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just gonna type here and get shit off my mind.

i wanna be completely transparent. im 100% going to get harrassed for what i have to say, but i just need to talk.

in regards to what's been revealed about Shelby's situation and Wilbur's involvement.

i've been a big fan of Wilbur since I joined the DSMP fandom and continued to be as I grew older. he's someone i strongly related to heavily due to mental health struggles. i love his characters and his storylines, even if they were silly sometimes. i loves his relationships with those close to him, like with Tommy and Quackity especially. i love his music a lot, Lovejoy is my favorite band, and is probably the only music i never really get tired of.

this is why im not ready to just suddenly drop him. deep down i still really like him and have related to him which is exactly why it is *so* difficult for me to just suddenly stop everything related to him.

on the other hand, i've known about Shelby since i was young. i watched a lot of her stuff with NewScapePro (lots of the undertale and fnaf roleplay stuff) and she was always one of my favorites, though i hadn't really stuck with her as i grew up. when i heard about her situation, i felt a lot of empathy with her, as i also went through abuse (mental and emotional, though).

where my struggle really starts is that i want to support Shelby, but i cant find it in myself to just completely stop my interest with Wilbur. it doesnt help that Wilbur has been one of my primary comfort people for the past few years, he was one of the people i chose to watch or listen to when i was sad.

im internally conflicted. i KNOW i should stop supporting Wilbur, especially because i've been a victim too, but it's so difficult for me, especially when my current hyperfixtiations involve him primarily.

im not ready to just let go. i should do it, but i physically can't. it's so damn hard.

i desperately want to believe in him, believe that he can and will change, but i know how abusers work. i believe in him but i know i shouldnt, and it is frustrating me.

i love him (in a way one would love any other celebrity, obviously) but i also hate him right now, but i also dont.

im not a bad person for not being ready to let go yet... but what happens if i'm never ready? what if im only ready once i find a different hyperfixtiation?

what's going to happen now? will Wilbur even be okay? (i shouldnt wonder about it but i do)

im in a very tough spot. there are so many thoughts in my head that are worsening my already low point in mental and emotional stability.

im gonna be seen as a bad person no matter what i choose to do.

which is why im just choosing to not let it change what im doing right now. maybe once things calm down, maybe i can figure things out more and i may do something different, but for right now, im not going to change anything. i will change things when im ready too. people may not like that, but it's what i need. it's what's best for me right now.

i hope Shelby will be able to fully recover and heal. i hope that Wilbur can genuinely change for the better. i hope that those closest to Wilbur are doing okay too.

quick edit because i forgot to mention this:

Wilbur's mental health is NOT excuse for abuse. Wilbur's twitter post also wasn't great.

but im also choosing to keep in mind that 1. he doesnt owe the internet an apology. he only owes the victim(s) apologies. we are not entitled to an apology.

2. while it isnt an excuse, mental health still contributes to abuse which is why i still believe that if he really tries, he can improve himself.

im not forgiving him for what he did, but im still struggling with my thoughts and emotions, which is why i cant just drop everything.

i hope that this clears things up a bit more.

No, because I'm actually pissed about this shit.

I'm (sadly) an American citizen, which means that throughout my kindergarten (and possibly first and second, but certainly not third, fourth, and all after) year, every morning, we would do the Pledge of Allegiance. This was very normal for me in my early school years, except some very odd things I just learned today.

I'm currently being online schooled, I was in my history class and the topic of religion in schools came up. From what we were told, most private school are allowed to do religious practices, such as praying, public schools are not. It then got me thinking, if public schools aren't allowed to do religious practices, why is God even mentioned in the Pledge of Allegiance?

I never even remembered the damn thing until today, and it was so random. I was curious though, so I asked my teacher. She told us that the Pledge of Allegiance never had anything to do with God up until it was added in during The Red Scare. She even said that yes, most if not all, schools do the Pledge, but they allow people to not participate, whether it was because of the God part or not...

We were never allowed to not participate in the Pledge of Allegiance.

It got me thinking deeper. How many people have to stand and do that shit who are extremely uncomfortable with it? In fact, I had a friend in kindergarten who had recently came in from China, none of us understood religion at all at the time sure, but that means none of us were aligned by a religion, unless we were forced into church by parents. Besides, this friend was Chinese, why should she have to do the Pledge, it's not her native home and she was too young to fully understand that she even moved so far from home.

What about my Native American friend? Sure, I knew her when we didn't do the Pledge, but if she was moving public schools due to doster families, she surely would have done them at some point. Why should she have had to do it? She didn't know anything of God as far as I'm aware, not to mention that she's Native American, she has no reason to respect this place, because whites took the land from the Native Americans. So, was she too forced to participate?

The mere thought of this kind of things feels unconstitutional, to be honest. After all, that's forcing a belief unto an knowing victim who's too young to even understand half the words in the Pledge and is even removing free will, because if a kid doesn't want to participate, they shouldn't have too, but my school didn't give us a choice... it just feels very, very wrong.

ah yes, back in the day when i watched dan and phil and spelt "mom" like "mum"

still a good post tho ngl

CPAU If The Fandom Could Ruin It

Geno: I'M NOT NURTURING YOUR WEIRD SADISTIC SH*T!!!

Nekophy and AfterDeath Shippers: *Shoves Goth, Raven, Shino, and Xahji into the frame*

Geno: WTF? WHAT ARE THESE? WHERE DID THEY COME FROM???

