Can't Completely Stand Upright Rn, But I'm Still Gonna Try To Function Tomorrow (we'll See How That Goes)

chronic pain and final exams at the same time isn't fun

hypothetically in how much pain would i have to be in order for it to be okay to tell people to fuck off? because i am close

i explained to my teacher today that my medical condition won't just go away, there is no cure... he said that it can't be true, because he can't believe that all you're being told is "you just gotta live with it"

he also said i shouldn't choose my carreer path depending on how doable it would be with my illnees, but this is my reality... i need to consider things like that

not being able to sleep due to pain sucks, because sleep is the one time i am not in pain

i need people to understand that when i say i can't do something it means that i can't do something, it is not up for discussion

i ate a dry piece of bread... nothing else... my stomach feels like someone is stabbing me

navigating doctors visits and applying for university in the same week while going to school should be a valid answer if asked what exercises i do

how are you supposed to tell people who you recently became friends with that you sometimes need to use a mobility aid?

is there even a way to make it not awkward? because it shouldn't be awkward

so my school decided cause there were too many absences last year to note it on report cards which is whatever BUT they are gonna make a special note about it if you miss over 12 hours (even if it's excused, which is btw less time than i spent at hospitals the last month) so no matter what happens basically you have to go which is dumb

first of all i think doctors notes should completely excuse it because then it wasn't just staying at home for fun... also my school is the only one doing it in this region so only we will have disadventages when applying to university and yk how little 12 hours are? shit happens, like so many things can happen that you have no control over

a teacher offered to try to find a solution for me which i am thankfull for, but also this isn't only about me:

"oh but it probably won't affect you" i don't care it's still unfair

i would love a no symptoms day