I'm Supposed To Be Asleep Right Now

Friend: I’m having a depressive episode right now

Me: please! Take! Care! Of! Your! Self!

Me: try not to hurt yourself!

Me: try to do what makes you happy!

Also me, having a depressive episode myself: *self-harms, cries, doesn’t tell anyone, keeps it all in, and pretends like everything is okay*

Me: positive vibes

For the TUMBLR NSFW PURGE

I’m pretty sure everyone knows what I’m talking about but Tumblr staff released an update saying that blogs flagged as nsfw will be banned on December 17th, 2018. Nudity, genetalia, or “"female presenting nipples”“ are all considered forms of posts that can get you banned. People are calling this the Tumblr purge and everyone is freaking out. Tumblr has been flagging accounts under the radar as well SO:

If you don’t know about your blog being flagged or are worried about someone else, if you go on this site postlimit.com you will be able to search your blog name to see if you’ve been flagged for being nsfw. Your icon will be blurred out and there is a section (that I highlighted in blue) that will tell you whether or not staff considers you nsfw. You can ask for an appeal, however at this point and considering how in the rules and guidelines ED related blogs are not allowed I would be careful. Tumblr staff might be drawn to your blog if you ask for an appeal and just might straight ban you before December 17th even hits. But, if you’re desperate and don’t care because you’ll be banned anyways, go ahead and try, it might be worth a shot.

Here is what you’ll find if you scroll down after typing in your blog name or someone else’s:

If your blog is marked to be banned by d17, your icon will be blurred and there will be a red ‘yes’ by the explicit section! However, remember you can appeal.

!!PLEASE REBLOG AND BOOST THIS POST FOR EVERYONE IN THE COMMUNITY! STAY SAFE AND MIGRATE!!!

I think that people only like me when they’re sad. I listen. I’m empathic. They realize that I’m not a “fun” person. I’m upfront about my emotions. They leave. They always leave. God fucking dammit.

“When you are attracted to people, it’s because of the details. Their kindness. Their eyes. The fact that they can get you to laugh when you need it the most.”

— Jodi Picoult

Do you know what I hate most about abuse? It makes you “crazy”. It makes you angry and tearful and volatile. And that in and of itself leads people to dismiss your story when you say you have been abused. They use your unstable emotions as an excuse not to believe you or to say that it’s at least partially your fault. It seems like almost nobody but other survivors stop to wonder how you got that way to begin with

“I just want to hold his hand while he’s driving. I want to scream along with him to the words of our favourite songs. I want the early morning kisses, and the goodnight ones, too. I want to wrap my arms around him when he’s sad, and I want to fall asleep on his chest. I want to make him breakfast and bite his lip and ruffle his hair. I want to cuddle up with him on the couch and watch our favourite movies. I want to lay in bed with him after a whole night of pillow talk. I want him when he’s sad, when he’s happy, when he’s angry, when he’s nervous… I want to make this boy the happiest he’s ever been. I just want to be his girl.”

— i want to be with him (np // january 1, 2019)

I’m sick of flinching when people move. I’m sick of panic attacks in public because I thought I saw your face. I want to sleep but nightmares haunt my slumber and keep me awake. YOU may not have put your hands on me but there are people who have. You never touched me, you just scream and rave and threaten and starve me. I still remember hiding the bruises. Long sleeved shirts in summer and knowing stares. Head down, curl in, be small, make no noise. These habits have stayed with me.

Did anyone else experience abusive parents telling you how ‘lucky’ you are that you’re still a kid because you have it easy now, and things are about to get much harder for you once you grow up, because people still 'coddled’ you because you’re small but once you’re adult you shouldn’t expect anything from anyone, and will have to work much harder to get by? And it would instill complete terror in you because you were barely surviving as it is, things were already so impossibly hard and painful you wanted to end your existence, and by telling you things are about to get harder, you were actually told “you aren’t going to live for much longer“ and it was a big part of why you never expected to live to grow up

Eat healthy foods because you want to nourish your body, not because you want to change the way it looks.

Move your body because you want to keep it strong and healthy, not to change its shape.

Love your body fiercely, and let that love be what drives you to treat yourself with kindness.