My Stereotypical Trans Name Was Elliot With The Nickname As Eli When I First Came Out Back In 2020/2021

IM SO JEALOUS OF GUYS ON HRT I WANNA BE ON HRT SO BAD FUCK WHY DID I HAVE TO PROMISE MY MOM I WOULDNT START UNTIL I STARTED THERAPY THERAPISTS ARE SO FUCKING EXPENSIVE IM HAVING SO MUCH GENDER ENVY GOD I WANNA LOOK MORE MASCULINE SO BADLY OH MY GOD

yall i finally deleted twitter 🙏❤️

im healing

"Trans men and women are both suffering" and "trans women are often specifically targeted by bigotry and harassment even within their own communities and deserve to be able to talk about their own unique challenges without being talked over" and "trans men are often erased from conversations about how bigotry and transphobia targets them and are not exempt from all the horribly draconian laws transphobes are attempting to pass" and "being trans doesn't make you immune to participating in horrible transmisogyny even and especially if you aren't aware you're doing it" and "holy shit don't reinvent bioessentialism but for trans people like holy fuck men are not destined to be evil and women aren't automatically incapable of harm" are all opinions that can and fucking SHOULD coexist

BEING TOLD YOURE A PLEASURE TO HAVE IN CLASS ISNT A GOOD THING????

therapists saying you're surprisingly self aware is like being called a pleasure to have in class for adults

yall im in jamaica the fucking heat is beating my ass

yesterday, as i was going to my driving lesson, i realized that the random pair of sweats i picked up were the pair of that make my thighs very apparent (im curvy) and it almost made me break down crying 😭

like i love how curvy and fat my thighs are but hate anyone seeing them or any outfits that make it apparent because they cause me dysphoria/dysmorphia because people will see them and go “oh! woman.” since men typically dont got curves like this 😔

normalize big booty men 💔💔 normalize thick thighs men 💔💔💔

me and my mom were talking about my dads family (whom she doesnt like a lot of, for good reason tbh)

she mentioned hoe my grandmother once told her that she thought i might have adhd when i was a baby or toddler and my mom shut it doen

i find it VERY ironic seeing as, i too, now believe i might have adhd or at least neurodivergent in some sense

the only good thing about being on it is that wearing a thick pad makes it look like i have a slight bulge

leaving out to go to the airport

i miss my cat already :(

whenever i wear shoes or a sweater she runs because she thinks shes going outside in a car so im not able to hold and kiss her to say bye :(

i was only able to pet her head and say bye

i wont be seeing her for 3.5 days 💔

heres a picture of her watching the fishes

shapeshift!