I’m Over You But I Will Never Be Over What We Had

#need something to grab onto #to ground me #feeling lost #hold my hand #before i float away

I want...

I want to rail. I want to scream at the top of my lungs. I want to yell out horrible things about him and make him feel as useless and broken as I do.

I want his arms around me. I want him to stroke my hair and tell me it will be okay. I want to believe it will be okay. I want to be safe. And secure.

But no one hears my wants as they fall directly into the blackness which was once my heart.

Time again to box it all up. Put it away. Pretend I don’t feel. Time to lose myself in mundanity. Hide from passion. Give up on hope.

I tell you I love you All you can say is “Why?”

No matter how hard I try Or the amount of willpower I manage to summon You will always be my weakness

It’s just nice to know once in a while you’re weak for me, too

Chocolate is a health food. I bring her chocolate and I remain healthy.

Outgrowing pain, shedding it

Slithering from the dried brittle remnants

I have been imprisoned for far too long

Pieces still missing, still growing

But grow they will

I may never again be whole

But I am no longer broken