How did you discover you were a kingfisher?
Okay, that might sound a bit weird but even now I am questioning whether I truly am a Kingfisher.
I knew it was a bird because of small shifts and some habits of mine that can be interpreted as kin related. But that was step one.
Then (when I realised it was most probably therian related) I tried different types of birds : small birds or bigger ones, predator or not. So the steps were something like : "okay so I might be a hummingbird wait no more like a Pelican, no that's too big, oh ! Maybe it's an hawk !"
(To this day I still think that my theriotype is hawk (or related) and kingfisher)
Then I picked up a book about birds and looked at all of them, and did some research, then gave up.
A month later, I was chilling on my sofa, watching a documentary on the science chanel (as you do) and then a Kingfisher came on screen and as the voice was describing their habits and their habitat I was left wondering.
Am I just empathising with this bird in a "haha" way or am I empathising with them because not only we have a lot in common but because I have a sense of "kinship" towards them?
I picked up this idea and took it to my computer and resumed my researches.
There it was, small bird that lives near the water and who fish. Sounds like my dream life honestly.
But more seriously, it was trials and errors (I am still questioning my theriotype) and I feel comfortable with this identity but maybe that is just because I haven't found the exact bird yet. It takes time and I won't lie I was tempted to just give up and never acknowledge my needs and yearnings. But not only does it make sense (for the bird therian situation) but it also feels good to finally put explanations and names on quirks that you could never understand before.
I don't know if that is a satisfactory answer to your question but I found it nice to write about it fir you anon ! Have a great day and a merry Christmas or Hanukkah or any holiday you might celebrate!
I sat there. Silently. I said nothing when he sat next to me. We just stared in silence at what was in front of us. How should I describe that ? Light was a liquid, a see of stars and supernovae. Blindingly bright yet soothing to look at. It shifted like gentle wave under the breeze. I witnessed with my own two eyes the universe unfold all its mysteries. I watched in awe as the big bang happened again. We sat there witnessing the reinvention of time, of matter, of gravity, of life. It expanded until it broke and folded on itself until it vanished from existence and once again exploded into this incredible ocean of possibilities.
From the silence came his voice. "Why are you here?" He asked, and suddenly I heard the universe sing
"I do not know" I answered
"It's alright "
"Why are you here?" I asked
"Because the burden of life sometimes gets to heavy for my to lift it"
"So you come here to rest?"
"I am always here, it's just that sometimes I take a tangible form"
"Wouldn't it be heavier that way?"
"No. You humans do not carry this burden. I feel light when I am you"
"I do not feel so light when I am awake"
"Well come back here anytime you need then. You'll always exist here. You just need to remember it"
Nanami Kento as a Palace guard from Aladdin (1998) for @princeasimdiya12 !
Plus a bonus Gojo as Aladdin in his prince disguise!
Hope you like it !
Fair enough lmao
Do you even read something so bad, or play a game with terrible script and worldbuilding that you think "I'm not even good at writing but even I would do a better job ?" Yep, that was me when I was 14 and today I just finished writing my first book. Keep your eyes peeled because I fully intend to publish it !
Prise flag but its just the Michel-Levy chart also called the Newton colour of interferences chart
Hey, long time no see, it's like the hundreds time I try to post this, and I was so close twenty seconds before but it disappeared, I don't have the strength to write down everything again. I was talking about the places I wanted to be instead of my current location : the ocean, on a hill and in space watching a supernova. A friend of mine confess his feelings to me and it feels so wrong and weird. I feel sick and I want to cry ! Everybody keeps telling me I should be happy but I am NOT HAPPY! I feel bad, I don't like it,I am scared and I don't know what to say! I don't understand, I don't like it, I want to run away from my life! Be anyone else! Nobody will ever find this account, I know those things I post are supposed to be part of the pilot of the story I planned to write but I use them essentially as a diary. Goodbye
You remember me? Gosh it has been so long...
I...I must have fucked up.
I really did.
You remember when I say I would try to open a portal because I couldn’t take reality anymore?
Yeah
I never thought I was so close from reality.
I haven’t been here for the past two years or less, I don’t understand what happened because apparently I have been living my life normally here. But you need to understand, I HAVENT SEEN MY PARENTS DURING THIS WHOLE TIME.it took me two days to recompose myself. I HAVE BEEN EVERYWHERE ELSE DURING THIS WHOLE TIME AND NO ONE NOTICED!!!!
I recall those days through a haze, a blurry screen, almost like when you try to remember a dream.
So now I will mostly recall every single places I have seen, before I forget. Because I don’t want to forget, I don’t want to forget those people I met and those skies I saw...
Sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do.
Do you even read something so bad, or play a game with terrible script and worldbuilding that you think "I'm not even good at writing but even I would do a better job ?" Yep, that was me when I was 14 and today I just finished writing my first book. Keep your eyes peeled because I fully intend to publish it !
Geology core for real ! A little retrospective on my September and October! And some sneaky pics of the beginning of November!
Every time I log in.
If someone know the artist please let me know
With my friends we had a really philosophical discussion about : “would you like to live in outer space” . them and I tried to think on it and I came with this :
“The only thing I know is Earth, yeah I love looking at the stars, looking at the night sky wondering if we are alone, I love watching NASA documentaries about space and all that have a link with it, listening to people speaking about the Univers Mysteries, I think I would love to go to space but I know myself, I will be quickly homesick. Earth is a pretty good planet trying it’s best, as I do, to stay alive, it’s a beautiful place, I love all it’s features such as cloud, rain or trees, the animals and the seas…
“I don’t think I will be able to live in space, first for this reason, but it’s not the only one, then it’s also because I’m claustrophobic, living in a spaceship/station or in a base on an other planet with no easy ways to go home quickly would be a nightmare to me unless the planet have a breathable atmosphere, because that would mean we can be outside “safely” and whenever we want so, yeah, it would be easier. Finally because I would panic if a thing a little bit unexpected would happen. Oh and I almost forgot, if it’s on Mars we wont see Earth, home, anymore, it will just be a tiny shinning dot in the night sky and I think it will be complicated for everyone.
“Now let’s imagine Earth is pretty destroy, there’s no longer forest and wild animals, the pollution is everywhere and cause horrible new illness. The Earth we know no longer exist and you are choosed to go on a mission in space. Then I think it wont be this difficult anymore because Earth is no longer a peaceful place, it’s not a Home you want to go back to, I think that if it was me I would have remorse, maybe will I feel homesick to but it will quickly fade as I look at the infinite space and it’s promise about a better futur.
“And finally, if I never knew anything else than space, hearing people talking about Earth will just make me curious nothing more.”
They agreed on that but I know everyone is different, they wont have the same reaction as me, and this is why I love talking about such subjects. they makes you wonders how you would react in a totally differents situations as you are right now but the best are when we know the subjects will never be real because it force you to speculate about yourself.
Sometimes I think about the rovers and the deep-space probes we send in space, I imagine them drifting away further every day that pass.
Maybe I’m over-thinking but think it’s sad and sometimes a single tear run down my face I think of that, and it’s the same for stars dying and exploding into Supernovas, planet floating alone in deep space because they lose their solar systèmes, cold ans in the dark.
Yes I’m very sensitives, I hope you understand what I’m saying because It usually don’t make sense for the others.
struggling artist and dungeon master, also geologist and astronomer, I do some shit photography. ✨️REQUEST AND COMISSION OPEN✨️
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