I Just Went Climbing Today Which Is Something That Will Probably Send Me Into A Flare Up, But Omg It

i don’t know. i’m barely a person. i just want to be kind and hold someone’s hand. eat an ice cream cone. stare at the lake. feel the sun on my skin. lay in the grass. run through a sprinkler. it’s so easy to forget life is supposed to feel like a deep breath and not a gasp

[cheerfully] i've been in self-made hells worse than this

feeling hungover and drunk at the same time eventhough i didn't drink and am actually just chronically ill

i feel like i only really developed something similar to health anxiety after a chronic illness...

because what if this is just a new thing now?

loving people with chronic health conditions and there being nothing to do to help them SUCKS

i have chronic issues myself but when i break down it's mostly because the people i love are miserable

i am tired of seeing the people i care about suffer without being able to help

started doing physical therapy again and my chronic pain got worse... really debating just quitting rn

"just listen to your body"

hate to break it to you, but if i would do that i wouldn't even get out of bed

someone told me that they would end themselves if they had even half of my health issues... idk what to do with that information...

barely having symptoms for a few days made me think i was cured... turns out that isn't the case

i always feel bad thinking i would prefer having a weelchair some days

i would never say it out loud because i know it would be an invonvenience and people already look at me weird for using a cane, but i would actually just be able to do things whenever i want to...