I Have An Instagram Now! For Uh, No Specific Reason, Really

as a little note: I know that I have a few requests sitting in my inbox, but don't worry! I'll write them all eventually, I simply used to be (and kinda still am....) overwhelmed with school + I have this "angst writing challenge" going on right now. but as soon as possible, I'll reply to everyone ^^

my answer will be under the cut as well (I couldn't write that long answer haha), but I do have to clarify in the beginning that I'm not a doctor or something, so this is just what I think I would do in a similar situation

tw: eating disorder

I don't know what your exact "goal" with weight is, at some parts it seemed like you want to lose weight, at some others it seemed like the loss of appetite is worrying you... which can absolutely coexist of course, and here goes what I want to say:

I haven't heard about this Zoloft before, apparently it's an antidepressant. even if losing appetite was listed as a symptom, I don't think it should be ignored (two weeks seems an awful lot for a side effect to last, or at least to me - I haven't had any meds with serious side effects yet). if you can trust your doctor with it (because I know there are some assholes out there with a Dr. before their name...), I think you should tell her about it. maybe you could switch to another kind of antidepressant which doesn't have / has less serious side effects (only if switching to another one doesn't make you uncomfortable, of course)

about the weight loss thing itself, again, I don't know what you want to do about your weight (and you absolutely don't have to share if you don't want to). but, anything you want to do with your weight should be connected to your eating and moving (?). even if you want to lose weight, I'm about 100% sure starving yourself isn't the right way to do it; you don't even necessarily have to eat less. there are many types of diets and special eating methods (?) that you can choose from. yes, it takes time to browse through them all and the one that you think you like might not even be available to you because (bad example): it would require you to eat pineapple every day, but you live in the Arctic; but it's still worth in the end. you don't need to starve yourself, you need food even if you want to lose weight. (also, important note that as much as you shouldn't starve yourself, you shouldn't stuff yourself either. for very different reasons, but I had a short period where I didn't want to eat much, but I tried to notice when I started feeling "enough" and what felt like "too much", and eat an amount somewhere in between these two. no need to eat until you're sick of it)

so yeah, all in all, I think it would be good if you talked with your doctor (maybe even through the phone, if that's okay with both of you - the longer you keep losing weight, the more serious it can become later on), because the side effects you mentioned are kind of worrying to me :c and if you want to lose weight, but differently, it could be helpful to look after some kind of diet (maybe even with the help of a dietetic - if there's one available)

aaaaaaand also again, I'm not a doctor at all, I just tried to imagine myself into your situation and think about what might be helpful, I hope I could help <3

[the two (?)s are because I'm not sure I used the right word, I'm sorry if I didn't make sense :D also, I'll tag this post with your tags as well, so people can avoid it if it triggers them]

ed rant under the cut bc this might trigger ppl and i dont want that :(

i started zoloft two weeks ago, i'm on the lowest dose and most of the side effects have worn off (still getting headaches most days, some dizziness, the fatigue and sleepiness is subsiding which iam v grateful for bc dealing with that on top of chronic fatigue wasn't easy)

but like..... i'm absolutely not hungry. i don't feel the need to eat and i'm content with very small portions. i know loss of appetite and nausea are possible side effects, but i wasn't expecting it to hit this hard dfherh. i dont have much nausea, but mostly i can't eat before noon, all i have is water and coffee, and trying to eat just makes me lowkey nauseous. it's triggering some good ol ed thinking patterns, and i kinda hope i can stay on this medication once i see my doctor again. smh. because i'll keep losing weight. so far i'm down 40 lbs since august 2020, and i want to lose maybe another 15 lbs. i don't have a scale and only get weighted every 3 months, when i get my birth control injection, so that's at least? helping me not spiral too much?

when i saw my doctor in april, my doctor wanted to send me in for a psych eval, because yes i was seeing her for anxiety symptoms, but i also have depression and psychotic symptoms. so there was talk about maybe switching out medications after we have a proper diagnosis, and she talked of seroquel to really target all my symptoms including the psychosis. i'm terrified because weight gain is a side effect, and i really don't want to go back.

i dont know. there's a lot going on in my head and i'm trying my best to eat at least a bit to keep me going, but this whole loss of appetite is really triggering and i'm leaning into it to restrict, even tho i can't do as much being chronically ill now, i become weak very fast if i try to fast :(

that's all rgihrtgi if you've read this thank u, idk if anyone will do anyway. i feel too self conscious about this to properly journal about it. probably will write armin fanfics bc this is how i cope

Get ready guys, something horrible’s coming your way

MY CANDY LOVE

last updated: 28th December 2024

FANFICTIONS

Nathaniel:

drive away (uncontinued)

broken hearts can beat again (on AO3 - uncontinued)

HEADCANONS

Armin:

sleeping; pregnancy / birth

bathing / showering; soft spot / weakness

Castiel:

crying; sleeping

cuddling; kissing; touching; what turns him on

pregnancy / birth; domestic life; being a father

Lysander:

awkward moment; pregnancy / birth

Nathaniel:

injured; first time

soft spot / weakness

bathing / showering; touching NSFW

Rayan:

cuddling; bathing / showering; first time

other headcanons:

living together with the HSL boys

living together with the UL / LL LIs

chaos in the skateboard park (Iris, Kim, Armin, Castiel)

what happens after the marriage proposals

wildwest au (bandit!Castiel & sheriff!Nathaniel)

ONE-SHOTS

Amber:

this wasn't the first time

first kiss

Castiel:

