A Bolboreta ..

Blurred between love and hate

How do I decide my fate ,

When my heart tells me to wait

But my mind tells me to do a double take ,

Life isn’t ment to be a surf

But why was we brought to earth

With this thing called worth,

Emotions are tough

When other people are rough,

Just another torch

To light up the path

For another soul to walk

While we wait in the back fall ,

Why did the cells give me a heart

To just keep being scarred ,

It don’t know when to stop

And that will be my flop,

On this place we call earth

Burnt from inside , out

For something we call love.

@trueemotions91

Did you ever think

The power a child can bring to a man ?

I will admit

It’s about the sex .

But maybe we look past

How a man is made ,

His primarl instinct

To make love to woman

And watch his seed grow

Into something remarkable .

Into a soul

He connected to on a another level

Maybe it’s empowering for him

to watch

Her belly grow

Knowing it’s his well being

Made by his flow.

To allow him

To reinpreganate another soul

To find it attractive

Knowing he holds half the key

For another life

I wonder so .

@trueemotions91

Crossroads lay ahead

The paths are clear now:

Continue or change

Alcohol, antidepressants and rage

Sobriety, healthy lifestyle and peace

Exhausted from protecting myself

And pretending to be strong

ALWAYS ❤️

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My mind is my master

A slave to all

The only thing

That is out of my control.

@trueemotions91

Heart broken

Spoilt little whore ,

Why you looking at me

Look at the floor.

Fool ,

Your heart is filled of

Stone cold coal.

I was only trying to find

Something inside.

He was petrified.

@trueemotions91

Hey ,

yes you ,

I see you ,

you know ,

Everywhere ,

Glowing in the air .

@trueemotions91

emotions make me feel physically sick

Yet I fight that feeling everyday

Just because I’m used to feeling that way

It’s not normal

I know that now

It is my soul

Breaking inside

It’s only escape

Since I lock it deep

I’ve ignored every instinct

To fight what I know

Coz the truth be told

I just don’t care no more .

Bottled for far to long

It’s only aim is to remind me every day

What makes me feel vile

But I allready know

He will never complete my soul

Yet forever under his control .

@trueemotions91

In life we all make mistakes some bigger then others

But we all make them .

Who are you to judge the person next to you ?

You ain't living with the pain, there are paying for their actions .

Some more then others.

Just coz you see them smiling 😀 don't mean inside they ain't crying .

When you look in there eyes, they may be looking back but inside they are shutting .

Trying to smile to hide the pain inside

. Trying to walk when your knees are shaking.

But you know you have to make them steps.

You don't no what that person is feeling !!!

Same as they don't you.

So next time just sit and think what you do.

Coz your actions and vocals can cause more damage to someone then your ever know . Just think

@trueemotions91

If you ever feel like this my inbox is forever open ! ❤️

A gun

A quick escape

To exit this thing called life

My Brain can’t take no more

Every day I force a smile

For what?

For fuck all

My head can’t think no more

I don’t want be on this place called earth

I want be dug deep in the ground

Out of this crazy life

Where there is no escape

From my self .

It’s a mess.

I give up fighting the urge everyday

To just end this shit.

For real.

If I had trigger

I wouldn’t hestatie

To know it would be over within a blink

It’s the perfect escape .

It’s lucky I don’t owe one

Or I would be in a place I call home .

Heaven .

Away from this nightmare

I can’t escape.

Please lord give me strength not

To put a end to my own light.

I don’t know why you placed me upon this life

And have me air to breathe

Every night

I ask why ?

What is my purpose to you under this dark light

Maybe the easy way out

People will say

But there don’t know the state of my mind .

It’s hard to cooperate

When all I see around me is snakes

I’m done with life .

Even the ones who claim to love me

Can’t see what is doing to the insides of me.

Life is a joke

No one gives a flying fuck

That my brain is turning into sticky glue

With words I can’t relate to .

Just tired of the pain my mind plays daily

I would rather live in a zoo

Then play this game of 2.

Hate is a strong word

But belive me when I say I hate this earth.

It’s full of devils

Ain’t no angels here

Just a fuckin game of tug .

I ain’t got the strentgh to pull

The fucker to my side no more.

Years of fighting with my own

To now just want be put in a hole.

I’ve learnt to accept it’s the only place

Im going be at rest

With my crazy soul.

I’m close to admit

The fucker has won .

@trueemotions91