*taste The Soup Like A Witch*

Geology core for real ! A little retrospective on my September and October! And some sneaky pics of the beginning of November!

Pilot part 5

Hey, long time no see, it's like the hundreds time I try to post this, and I was so close twenty seconds before but it disappeared, I don't have the strength to write down everything again. I was talking about the places I wanted to be instead of my current location : the ocean, on a hill and in space watching a supernova. A friend of mine confess his feelings to me and it feels so wrong and weird. I feel sick and I want to cry ! Everybody keeps telling me I should be happy but I am NOT HAPPY! I feel bad, I don't like it,I am scared and I don't know what to say! I don't understand, I don't like it, I want to run away from my life! Be anyone else! Nobody will ever find this account, I know those things I post are supposed to be part of the pilot of the story I planned to write but I use them essentially as a diary. Goodbye

Love the idea plus it will get me out of my editing/writing block.

Here is the main character Ava (without spoilers <3)

Yes the book is missing a title, yes I am working on that.

OC in Three

I was tagged by @thatndginger ^^

Rules: share three pictures that represent an OC

My urban fantasy novel, Our Demonic Hearts, doesn't get as much attention as AoC, so here's the main characer Ana Kravens <3

No pressure tags to @frostedlemonwriter @starlightnecromancer @steh-lar-uh-nuhs @thestorywitch and open tag to anybody else who would like to join!

True to myself it didn't take long for a new problem to appear.

Did you know that finding an Editorial house and publishing house is a pain in the neck ? Well I did, so I decided to start looking to try and find a few that could correspond to my need.

I find one but to find the relevant information they make you click on several links that end up just keeping you in a never ending cycle of links. So I gave up, after 15 min. I think that if I can't find what I need in 5 minutes on a site then it's probably not worth my time anyway.

That was a major let down but I will be going back online, later in the project, to continue my search for the graal !

Here it is !! (albeit really late ) Linda from Samba de Amigo and Linda from Rio (2011).

I hope you like it @sambadewinx !

How did you discover you were a kingfisher?

Okay, that might sound a bit weird but even now I am questioning whether I truly am a Kingfisher.

I knew it was a bird because of small shifts and some habits of mine that can be interpreted as kin related. But that was step one.

Then (when I realised it was most probably therian related) I tried different types of birds : small birds or bigger ones, predator or not. So the steps were something like : "okay so I might be a hummingbird wait no more like a Pelican, no that's too big, oh ! Maybe it's an hawk !"

(To this day I still think that my theriotype is hawk (or related) and kingfisher)

Then I picked up a book about birds and looked at all of them, and did some research, then gave up.

A month later, I was chilling on my sofa, watching a documentary on the science chanel (as you do) and then a Kingfisher came on screen and as the voice was describing their habits and their habitat I was left wondering.

Am I just empathising with this bird in a "haha" way or am I empathising with them because not only we have a lot in common but because I have a sense of "kinship" towards them?

I picked up this idea and took it to my computer and resumed my researches.

There it was, small bird that lives near the water and who fish. Sounds like my dream life honestly.

But more seriously, it was trials and errors (I am still questioning my theriotype) and I feel comfortable with this identity but maybe that is just because I haven't found the exact bird yet. It takes time and I won't lie I was tempted to just give up and never acknowledge my needs and yearnings. But not only does it make sense (for the bird therian situation) but it also feels good to finally put explanations and names on quirks that you could never understand before.

I don't know if that is a satisfactory answer to your question but I found it nice to write about it fir you anon ! Have a great day and a merry Christmas or Hanukkah or any holiday you might celebrate!

I wasn't expecting to be tagged on anything so soon but ty so much. Let's goooooo

Last song : Running with the wolves by AURORA

Last show : Hudson & Rex

Currently watching Young justice but I'm going on vacation so I will have to wait a bit T-T

Currently reading: A brief history of time and Exoplanets

Current obsession: Dc comics and justice league !So that was fun ! I'm tagging...@w0lf-kin @obstructed-birdsong @wolfyboi44705 @sootandfangdiary

nine people i want to get to know better

ty @lesbee-dee, @sewerkingcharlie & @thekidkelly for the tag!!

last song: sane by greentea peng

last show: nathan for you & x files

currently watching: WWDITS & all seasons of Drag Race airing rn

currently reading: all the lovers in the night by mieko kawakami (prob the best book i've read so far this year, recommend if u like japanese realism)

current obsession: planning a trip on my way home to Australia next year after spending the last 3 years in Japan (hyperfixation rly comes in handy when it comes to making itineraries, i fucking live for it)

i tag @milo-is-queer @kathleenbrash27 @heartshpedfx @sunnydregs @clumpofglitter @gayrights666 @trillgutterbug @charliekelly89 @brezideje if u want <3

Hello 👋 can we request our own OCs?

Hello ! Nice to see new people in here !

To answer your question and make it public : YES ! You can absolutely request your own OCs but...

Remember the quality of a request is lesser than one of a comission and the time I will take to make and complete the piece will be completely random ! It can take a long while !

With that disclaimer out of the way, it will realistically, at worse, take up to three weeks but I will keep you updated during the whole process! You can always ask me question during the whole process !

HOLY S*IT

You remember me? Gosh it has been so long...

I...I must have fucked up.

I really did.

You remember when I say I would try to open a portal because I couldn’t take reality anymore? 

Yeah

I never thought I was so close from reality.

I haven’t been here for the past two years or less, I don’t understand what happened because apparently I have been living my life normally here. But you need to understand, I HAVENT SEEN MY PARENTS DURING THIS WHOLE TIME.it took me two days to recompose myself. I HAVE BEEN EVERYWHERE ELSE DURING THIS WHOLE TIME AND NO ONE NOTICED!!!!

I recall those days through a haze, a blurry screen, almost like when you try to remember a dream.

So now I will mostly recall every single places I have seen, before I forget. Because I don’t want to forget, I don’t want to forget those people I met and those skies I saw...

Do you even read something so bad, or play a game with terrible script and worldbuilding that you think "I'm not even good at writing but even I would do a better job ?" Yep, that was me when I was 14 and today I just finished writing my first book. Keep your eyes peeled because I fully intend to publish it !