My Issue With My Anxiety Is That The Way I Typically Deal With It At Home, I Cannot Do The Same Thing

not to sound desperate but

PLEASE PLEASSSSSREEE I NEED A BOYFRIEND PLEASSEE OH M YGOD PLESSE I WANT A BOYFRIEND SOCBADLY I NEED INE PLEASEEE GIVE ME A MAN PLEASSEEE I NEED A BOYFRIEND SO BADLY

Misogyny.

tbh i find it very ironic that in the past before my transition, i hated makeup and found it too much work to deal with but NOW?

i LOVE makeup. i LOVE doing my eyeliner. i LOVE femininity. and wish i didnt donate all my makeup because i didnt think id ever like them TT_TT

im literally taking the time to learn makeup and stuff so i can

my stereotypical trans name was elliot with the nickname as eli when i first came out back in 2020/2021

(i detransitioned due to transphobia but again, story for another day)

and it stuck with me

it isnt the name i use today but i use it in other ways

like the email i made when i came out includes it

i dont like it for me anymore but it was the name that helped me discover who i truly am

so

i dont mind the name elliot / eli

if i planned on changing my middle name,

id probably make it that

what i’ll probably do is tell people that my middle name is eli but not change it

my middle name means too much to my family, especially my mother that i cant imagine changing it

(but thats a story for another day)

tumblr gotta stop recommending me fem aligned communities dawg i am NOT WELCOMED THERE 💔

playing tomodachi life and was trying to make sans then thought its be funny to make a coke addict

this is his second time giving me cold pills

me and my cousin were joking around (one who knows im trans, btw)

we both decided to eat cereal at 11p. i had frosted flakes and shes having fruity pebbles

we’re both queer so i called her a fruity faggot just like her cereal (as one does)

and she said that i needed the cereal

and whenever we do jokes like this, you would claim to not be apart of a minority while you’re obviously apart of it (jokes goes: claim the other is a minority they’re apart and they deny it)

so i of course did the usual spiel of denying being queer and tried to say “im a straight woman” but i just…. couldnt.

yall i couldnt even jokingly lie about being cisgender 😭

i also stopped using ftm to describe myself. i kinda feel weird using that term for myself. i dont wanna refer to my previous identity to acknowledge my current one. no shame to others who do, though!

"Everyone, look! It's the transmasc/trans man who is whining and bitching about how his/their bodily autonomy rights are being taken away and how he/they is still a target for malpractice in the medical field and how he/they are still a target for misogyny and transphobia in the cis ran world! Everyone point and laugh!" 🤡

This is genuinely have some of you mfs sound. Stfu. Ignorance is not bliss, it actually harms people in the long run.

#You are perpetuating the same misogyny we've experienced the majority of our lives it's just in a different font now.

you've been salmonsharked reblog to salmonshark someone else

dude i cannot wait till i pass

i cannot wait till i look more masc and androgynous

i cannot wait till i look like how i want

i keep getting recommended posts by transfems and their journey and them passing im so jealous and happy for them theyre so happy they pass so well theyre so pretty i cant WAIT FOR THAT ERA OF MY TRANSITION WHERE I JUST AM SO PROUD AND OUT AND HAPPY AND POSTING ABOUT IT