So I finally graduated high school and now i’ve been accepted into going to the university of performing arts in New Zealand. Im very greatful for all the things I have accomplished and i’d like to thank Sebastian Stan. I’ve looked up to him as an inspiration to follow my dreams into becoming an actor and I think he’s a really great talented actor who deserves an Oscar.
Woohoo goodbye 13 years of schooling and hello to the adult world😌🏫📓
Oh god I wrote a thing:
my name is Steeb and wen is night wen Avengers sleeping tite Hawkeye snorin in his nest wif teddy snuggled to his chest Widow in her webby place Bruce is somwher out in space
Tony werkin on his soots an Vision doin teh computes even Wanda disnt see or Sam when he get up to pee Thor he is not evn heer (probly on asgard drinkin beer) I sneek down to tha hangar bay an get in quinjet on my way
to Wakanda I will fly peopl no the reason why no one sees me i am lucky
i pres defrost i kis the Bucky
when u scratch a cat’s chin and they lift their head up reblog if u agree
the winter soldier gets triggered but instead of hurting or killing people, he just becomes really passive aggressive and generally dickish to everyone.
he refills the salt shaker with sugar
“i’m so sorry, i didn’t mean to spill my drink all over your lap”
stealths through the living room and unplugs the tv 5 minutes before your favorite show is about to start
you think it’s just the tv remote and go to get new batteries only to find bucky’s replaced all the new batteries with dead ones
he deletes all your shows and timers on the dvr
but does it slowly, 1 or 2 at a time, so you just think something’s wrong with the dvr
can’t find your toothbrush. bucky took it to clean his guns
waits until you get in the shower to start the dishwasher
double dips in the fondue
writes his name on every food item in the house, even the stuff he didn’t buy
“this is my fruit bowl. no one is allowed to eat from it but me”
sees you washing a load of white clothes. throws his red shirt in
takes up playing the kazoo
best time to practice it is at 3 am. says it helps with his insomnia
all toilet paper in the house has disappeared
fills the candy dish in the kitchen with sugar free gummy bears
“i don’t :) know why :) you’re so :) upset :)”
Summary: Every night JARVIS would calm him from his terrors. Then one night, JARVIS walked. He walked from the tower with his own body and mind, and now Tony Stark is truly alone. One shot. Angst.
Genre: Angst
Pairings: None
Trigger warnings: PTSD, depression, Tony Stark crying, mentions of self harm
Song: Hurt - Johnny Cash (Logan Version)
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First he had been stabbed in the heart.
A rocket carved guilt into his chest.
Forever marring him as a dead man walking.
So he had shut down Stark Industries weapons division. And that meant his 'friends' were suddenly busy, and his 'fans' were tweeting death threats. Minor things, he guessed. The real hurt came from seeing how many of them were faking it, not that they themselves were fakes.
Still, sometimes.. it made Tony wonder if, despite it being an attempted assassination, it counted as self harm.
Then Obie had betrayed him.
Tried to kill him.
Made him look like an idiot, a fool, and literally torn his heart (sort of..) from his chest. Realistically it had started well before then, but his blissful ignorance was a sort of barbed comfort blanket. He wanted it back if it meant his life would be.. would be normal again.
He thought he'd seen everything then.
And then of course everyone else tried to kill him. People he'd never heard of. People he had. Some weren't surprising; Justin Hammer always had been a weasel of a man.
Pepper, too, had nearly died.
God, the thought of her in pain- of her falling, screaming, and the fear in her eyes. Never before had he experienced such abject terror. When she left him, Tony couldn't blame her.
"I'm sorry," she croaked, dabbing her eyes. Pepper couldn't look at him but Tony couldn't tear his eyes away from her. "I just can't, Tony. I can't. I'm so afraid- that I'll lose you, or you'll get hurt. Sometimes I worry for myself, too. It's all too much. But I love you, Anthony Stark-"
Everything after that blurred.
