Worst Side Quest In The Final Fantasy Franchise?

Artwork my husband and my best friend, @notleriff, got for me for our anniversary last year. Leriff and Yurah. ♥

Artist: Somerdrop

Happy birthday! I hope it's a good one.

Thank you! I will do my best to have a great day! 💟 Also, thank you for sharing all of your wonderful characters, thoughts, and likes with us! I love seeing you on my Tumblr dash!

It's been a rough two weeks. Today has been the first time I've felt any kind of peace and my mania has settled. I forget that handwriting things is such a treat for me. Though I dislike my hand writing, working slowly and jotting things down in a "pretty" way really gives me a sense of peace and accomplishment. Today I started writing recipes from websites I like down in a notebook. It'll work for now. I even got help.

I know I was going to separate all my FFXIV stuff to a side blog, but my husband and best friend are right (as usual) and know me. I go through phases of wanting to organize everything and then giving up and combining it all again because it becomes a hassle. I think I need to step back from social media for a while soon. I believe it's getting to me.

I think getting more hands on is definitely my goal for the next month. To do more instead of just peering at it from across the table.

i just wanted to finish my recipe!!

I started a project. Picking up the trash around my building and in this dense area where a lot of our little critters hang out. I filled a single trash bag today before I figured out how difficult it’s actually going to be. This picture is after I finished.

I pulled multiple plastic bags and picked up about twenty discarded alcohol bottles from under the leaves.

Gross. I don’t understand how people can think this is okay. I smartly bought gloves to wear beforehand.

I really want to do something meaningful, and I feel like this is a good deed that I am capable of doing. I do want to purchase a rake to better get under the brambles and to scope for any snakes that might be underfoot.

Not to mention the area between buildings. When my neighbors aren’t parked there, I think I’ll go snatch up all the trash in that area. If nothing else, it’ll make me feel better.

I know this is kind of a medium project that could be done easily with more people, but I don’t have any local friends to recruit. After this, I might start walking the neighborhood to pick up trash off the side of the road.

Anyway, I’m proud of myself for this. Even if I only did one bag, it’s a start to make a difference.

Artwork by everschade

I've been binging horror game lore on YT and it makes me want to do more horror writing and interactions on my OCs. But I am always afraid of how far I can go before someone feels uncomfortable or hates it.

When I say "horror game", I mostly mean Fear & Hunger, Darkwood, Bloodborne, and I'm looking for more!

"Remove shoulds from your vocabulary this year. Start your journey of self-love now." - Kelly Martin

"Autumn is my favorite season!" Everything proceeds to go wrong in Autumn.

and i give up.

i am stressed, i am anxious, i am depressed, and i am manic. i feel like since the end of October, everything has decided to just stop being good for me, personally. yes this is a first world problem, yes i'm going to whine about it because i just spent 20 minutes crying in the shower.

finances are getting tight for multiple reasons, and of course our bed breaks and then, on queue, the car needs a pricey fix that also means we cannot drive it as often or as far as we want.

i decide that i'll make my home a little better but just fixing it up! it'll benefit us and the landlord might appreciate it! i get prepped and then find out that we were told wrong and i cannot finish the work i started. great.

trying to get my outside time and enjoying the company of the neighbor's cat! chair suddenly crumbles under me and i topple off the side of the porch. ouch.

i gave up on trying to fix the keurig i was gifted last holiday because i just cannot get it to work.

my cats have terrible breath and i am really concerned about their teeth and health. they seem fine, but the bad breath is worrying.

all of my self-development work and my work toward helping my mental health just flew out the window at the start of the month because i just felt it in my gut that something bad was going to happen and everything did at once.

all i can do is cry. i feel helpless. i have no sense of control over anything. i can't do anything to fix it all. my therapist said she was proud of me, but i can't even feel proud of myself now. i'm giving up. i just don't know what to do anymore.

Most of Dawntrail's story was experienced like this.