I Just Had The Most Stressful Yet Relieving Moment Of My Life

I have to sides when it comes to love

Tender soft pure love and obsessive love where I'm destroyed in the process

I hope you forgive me for ruining everything

Hey I noticed you didn't reply to me within 2 seconds even though ur online! (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) Do you hate me? Do you want me to kill myself? Be honest.

Another vent

Tw sh, sa, child neglect

If any of this triggers you please dont read any further

I have this friend ill call m for this that is really making me want to sh. Basically when I was younger I was sa as a child by my birth mom (who im no longer with or in contact with) and now I'm adopted by my aunt.however my 3 sister all younger than me are living in foster care with my grandpa now m knows all of this and more that I won't get into but she thinks she can tell me about my situation. I try to explain to her that I think of them as my half siblings since we all have different dads but my friend says that's not how it works and I get it might not but that term feels right to me but today she crossed the line.We were In class talking about families and we got to siblings and we had to raise are hands I wasn't going to since she was going to ask questions I knew I couldn't answer them(I saw them for the first time in 7 years a month ago and know their names only)but my friend made me put my hand up and got mad at me when I said I felt like I shouldn't and she kept persisting so I snapped at her and said that it's my life not yours and you don't and I feel like a shit friend for getting mad at her.but it makes me mad at m since she knows I was sa and neglected but she still says stuff like that and makes me feel like shit for even trying to to tell.i feel like a horrible friend and don't know how to fix this

If read all of this thank you for listening

If you have any advice or want to share a story feel free to say anything

Do you think of me as often as I think of you?

i would be unstoppable if i could start a conversation

death isnt enough. i need to never have existed

Me core