Sure, Pepper was right. Hell, she was more than right. When wasn't she. Not one day passed when any of them couldn't help but wonder if it would be the last. And while Rogers and Romanov seemed to thrive on it, Tony drank and Pepper took anti-anxiety pills.
They weren't trained for bullets and spies. They knew boardroom warfare, sabotage, and political espionage.
So she left, and he hugged her, then cried, then he went and built a better suit.
It was okay after a while. JARVIS was always there, and frankly, some days wouldn't have lead to new ones if J hadn't been there. Been his rock.
"J-Ja-ay," Tony slurred his words, glass shaking slightly. Whiskey splashed the rim and dripped onto the already stained carpet.
Silence.
Oh, that's right.. no more JARVIS.
'Right,' Tony thought to himself, 'How many have I had?'
Hazily he could recall maybe eight glasses of liquor. Nothing fancy, it was all straight and whatever was in the nearest bottle. Was eight too many?
"S-s'aah, be f'ne," Tony hiccuped, reaching to pour himself another glass.
He misjudged the distance, however, and slipped in a recent spill. Landing facedown, Tony groaned, vision blurring.
'Fuck.' He thought. 'I'm drunk.'
Struggling to get up, Tony wiggled on his stomach, crawling towards a bar stool before coming to lean against it, panting.
'Never mind.. this is comfortable..'
Why had JARVIS left him?
"Why.." Tony whimpered into the carpet.
Had he been a bad creator? Had he hurt J's feelings? Probably. Tony always did that sort of shit. Made people cry and then abandon him. Or run from him.
"J-JARVIS, buhddy," Tony croaked.
"Sir?" FRIDAY questioned.
Everything slowed down for a second.
"JARVIS?" Tony whispered.
"JARVIS is not here, sir," FRIDAY replied quietly.
So Tony screamed. He screamed and he thrashed, crying into the filthy carpet. He drooled on himself and choked up, crying like he had when he was still too small to understand why the real Jarvis had also left him.
"Sir, if I ca-"
Tony choked. "Fuck off, FRIDAY..just.. you aren't JARVIS."
It hurt. It hurt to even think- his only real friend; therapist, mentor, apprentice, his fucking everything was gone. He'd been given a body but it was like he was dead.
What kind of fucking sick god thought it would be funny to take his J away? Is this how mourning mothers feel? But then he had to stop. He couldn't think about it. He didn't want to, it made him feel like he was back in that awful cave in Afghanistan..
And then of course, he'd hurt FRIDAY.
"FRIDAY?" Tony whispered.
Silence.
So Tony lay face down, sobbing silently, and wondered once again why he had to wake up in the morning.
~
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A WinterIron plot bunny idea I had and wanted to get out because I’ve seen Hanahaki Disease floating around my dash for a bit, and I couldn’t give up a good idea what I had it. I don’t feel like it’s a fully fleshed out enough fic to post on AO3, but I just like the concept. Bad At Love by Halsey inspired the title because fuck Halsey and her feels. (the aesthetic is mine)
Tony was four, the first time he caught Hanahaki. Four. And if that weren’t sad enough in concept, it was even worse knowing it was from his father.
Tony had just built his first circuit board. Worked on it for weeks, which to a four-year-old felt like a world of time and energy. But he’d finished it. And it worked. He’d shown Jarvis first, and the reaction from his caretaker had been one that lit up Tony’s world. Tony was sure, oh he was so sure, if Jarvis had loved it so much, his father would have at least liked it a little bit. Sure, he’d always been a bit distant with Tony, but Tony had worked so hard. He’d worked so hard.
But when his little hands thrust the circuit board toward his father, almost as if it were an offering, big brown eyes wide with hope, the only response he got was his father raising a hand to him, sending Tony and the circuit board down tumbling to the ground with one strike. It was then, lying on the ground at his father’s feet, Tony coughed up his first flower. He was too young to even understand what it was supposed to mean, he only knew that when his father crushed the flower with his foot as he walked away from Tony, Tony’s chest ached.
After that, Tony was conservative with his love. It took him even weeks to accept love from Jarvis, too afraid of being pushed away again. He eventually got over it, but he was still too skittish to love someone new, for the time being.
