Bingo!

Okay so, I go to my blog to find a picture I posted earlier and the “This Tumblr may contain sensitive media” page showed up, even tho I posted nothing that can be counted  as sensitive media???? I tried to contact Tumblr about this, but I can’t find where I can do it, so now I will wait for some time and hope 🤞 I really don’t know what to do

I have an Instagram now! for uh, no specific reason, really

okay, joking aside, I really love IG's story function and everywhere I go, I miss it. so I will most likely use it as a kind of place where I can share updates? who knows, we will see

Je ne sais pas comment faire... C'est ici pour faire une requête d'écriture ? Si oui... D'après la liste, je dirais 11 et 15 avec Nathaniel d'amour sucrée... ( je suis gênée, je ne veux pas déranger et surtout me tromper >~<')

thank you again for requesting me! as you asked for NSFW, I'll put it under the break. (for clarification, I contacted them in pm and they asked for NSFW there)

j'espère que tu l'aimeras ^^

11. bathing / showering

given how both Nath's and Candy's job takes up a lot of time, they have to cherish even the simple, everyday things like showering

I imagine that they used to bathe together, but they immersed so much in the feeling of just relaxing, that they ended up spending their whole night there

it's not just relaxing what they did while bathing though... Nath usually offered washing Candy's body and hair, his hands caressing her skin with delicate movements, wandering over her chest or between her legs sometimes

this often led to Candy howering above Nathaniel, her legs on the sides, lowering and pushing herself up rythmically

switching to showering didn't stop them from having a little fun every now and then, though in a different position of course

Nath likes to pick up Candy in his arms (it's definitely easier if Candy is short), holding her against the wall while he's thrusting in and out

they tried doing it from behind once or twice as well, but it's a bit risky, given how Candy's hands can slip on the wet wall

15. touching

if Candy doesn't like being touched much, then she should be fast to tell Nath, because he likes to have his hands everywhere

it isn't always in an erotic manner, sometimes it's just lightly brushing his hand along her body, enjoying the feeling under his palm

during sex he's extra touchy though: playing with her tits or folds, sometimes slapping her ass lightly, grasping her throat, anything. if / when Candy tells her she doesn't enjoy these, he immediately stops and apologises of course, he's only into kinky stuff if his partner is as well

if Candy likes these, and even returns them... that can make Nathaniel go absolutely crazy. the warmth of her hands on his arms, abs, or taking initiative with pleasuring him, they all send him to Seventh Heaven

my answer will be under the cut as well (I couldn't write that long answer haha), but I do have to clarify in the beginning that I'm not a doctor or something, so this is just what I think I would do in a similar situation

tw: eating disorder

I don't know what your exact "goal" with weight is, at some parts it seemed like you want to lose weight, at some others it seemed like the loss of appetite is worrying you... which can absolutely coexist of course, and here goes what I want to say:

I haven't heard about this Zoloft before, apparently it's an antidepressant. even if losing appetite was listed as a symptom, I don't think it should be ignored (two weeks seems an awful lot for a side effect to last, or at least to me - I haven't had any meds with serious side effects yet). if you can trust your doctor with it (because I know there are some assholes out there with a Dr. before their name...), I think you should tell her about it. maybe you could switch to another kind of antidepressant which doesn't have / has less serious side effects (only if switching to another one doesn't make you uncomfortable, of course)

about the weight loss thing itself, again, I don't know what you want to do about your weight (and you absolutely don't have to share if you don't want to). but, anything you want to do with your weight should be connected to your eating and moving (?). even if you want to lose weight, I'm about 100% sure starving yourself isn't the right way to do it; you don't even necessarily have to eat less. there are many types of diets and special eating methods (?) that you can choose from. yes, it takes time to browse through them all and the one that you think you like might not even be available to you because (bad example): it would require you to eat pineapple every day, but you live in the Arctic; but it's still worth in the end. you don't need to starve yourself, you need food even if you want to lose weight. (also, important note that as much as you shouldn't starve yourself, you shouldn't stuff yourself either. for very different reasons, but I had a short period where I didn't want to eat much, but I tried to notice when I started feeling "enough" and what felt like "too much", and eat an amount somewhere in between these two. no need to eat until you're sick of it)

