Dear My Anxiety, Today I Want You To Know:

having health anxiety is the worst because you’re so worried about dying that you actually forget to live

One thing I hate:

How my doctor says I'm fine yet I still dont believe am fine 😑

Me: I guess an advantage of my hypochondriasis is that I’m always aware of the state my body is in. So if I do find something amiss I can get treatment and raise survival rates.

Also Me: Has this always been here? Has it always been this size? Do my cramps always hurt this much? Have I always breathed this way? Is it serious enough to bother a doctor? I don’t think it is - but what if? Guess I’ll just wait until the fear becomes unbearable and I burst into tears at lunch.

i love how we've collectively lost our minds over t8s

the confusion when i go to the doctor for a check-up and they find nothing wrong with me despite the 38 illnesses i’ve diagnosed myself with in the last week alone

Update on me 😊

So I've been on my anti anxiety meds for four months now and I must say..... I feel so much better now. My anxiety is still there which sucks but am able to shut it up easier now. I also stopped googling symptoms which is a huge thing and I don't ask for reinsurance that much anymore but sometimes when I get scared and Jeff decides to be a dick ( Jeff by the way is what I call my anxiety lmao) I ask but only once or twice. I also don't freak out about every little sensations i have!!!!! if I get a headache, I'm not terrified of it. Even though there has been good things, my anxiety is still there which means I still have some of my stuff still. But what really matters is that am learning how not to let it affect me anymore and I'm learning how to fight because im gonna be honest, its never gonna go away, but if I can get it to be not so loud, that's what matters. 

Over thinking kills your happiness by Me

Man I have to take anxiety pills just to hang out with someone 🙃

If overthinking was a super power I would be the most powerful one lol

SUCKS ASS!!!

So I recently discovered I have health anxiety and must I say it sucks ass. Every single sensation I have, I think I'm dying. I ask for reinsurance all the time but now even when someone tells me they don't feel a lump or that my eyes are fine I still don't feel fine. Sometimes I wish that it would just go away because am so tired , I just want one day were I can breath without thinking something horrible gonna happen.