“alone with your thoughts”

“I’ll be home for Christmas”

Kentin:

dared to kiss a stranger

Priya:

human / vampire

Rayan:

snowed in

the perfect gift

other one-shots:

Valentine's Day event 2022 - continuation NSFW

moving out

bodyguard (Kim x Leo)

make a cake to find out what you are missing in life

I can literally recall 90% of my classmates using "buzi" as a slur + if a girl looks "boy-ish" or vice versa, they will get called the other gender like. and? is that supposed to be an insult? what????

and granted, these kids took it from home, because no matter how legal it used to be to talk about LGBT+ stuff so far, there was literally no mention of them in school or anything similar. in movies and books from the West? sure, but that's all

(I just randomly remembered "Coming Out" and OH GOD, do I hate that movie with all my heart. I seriously consider it homophobic, though I always got shut down when I mentioned it to someone, because it's "such a cute and lovely movie, how can you hate it". yeah sure, it's lovely :))

heyyo

I know that I wasn’t productive lately 😔 I still have 7 requests to do, and I swear I’ll do them 🤞

meanwhile, I think I’ll stop taking new requests for some time, since Valentine’s Day is coming and I have my own ideas for it (I don’t want to get requests while doing those because I would just feel bad about not writing either one ahahahh)

that doesn’t mean that I’ll close my askbox! but if you send me a request, I’ll elegantly ignore it until I’m done with my original ideas. (though if anyone has requests about VD, then feel free to send it, because I might write it)

soooo as you can see, I'm back to my bs

I still have requests to do, so please don't send me new requests. I don't want to close my askbox, I trust you guys that you understand if I ask this

now I have to go sleep, so good night, sorry I left for some time, thanks for your patience and I'll try to hurry! Tania out ✌️

thank you Am, Momiyi and @astreia-oniria for tagging me! (and special thank you to Tumblr for not even accidentally sending me a note about it 🖕)

I can never answer a simple "this or that" question with one word only, sorry 😅

bad or nice LI - I don't mind bad either if we get a proper reasoning

blond or brown hair - hair colour doesn't really matter

cute or spicy illustrations

complicated or sweet relationship - complicated relationship is okay as well if the conflict is solved after some time...

evil or angel MC

love-hate or friend to lover relationship

short or long hair for LI - for male LI it doesn't matter, for female LI I prefer long hair

teasing or clever LI

sweet or deep voice - I can't imagine voices in my head anyway so uhh

hairy or not hairy

older or younger than MC - if the age difference isn't huge, both is okay

mysterious or popular LI

tattoo or not - I don't mind tattoo-less LIs, but damn! it's a certain bonus

some ex or not at all - if there's absolutely no chance that the ex comes back, it's kind of okay...

realistic or fairy

long or short story

lazy or awkward character - laziness is my job, all my OCs are hardworking ahahaha

long but fortnightly episode or short but monthly episode - I accept any kind of releasing schedule as long as the price of the episodes are realistic

childhood friend or new character

personality or beauty

bad or good ending - I'm always curious about bad endings for the sake of drama, but in reality I'm a sucker for fluff

sub or dom LI

marriage or not

honest or malicious

athletic or geek - "both? "both" "both are good"

light or dark eyes - as with hair, it doesn't matter that much

the most attractive smile or look

jealous LI or cool - somewhere in between? LI shouldn't accuse MC of anything, but I don't want them not to notice everything MC does

caring or protective LI

ambitious or dreamer LI

cute moment or spicy moment

rivalry or not for LI - to some degree only, though!

selfish or altruistic MC

introverted or extroverted MC

romantic or playful LI

in conclusion: I'm completely indecisive, as usually 😌

most of the people I know were already tagged, so.... :c

This or That ( Otome vers.)

I like this kind of game. I I haven’t seen this game for otome, so let’s do it! (color or bold what you prefer)

bad or nice LI / blond or brown hair / cute or spicy illustrations / complicated or sweet relationship / evil or angel MC / love-hate or friend to lover relationship / short or long hair for LI / teasing or clever LI / sweet or deep voice / hairy or not hairy / older or younger than MC / mysterious or popular LI / tattoo or not / some ex or not at all / realistic or fairy / long or short story / lazy or awkward character / long but monthly episode or short but fortnightly episode / childhood friend or new character / personality or beauty / bad or good ending / sub or dom LI / marriage or not / honest or malicious / athletic or geek / light or dark eyes / the most attractive smile or look / jealous LI or cool / caring or protective LI / ambitious or dreamer LI  / cute moment or spicy moment /  rivalry or not for LI / Selfish or altruistic MC / introverted or extroverted MC / romantic or playful LI / 

tagging @momiyi-chan​ @draconess-tania​ @vanillaamoursucrethings​ @cofffae​ @louis-ratking​

if you want to do it, let’s go 🌻

the promised prompt list ^^

edit: you can request at most 3 prompts at a time

Headcanon Prompts

Send me a number along with a ship and/or character!

1. Cuddling 2. Kissing 3. Injured  4. First Date 5. First Kiss 6. Training 7. Awkward Moment 8. Fighting 9. Crying 10. Sleeping 11. Bathing/Showering 12. First Time 13. Soft Spot/Weakness 14. Pregnancy/Birth 15. Touching (can be NSFW or innocent) 16. Favorite Type(s) of Kissing 17. Undressing 18. What “turns them on” 19. Domestic Life 20. Farewells/Saying Goodbye