Reaper: It's our children, and they're from you nurutring my 'weird sadistic shit'

Geno:

Reaper:

Geno:

Reaper:

Goth: mum are you okay?

Geno: *probably faints*

The Children: MUM??

People Change Like Tides In The Ocean // a dnf story (on Wattpad) https://www.wattpad.com/story/275147158-people-change-like-tides-in-the-ocean-a-dnf-story?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_myworks&wp_uname=d0kld0kl&wp_originator=f%2BhDPzEoSeTswm9ipMVnhpkG%2FOQFqyM%2FoI9O2%2FP7AFbSAFCpU8IBJGCrj%2BtbCptxiYmzdUpiBgIhD5cnI0gFiYdNczqeGLhcmbrqNy0j3DNiHO88TWrPN3ijudRcPK12 This is the story of George, a soon-to-be king of his kingdom, Kinoko Kingdom. Life was boring, up until a certain thief needed a place to hunker down, and just happened to choose to hide in the castle. What will everyone think when they find out George is hiding a thief in the castle? Who will George choose when he realizes his feelings for two special men? And what will George do, when one of them, is up for execution? Read to find out! Advisory! All of those used in this story are the characters, not the real people! If one of the CC's featured is uncomfortable with this, I will take it down without question. Advisory 2! OC inserts!! While the OC's in question may not be used as often, they will more than likely be mentioned. (Each of them having an introductory before the chapters begin.) Advisory 3! Every place in this story is FICTIONAL! Some of the names were used as a nod to the DreamSMP, and others were generated randomly on https://www.fantasynamegenerators.com/town_names.php Cover photo was made by "soytastesbad" on Twitter! All credit goes to them!

I cannot explain how much I already love my work and am proud of it, I’ve never even been the type to share my works the way I am right now, but I feel compelled to share it, so I hope, to anyone coming across this and is taking a chance to give it a shot, I hope you enjoy my story!

CPAU If The Fandom Could Ruin It

Geno: I'M NOT NURTURING YOUR WEIRD SADISTIC SH*T!!!

Nekophy and AfterDeath Shippers: *Shoves Goth, Raven, Shino, and Xahji into the frame*

Geno: WTF? WHAT ARE THESE? WHERE DID THEY COME FROM???

Reaper: It's our children, and they're from you nurutring my 'weird sadistic shit'

Geno:

Reaper:

Geno:

Reaper:

Goth: mum are you okay?

Geno: *probably faints*

The Children: MUM??

"They hurt you because they like you." Needs to stop.

I come on here today to bring forward an issue that I have personally dealt with myself.

Most of us females, when we're young, are taught that a boy likes us if he is hurting us, by bullying us, throwing things at us, pulling our hair, pushing us around, you name it. Anything a boy at a young age could possibly think of doing, they did it. When I told my mother about a boy bullying me when I was still in elementary school, from 1st to 4 grade, and even when I see him now, in 11th grade, he treats me like shit. Any chance he got, he used it to hurt me, whether that was emotionally or physically. He'd get his little sidekick friend to chase me around the elementary playground and throw the rubber at my back, so much so that it could cause burns and bruises. I never told my mom that, because when I did, I was told "oh. that's because he likes you."

He abused me, and yet, I still liked him. I still had that stupid little crush on him, even if he hurt me. I was young and impressionable, and I didn't know any better. When I was told "it's because he likes you", that tells me, my little, underdeveloped brain, that it is OKAY for men to treat me like shit, because they love me, and THAT'S why I should stay. I should ALLOW men, with their big fat egos and fragile masculinity, to treat ME like shit because they 'LIKE' me.

In my first relationship, I was treated like shit by my girlfriend and some of her friends. People that I considered my friends. Yet I was gaslighted, I was manipulated and verbally abused by these people who I thought cared about me. People I thought LOVED me. I thought that love was enough, even if they treated me like shit, maybe, deep down, I even thought I deserved it. That I was the one in the wrong. I wasn't in the wrong. They didn't care, they didn't love me, platonically, or otherwise. They abused me, they neglected me. It's been years and still, their actions and words cover me in their shadows. I'm still healing.

Still, to this day, I let people walk all over me, because I push so many people away in fear of the manipulation and abuse that I may be put through, and I have no one else. I don't allow myself to go out and meet new people because I'm so afraid of losing them if I get attached. And I know this, but I also know where it comes from. I've let people walk over me all my life, just because I was taught that it was okay for people to do that because they love me. I was a kid, and I needed acceptance, so I let it happen, but I was never faced with acceptance.

For my whole life, I've been told "he hurts you because he likes you.", and only one time had I brought it up, recently this year, and my mom realized, "Wait... he did that to you? Why didn't you tell me?" My mom realized her error, and while I do forgive her, I cannot forgive those words that set up the first years of my life.

That is why we cannot tell children these things. If you teach your kids that it is okay for them to be abused out of 'love', then you're not only part of the problem, but you are setting them up for the life of a victim. A victim may never understand what love really is because when they think love, they think ABUSE, they think hitting, yelling, throwing things, and cursing. No one deserves to live life as a victim of anything, and it is our job to help future generations NOT grow up like we did. We're supposed to teach generations after us that abuse is never the way, that abuse is NOT love, and it never will be. Abuse. Is. Abuse. Let's start saying it like it is.

Killer, stubbing his toe: Ow! Son of a bi-

Cross: Killer! [gestures to Asy] He can hear you!

Killer: --scuit. Son of a biscuit

Cross: Wow, nice save

Killer: I know, right? Fucking nailed it