so yeah, all in all, I think it would be good if you talked with your doctor (maybe even through the phone, if that's okay with both of you - the longer you keep losing weight, the more serious it can become later on), because the side effects you mentioned are kind of worrying to me :c and if you want to lose weight, but differently, it could be helpful to look after some kind of diet (maybe even with the help of a dietetic - if there's one available)

aaaaaaand also again, I'm not a doctor at all, I just tried to imagine myself into your situation and think about what might be helpful, I hope I could help <3

[the two (?)s are because I'm not sure I used the right word, I'm sorry if I didn't make sense :D also, I'll tag this post with your tags as well, so people can avoid it if it triggers them]

ed rant under the cut bc this might trigger ppl and i dont want that :(

i started zoloft two weeks ago, i'm on the lowest dose and most of the side effects have worn off (still getting headaches most days, some dizziness, the fatigue and sleepiness is subsiding which iam v grateful for bc dealing with that on top of chronic fatigue wasn't easy)

but like..... i'm absolutely not hungry. i don't feel the need to eat and i'm content with very small portions. i know loss of appetite and nausea are possible side effects, but i wasn't expecting it to hit this hard dfherh. i dont have much nausea, but mostly i can't eat before noon, all i have is water and coffee, and trying to eat just makes me lowkey nauseous. it's triggering some good ol ed thinking patterns, and i kinda hope i can stay on this medication once i see my doctor again. smh. because i'll keep losing weight. so far i'm down 40 lbs since august 2020, and i want to lose maybe another 15 lbs. i don't have a scale and only get weighted every 3 months, when i get my birth control injection, so that's at least? helping me not spiral too much?

when i saw my doctor in april, my doctor wanted to send me in for a psych eval, because yes i was seeing her for anxiety symptoms, but i also have depression and psychotic symptoms. so there was talk about maybe switching out medications after we have a proper diagnosis, and she talked of seroquel to really target all my symptoms including the psychosis. i'm terrified because weight gain is a side effect, and i really don't want to go back.

i dont know. there's a lot going on in my head and i'm trying my best to eat at least a bit to keep me going, but this whole loss of appetite is really triggering and i'm leaning into it to restrict, even tho i can't do as much being chronically ill now, i become weak very fast if i try to fast :(

that's all rgihrtgi if you've read this thank u, idk if anyone will do anyway. i feel too self conscious about this to properly journal about it. probably will write armin fanfics bc this is how i cope

also hello everyone who haven't given up on me and unfollowed, I'm still alive!

life is shit but eh I stopped trying to do something against it. I started writing two headcanons yesterday, they should come soon, and then followed by the third chapter of Broken Heart Can Beat Again ;)

sorry for the hiatus again

@marycecilyy shame on you

feeling very hurt that many of my beloved mutuals are, in fact, in loving committed relationships with actual significant others irl. disgusted and betrayed. thought you guys were all single losers like me

Happy Halloween everyone, especially @jockallensworld who’s an amazing friend! I don’t know she personally celebrates it, but here’s Erika as Kida from Atlanis (hehe, I have no idea where the costume came from 🤭)

Have a nice day and don’t go trick-or-treating because that’s not COVID-conscious ❤️

wow, that soon?

I'm thinking about having an AO3 account, and uploading everything I've written there... and also start writing there as well

it would be actually useful, because I never know how to write things in as little words as possible, and AO3 is better for longer writings

I could also just simply learn how to write properly hahah

on the other hand, I have fanfiction ideas, and Tumblr is not the best platform for those...

@louis-ratking BAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA

diversity wins! your tumblr mutual is italian

@otomes-and-tears familiar feeling?

how other people see my enthusiasm in writing fics: passion

how it really is: