Just When You Think You’ve Reached The Bottom, The Ground Splits Again

Gettimg a random burst of energy but I still wanna kms is so weird cause wdym I'm jumping around and acting silly but in my head I wanna die like what 😭

No matter what I do I'll never be special.

all this effort for what?? im still fucking disgusting, ugly and pathetic. i feel so fucking useless. what’s the fucking point of trying anymore? i can’t see it.

i dont know if i ever could really.

Whenever I get upset it's like it doesn't even matter. It always "You don't know how to take a joke" "You're being sensitive"

Oh, but if I did the same? I'D BE THE FUCKING ASSHOLE?!

i was born to die in pain

I just had the most stressful yet relieving moment of my life

lay on my chest while you tell me about your day

how am I so good at fucking shit up??

I should've never lived to see 2025.

"It made me so happy to hear you laugh again" Yet you are the only reason I even did. You make me so happy yet you make me so angry, so sad and so hurt. I don't want to lose yourself, but I can't lose myself more in the process of trying to keep you close.

I try and try and try, yet you seem to move further away from me after every try.

Why won't you let me love you?

Please don't tell me that this is all just a sick and twisted game that you are playing, because the game you would be playing is called "My feelings" and I would lose every time.