophobic environment and coming to terms with being loved and stuff

a list of cages by robin roe: just straight-up made me cry until i couldnt breathe honestly it has lots of narrative abt child abuse but if that’s not bad for you it’s really really good

HISTORICAL

the song of achilles by madeline miller: again, i straight up cried by the end of this one. the dramatic irony (cough cough what has hector ever done) is honestly the best dramatic irony in any book ive ever read ever

the gentleman’s guide to vice and virtue by mackenzi lee: just a really fun whimsical book with pirates and a cute relationship and good side characters and things like that

PLEASE SEND ME MORE I’M RUNNING OUT OF BOOKS TO READ

Hell yeah

Here are the links to HHKC’s chapters Dropbox.

If anything gets claimed, it has a backup here. Might start posting and trashing a few days later so here y’all go. Updated in descending order chronologically.

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I want to urge ya'll to make space for people with psychosis in your mental health advocacy.

Let me explain.

First off, psychosis in itself is an incredibly lonely and isolating experience. Depression and anxiety have made massive strides in general acceptance and that's wonderful, but if someone has hallucinations or delusions, we're still terrified to talk about them.

Isolation breeds alienation breeds suicidality.

If you don't even feel welcome in mental health spaces that are supposed to be meant for you, you're going to feel really, really fucking bad, man. Your brain is already collapsing in on itself and turning your sense of reality into a nightmare, and then you're afraid to talk about it and feel like an alien when you do.

Another example of this - you'll be hanging out in a group of other mentally ill people and they all start talking about how cannabis helps their symptoms, and insist you try it too, (weed is detrimental to psychotic people, no ifs ands or buts, it's like eating peanuts when you have a peanut allergy) and then you're put in the awkward position of either seeming like a shetered stick in the mud or outing yourself as a Crazy Person.

First of all, you're allowed to have boundaries no matter what, but second of all, I shouldn't be afraid to tell people about this aspect of my mental health.

I also really, really want to talk about those of us who suffer suicide-themed delusions. You cannot make blanket statements like "suicidal people don't want to die, they just want to end their suffering" or "this is a permanent solution to a temporary problem", and you can't paint all suicidal people with the same brush.

I've felt your stereotypical "I'm going to be miserable forever, so what's the point" suicidality. And it sucks. I'd argue that it's just as bad as what I'm about to talk about.

But it's an entirely different beast from when I'm convinced the universe has a target on my head, and I can see into a future where my continued existence sets off a series of events that ends in the deaths of my loved ones and innocent strangers. Or when I'm convinced I have some kind of psychic poison that excaberates the mental illnesses of anyone I spend too much time with. Or many years ago, when I was convinced suicide was the only way to enter the Matrix-like world I was Called To.

I know it sounds crazy. (It is!) But these aren't uncommon delusions to have, and newsflash: we're in just as much danger as any "classically" suicidal person, if not more, because goddamn, when the stakes are "everyone I love will die if I don't do this", you might get pretty damn desperate. In that moment, to you, what your faulty brain is telling you is your reality.

Keeping this shit a secret makes it worse. Delusions kind of feed off the fear of being found out; the more it's kept secret, the more it snowballs, at least in my experience. Some of my biggest coping skills include telling my support system (therapist, partner, close friends) when I'm Going Through It, and I'm lucky that I have people I feel safe enough around to even kind of vaguely talk about it with.

The stigma kept me from telling anyone for years, and most psychotic people will, sadly, have a similar story.

It's also intensely traumatic. Even when you're not actively symptomatic, the memories of the things you saw and Knew thought and experienced still haunt you. It took me over a year to open up to my therapist about the first break I had six years ago. I sobbed my fucking eyes out and was shaking so hard.

I know so many others who will tell you they suffered with symptoms alone for so long. Which is really traumatic in and of itself, but it's even worse when you feel like you can't even talk about it when it's over, because everyone looks at you like some Weird Crazy Person. You can't talk about it, because it's not #Relatable and people believe the stigma.

I want you guys to realize one thing: Psychotic people are human.

We have dreams and hobbies and loved ones and goals and histories and complex emotions just like everyone else. We want love and acceptance and contentment just like everyone else. We just have brains that like to Fuck With Us.

And it's lonely. I wouldn't wish it on anyone, but God, I wish it was okay to casually say "I had a bad break last night" or "I'm having a really scary hallucination right now" or "I went through a year-long psychotic break", just as much as it's okay to say "I'm just coming out of a depressive episode" or "I think I'm having an anxiety attack" or "I suffered PTSD for a few years".

Especially in circles meant to discuss mental illness.

When your friend tells you of their terrifying hallucinations, or their delusions that don't make any sense to you, or their paranoias, please, please, just be there and listen, if you can. Ask questions, check in, see how they're doing. Our struggles may look different, but we're still experiencing pain and fear and loneliness.