The first time it was a romantic love, was with Rhodey. Rhodey was amazing in every way, and Tony couldn’t help fall for him. And sure, Rhodey loved him back, he’d made that very clear, but the pinched look on his face the first time Tony coughed up flowers when Rhodey mentioned he was straight said it all. Platonic love wasn’t enough. At least, for Tony.
But Tony convinced Rhodey he’d be able to get over it, and he was, eventually. It took months, Tony even considered surgery, but eventually, he did really feel happy for Rhodey when he saw him with some girl and stopped coughing up those damned flowers.
At his parent’s funeral, someone had once asked Tony how he felt. His only response had been to stare at his mother’s gravestone with a heavy heart, then choke up a mouthful of flowers. It made sense, he guessed. She couldn’t love him if she was dead. There were good reasons Tony was an atheist. No one, not even his mother, could love him beyond the grave.
Tony wasn’t even surprised when it happened with Pepper. After Rhodey, Tony had given up on trying not to fall in love. Most of his crushes went as quick as they came, one of the main reasons they were never requited, Tony supposed. He was just bad at love. He couldn’t seem to make it last. Going back and forth between coughing up flowers and not; until Tony didn’t even bother paying attention to who was the cause. They wouldn’t matter in a few weeks.
But Pepper’s had lasted so achingly long. So long that Tony actually forced himself to go through with the surgery, only because he couldn’t handle the disapproving looks from Pepper every time he coughed up petals around her. It hurt, not only physically to have the flowers removed, but also emotionally. To have one of his most lasting loves ripped from his heart, just because he couldn’t contain himself.
He was just bad at love.
With Steve, it had been surprising. At least to Tony, anyway. Tony thought he hated Steve, detested every inch of his being. And Tony supposed he did, in some ways. But for reasons that couldn’t seem to stick. At least not the way his love did.
It had startled both of them when Tony started coughing up flowers when Steve had snapped out some insult at him. The look of disgust on Steve’s face somewhat reminded Tony of Howard’s reaction. It did, even more, when Steve stormed out of the room, crushing petals that had fallen to the ground with his step.
After Steve, Tony decided he would never fall in love again. It was a vain promise, sure, but Tony vowed to follow it, even if it led him to the grave. He didn’t want to ever have to deal with a mouthful of flowers again. To him, that’s all that love was.
Maybe that was the real reason it took him so long to realize he was in love with Bucky.
Sure, Tony hit it off with Bucky. More so than anyone had predicted they would, all things considered. The lingering touches, the flirtings, the inside jokes, the sweet laughter at two am.
Natasha was the person to bring it up to Tony.
“You’re in love with him, aren’t you?” She asked one night over coffee when it was much too late for either of them to be drinking coffee.
Tony glanced up. “Nat, I’ve been over Steve for almost a year now.”
She rolled her eyes. “Not Steve. Bucky.”
Tony frowned. “Haven’t been puking up any petunias lately, so nope, don’t think so.”
“You’d only have Hanahaki if it was unrequited, Tony.” She sipped her coffee.
“I-what?” Tony paused, staring at her. “I don’t-James doesn’t-”
“Tony.” Natasha cut him off. “You’re the only person in this Tower who calls him by his first name, and I’m positive he’d punch anyone else who tried. And same goes for him calling you Anthony. You look at him like he’s your moon, he looks at you like your his sun. It’s ridiculous how sappy you both are.”
Tony stared at her. “I don’t…”
“Hush.” Natasha flicked his head. “Ask him out for coffee sometime.”
“I can’t do that.” Tony stared at her with impossibly wide eyes.
“Why not?”
Tony blinked. He supposed she had a point. But grasping the idea that he had a crush on Bucky was… it felt impossible. Tony was so used to love and Hanahaki being bound together for him, one couldn’t exist without the other. The idea that he loved Bucky was barely overshadowed by the realization that Bucky loved him back.
Bucky loved him. Someone loved Tony. For once in Tony’s life, someone returned the affection he was so used to burning and withering away inside of him.
