Another night on my own, and you’d think after 6 years I’d be used to sleeping alone, but when I lay down my head, this house still feels like an empty home.
Poetry At Most
abusers be like “if you loved me you’d let me invade your boundaries and make you feel like shit if that makes me happy”
cptsd: do you ever feel like someone is “safe”? i never feel safe anywhere but sometimes a person feels very, very safe. it’s hard to explain. can anyone else elaborate on their feelings on this?
“Real loss only occurs when you lose something that you love more than yourself.”
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It’s okay if you can’t love your body yet. It’s okay if you can’t accept yourself yet. It’s okay if “thanking” your body or “finding inner qualities you like instead” don’t help in creating higher self-esteem. We battle against messages all around us telling us to hate our bodies. These are not easy things to unlearn. Be kind to yourself; what matters is that you’re trying.
STOP! TELLING! PEOPLE! THAT! NO! ONE! WILL! LOVE! THEM! UNTIL! THEY! LOVE! THEMSELVES! STOP! PLANTING! THE! IDEA! IN! PEOPLES! BRAINS! THAT! THEY! ARE! UNWORTHY! OF! LOVE! BECAUSE! OF! THEIR! OWN! STRUGGLE!
I’m losing weight so slowly, it’s so disheartening…
Have to remember. Rome wasn’t built in a day. If it was easy everyone would do it. This takes time. Every meal skipped and calorie avoided is a step forward. I’ll get there, I’ll get there, I’ll get there.
anyone else get in that place where you kinda feel like crying but no tears are coming out, and your sad but your not really sure why, and you just really want someone to hold you and tell you everything is gonna be alright cause you feel really lonely, but you don’t want to bother anyone with you problems so you just kinda sit there holding yourself in the dark.
95% of my personality is worrying I do everything wrong and that I will inevitably be abandoned because my traumatised ass is too much and simultaneously not enough
We look at people who leave relationships like they’re monsters like how could you just decide you don’t want someone anymore when they treat you well and maybe they gave up a job for you or moved, whatever. But really we’re allowed at any time to decide ‘I don’t want to do this anymore’ no matter what someone has done for us. Why should I have to stay unhappy just because you treat me well? And okay, maybe I have no reason to be unhappy in the first place if you treat me so well, but that’s a separate issue. Because what it comes down to is it doesn’t matter why I feel this way, just that I do. And that’s allowed. And it doesn’t matter how great you are or what you’re willing to do for me because sometimes it’s just not going to be the right path for me no matter how smooth you pave it.
“Cause we said no strings attached and I still got tied up in that”
— Drake /// The Motion
Everything seems to be so hard. A blog about feelings, poetry, mental health and past trauma experiences and about living with it.
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