And if you need to be able to relate to someone to feel compassion, I urge you to relate to that.

tips for public speaking

take a deep breath

it’ll be over before you know it 

pretend like you’re obama (it’ll help you talk slower)

stand up straight

in a class setting, people don’t typically pay attention anyways so it’s not like your classmates are watching your every move. they don’t care.

don’t lock your knees

bring up a note card with important topics or quotes

make eye contact if you can

or look at people’s hair. it’ll make it seem like you’re making eye contact, but it’ll be less awkward

don’t memorize your entire speech. instead, memorize a couple bullet points of topics you need to hit

project your voice as if you’re speaking to someone sitting in the back of the room

talk with your hands to help you feel more warm and welcoming

don’t put your hands in your pockets

walk around a bit, but let it come organically. don’t force it.

don’t bounce one leg the whole time, it’s distracting

spit out your gum

smile

don’t eat a big meal prior

if you have to present for a certain number of minutes, have a friend sit in the back of the room and hold up finger signs for how many minutes you’ve been up there

don’t wear loud jewelry

practice your presentation/speech to a friend or family member who is unfamiliar with the material. if they don’t understand your presentation or don’t follow, you need to be more detailed

stick to the built-in themes on power point. yes, colors are pretty, but some color combos can be hard to read, and you won’t know it until it’s up on a big screen/projector.

put pictures in your power point. they’re more entertaining to look at than a paragraph of text.

speak with formal language. stay away from curse words and slang.

remember that everyone in your class is going through the same stress.

if you absolutely cannot handle the idea of public speaking, talk to your teacher and see if it’s okay for you to do your presentation after class.

it’ll be okay.

you got this.

Ok motherfuckers listen up

I was listening to the mother knows best reprise from Tangled because it’s a fucking bop, you know?

Anyway, If you followed up on one of my stories, the card one, (like the only one until I get this new one out tomorrow) they you’ll know some of my characters from the actual book I am writing, and so I was inserting them in.

Don’t leave yet I’m almost to the point.

So I was thinking about that scene where basically after Flynn and Repo have their little song together, Flynn gets blackmailed and forced to go back to prison (to save repo) and those same guys attempt to “kidnap” Repo, then of course Mother Gothel comes in and “saves the day” and manipulates Repo like, ‘this is why you shouldn’t have gone outside and listened to me’.

Yeah, Gothel is a piece of shit. Anyway, skipping past Flynn breaking out, Repo finding out she’s the lost princess, her standing up to Gothel.

Now here’s where the ✨whump✨ part comes in.

-So caretaker (Flynn in this situation) goes back to find whumpee (Repo) and they make it in, only to find whumpee chained and gagged. They go in to free them, and whumpee screams from behind the gag.

This is of course, where Whumper (Gothel) comes and stabs caretaker in the back, leaving whumpee there crying.

(So assuming your whumpee doesn’t have magical healing powers) Whumper is trying to force whumpee into a car, basement, basically take them somewhere else, and whumpee offers to willingly submit to the Whumper, never cause another problem if they get Caretaker medical help.

And of course, the last scene with them two together before this part. (Bare with me cause I haven’t seen the movie since 2016)

-Whumper blackmails Caretaker with threats to hurt Whumpee, so Caretaker leaves them (like when Flynn turned himself in to help repo)

Then Whumper goes to whumpee and is like, “see? They abandoned you, just like I said they would.” And of course Whumpee is betrayed and hurt so they go with Whumper, knowing that Whumper will “love them”.

-Or of course, you could do the reactions of the king and queen when they watch their baby get taken.

-When Flynn finds out what Gothel did to Repo

-Repo’s thought process when finding out she was kidnapped and realizing who she was

- the ✨reunion✨cause fuck I’m soft

I’m just saying that Tangled has so much whump in it that you could get a hell of a lot of inspiration from it.

a self portrait in letters, anne sexton/ "Do not stand at my grave and weep", mary elizabeth frye/ the book of tomorrow, cecelia ahern/ dawn of 16th, sad-ist/ eight, sleeping at last/ vicious, v.e. schwab/ "ugly,bitter and true", suzanne rivecca,/ left alone, fiona apple

girls!!! we gotta fail more often!!! we’re so scared of failure and disappointing people and looking stupid that we don’t even TRY things! men?? men brush off failure like it’s nothing! if a man doesn’t get a job he wanted, it’s because they didn’t review his application fairly! it’s because the competition was tough this year! it’s because he just needs to try harder next time! men just DO things!!! and you know what DOING things builds?? confidence!!! even if you fail!! the more you fail, the more confident you are that you can fail and survive! women don’t even wanna try unless they are 100% certain that they’re qualified and competent and won’t disappoint anybody! but that is NONSENSE. men are out there getting positions they’re not even qualified for, while over-qualified but less-confident women are staying where it’s safe bc they’re afraid to rock the boat!!! DO. IT. apply for the thing! ask for the raise! enter the competition! get used to failing ALL the time! fail quickly and move on!!! if a cocky but mediocre man would do it, then for the love of god, GO DO THE DAMN THING. you are SO much more qualified than you think you are.

top 10 gayest killers’ songs

10. the ballad of michael valentine: literally just a song about how cool this guy is

9. midnight show: “DRIVE FASTER BOYYYYYYYY”

8. sam’s town: wanting to get out of your hometown is gay culture at it’s finest

7. on top: i mean………… it’s called…………

6. read my mind: not even explicitly gay but could you even imagine a song this good being about straight people? + “a subtle kiss that no one sees”

5. bones: the juxtaposition of sneaking away on the back roads and clarifying that “i don’t really like you” vs the reassurance of “it’s only natural.” the confession of “i never had a lover / i never had a soul / i never had a good time.”

4. mr. brightside: the ambiguity of the jealousy making it gay no matter the gender of the person singing is like… the definition of iconic. the jessie’s girl of this generation.

3. when you were young: the experience of “this isn’t what i pictured for myself but like. yeah. it makes sense.”

2. somebody told me: if you’re bisexual and you ever listen to any song other than this you die immediately

1. andy you’re a star: i don’t know where to begin with this one since every lyric is literally unambiguously gay. the restraint on the “hey shut up.” the facade of indifference on the first “in the car with a girl / promise me she’s not your world” vs the desperate outburst and almost-voice-crack on the second one. the vivid memories of your first unrequited middle school crush every gay person gets when listening to it. the killers singlehandedly invented gay rights thanks for listening