For that reason, Tony was terrified. Terrified he might get over this crush on Bucky as quickly as he had his previous crushes, and he’d leave Bucky just as hurt as others had left him. Tony couldn’t do that to someone else. He just couldn’t. Maybe Tony was bad at love, but he had to try.
“Okay. I’ll ask him out for coffee sometime.”
Hunter
Pairing: Bucky Barnes/Darcy Lewis For: @phoenix-173 Prompt: Phone Sex Operator AU
Bucky stared at the business card in his hand, half in disbelief that he was even considering doing this, and half in blind excitement at what was about to happen.
It was true, it had been a while for him. For a lot of things.
Sex. Emotional connections.
He’d had the card for Clandestine Calls for a while now, but hadn’t felt the need to use it until recently. He hadn’t had a reason to fix this part of himself.
But he’d felt a twinge of something the other day. A twinge of something akin to attraction. For a woman. A woman he knew, and thought highly of. Someone he respected. And he’d panicked. He’d absolutely panicked.
And this? This didn’t feel as cringey (or illegal) as hiring an actual…call girl would be. It was just practice.
Or at least, that’s what he was telling himself as he logged into the website.
And he wouldn’t even have to engage in anything sexual. And if he wanted, he could just hang up. And these women wouldn’t hold it against him. No one was getting hurt.
Except, possibly, his credit card balance.
A chat window popped up immediately. Someone from customer service wanting to help him through the process.
Whether it was a bot or a real person, the rep was nice, informative. They explained the blocks of time he could choose from. The first was five minutes. The second, an extension to seven, the third, an extension to twelve and so on. He chose the seven minute block to start, mostly because he wasn’t sure if he was even going to do anything this time around. But five seemed too short a time to decide.
An extra two minutes, though. That was apparently where the magic happened.
He was directed to a payment page, where he gave his credit card information. So his real name was attached to this account. But that was something to be kept secret, apparently. This company prided themselves on their ability to keep things confidential. Because the next question after he entered his credit card info was what he’d prefer to be called.
Jack, he’d typed, coming up with the name out of necessity because he suddenly couldn’t think of anything besides his real name.
Your consultant’s name is ‘Diane’, have a good time.
A number was listed below.
Diane.
Most assuredly a fake name. As fake as ‘Jack’ was, at any rate.
Jack & Diane.
Kind of funny, now that he thought about it.
Possibly to be continued as long as no one else is writing anything similar…
Pairing: BuckyxOFC | Word Count: 5,178 | Warnings: Swearing, talk of human trafficking
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Layne opened her eyes when she felt the quinjet touch down on the tarmac. She groaned and stretched her cramped shoulder muscles, her attention grabbed by Greg Andrews who was yelling at them all through a strip of fabric that he was being gagged with.
“Welcome back, kid,” Steve chirped pleasantly, clapping his right hand on her knee. Layne smiled softly, still unused to any real interaction with the main squad. Bucky just caught her eyes with his and gave a reaffirming smile.
Bucky had spent the flight back to Stark Tower keeping a careful side eye on Layne as she napped. He bantered with Steve and Nat with Clint adding his own snarky remarks here and there. Whenever the quinjet jostled, even a little, his eyes immediately shot over to Layne to make sure she wasn’t disturbed. It wasn’t until touchdown that he had gently tapped her away with his foot, pretending not to notice Steve and Nat smirking at each other.
“Thanks,” she said softly. “What are you guys going to do with Greg?”
Natasha got up and opened the door to the quinjet; hopping out she offered her hand to Layne which was gratefully accepted.
Steve attached his shield to his back and took Andrews when Bucky passed him off. “We’re going to take him down to holding. Black Widow will be heading the interrogation.” He answered, his hand holding Greg Andrews’ upper arm firmly making the older man walk nearly on his tiptoes.
“Can I come watch?” Layne asked, hope filling her voice. The team seemed to be warming up to her, and she was hoping she could ride out that good luck into actually seeing Natasha in action.
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