It Took Me Too Long, But I Finally Finished The Last Unicorn. I Had Bought A Deluxe Edition Of The Novel

My focus/theme for the year of 2025:

Less is More.

My desire is to focus on being grateful for what I have and trying to break my terrible habit of wanting more. No more window shopping online, no more visiting store sites for "fun", no more tossing something because it has a scratch on it. Unless it is unusable, it will be cherished and used until it can no longer serve its purpose.

This goes for most consumables and long-term purchases. I want to be more purposeful with my purchases - I want to buy things that are good quality and meant to last. I don't want to be persuaded to buy something because it is an "upgrade" to what I already own.

I also want to fix the items I have and learn to repair them instead of simply tossing them without attempting to find out why it isn't working first.

I want to learn to be grateful for the things I have. I want to be more aware of my spending habits and what I already own. I want to be less of a consumer, honestly. In a reasonable matter.

Tonight, I let go.

Of all the pain, despair, misery, and images that haunt me on this date. I release them to the wind, to the rain, to the earth and let them become nothing but distant memories of my youth. I move forward holding the love, the warmth, and the joy that those years with you brought me. I will celebrate the life of all of those I hold dear. I will not dwell in death, but I will flourish in the gifts you all gave me.

This day has held me hostage for my entire life, but I felt you today. I felt you in that moment where the rain picked up and you cried with me. I felt your acknowledgement of me, my love, and my promise to surrender my grief. I stood lighter, the world felt brighter- my ears even popped, and I could hear more clearly!

I will carry forward the happiness we created.

I won't let him try the hummus I bought. In fact, I put him on the couch from my desk and this is how he's been for 5 minutes. Every once in a while, he'll turn and stare at me until I look at him, then quickly turn back around to put his back to me again if I do look his way.

me: i love songs that are deep, hold meaning, tell a story, create elaborate images in my mind and move my heart while making me consider my own existence.

also me:

I would love to try art again, but I can't stop comparing myself to other artists. I know they have been doing it for years and if I did, I could get close to that level, but my brain says "if not good immediately, no." Ugh.

My husband is ill and there's nothing more I can do for him, so my mania is taking over. I've done the quiet clean ups and retried making banana nut bread with this recipe. The first time I made it I had a dumb and forgot flour... you know, the main ingredient in bread. I need more hobbies that keep my hands busy because when I run out of chores, my manic episode worsens, and I feel as though I want to crawl out of my skin and scream.

Bipolar really is something.

i miss when houses had character

now everything is gutted and flipped to look like stale white bread

why take the character out of the house? where's the charm? why did you remove all the love that went into it?

Anyone know a nice app that teaches you a random word or fact daily and an app that gives you positive news?

i'm very low mentally, emotionally, and physically. i'm doing my best, but all i can do is coast through the day. i really want to work on things like gposes, but i just can't find the motivation to. so, i simmer today. instead i'll try to see everyone else's creativity.

Happy birthday! I hope it's a good one.

Thank you! I will do my best to have a great day! 💟 Also, thank you for sharing all of your wonderful characters, thoughts, and likes with us! I love seeing you on my Tumblr dash!