No End Of The Season Race Has Hit Me As Hard As This One. I'm Sobbing Profusely Rn. I'm Gonna Miss This

FUCK THE FIA!!!!

say it with me now,

FUCK. THE. FIA!!!!!!!!!!!!

toto saying, "if we can't win, you should win." THEY MAKE MY HEART WANT TO SHRIVEL UP AND DIE OH MY GOD

so i've been reading a lot of ana huang books recently. and by a lot, i mean the whole twisted series and the first book in the kings of sin series. the way ana huang writes her characters and the way she connects them and the way they flow seamlessly together is something i feel like i will never find in any romance series or books really. i mean i also haven't read a lot of romance. so it could be that. okay so to the real deal ranking the men i've read so far about. I have two lists actually so please bear with me.

what my logical brain which is good at reasoning and has good self preservation says:

1. Rhys Larsen

2. Dante Russo

3. Josh Chen

4. Christian Harper

5. Alex Volkov

what my heart wants:

1. Josh Chen

2. Dante Russo

3. Rhys Larsen

4. Christian Harper

5. Alex Volkov

okay that's that and i understand why y'all hate Josh. but i feel like i understand why he did what he did. and also they were both in the wrong equally as compared to the other books. like i understand what he did was horrible but i can't help it I love him.

as for my least liked Alex, I don't know I just find him very bland and meh. like yeah the sex was a-fucking-mazing to read and I love sweet sunshine Ava. but he just didn't do anything for me. Alex stans don't come for me. i don't hate him completely I promise.

and i cannot and will not stop raving about Dante Russo. he is my ideal man. the man of my dreams. i would sell all my organs if it meant i could have a man like him.

Rhys Larsen is perfect. that's it.

and Christian was an interesting person for me to read. I don't know how to feel about him. like obviously what he did was so horrible. if I was Stella I would chop his dick off. but again it's all fictitious so whatever. i feel like i could not tolerate him. he was more interesting to read than Alex though, since the higher ranking.

I will read the other kings of sin books and keep you guys updated because i love reading romance and smut obviously.

uh huh my thoughts precisely

does he know he's a four time wdc and makes googly eyes at a monegasque man all the time?

prosenna: francis forever by mitski

if i say something rn I'll be shunned by society and sent to the deepest pits of hell

my two favourite people in the whole wide world

THEY TOOK LOGAN FROM ME. NOW THEY'RE TAKING DANIEL. WHO'S NEXT MAX VERSTAPPEN???

I'm so upset and i will be sobbing for the next few weeks. the interview where you could see he was getting emotional but still smiling has shook me to my core. i need to be taken to emergency care

hey so, why did i do this?