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we are fucked

i mentioned the possibility of this happening in my last post but i had no idea it would be this bad. we are being put in a desperate situation because of the incompetency of the educational system and we will be evicted once this financial aid gets taken away. we are students living off of one disability income and student aid. basically what happened was we went to the financial aid office at my wife’s college and asked REPEATEDLY whether or not it would be okay for her to drop a class which they assured her time and time again that there would be no problem doing so. after she had already dropped it they suddenly say it’s a problem and that she MIGHT owe back money that already has gone to rent and bills. we will have no way to pay our rent if and WHEN the aid gets taken away. i am unable to get a job without her SSI being taken away. we have no support from family or anyone local to help us through this situation so i have to turn to you guys again. we need 1016.00 within 45 days or we will have no means of living. im trying to get back into school but that’s a long process that is complicated now that im married. literally days after our wedding and have to deal with all of this.

if you want to be rude, just don’t. this really is no fault of our own because we had talked to several people at the college who assured us it would be fine without explaining anything about having to owe back money and giving misinformation after misinformation, which now is somehow our fault and no one will listen to anything we have to say after spending all day at the college. WE WOULD DO ANYTHING EVEN PAY SOMEONE BACK THE MONEY if her aid wasn’t taken away we would be able to pay back this amount, but they are saying it needs to be paid within 45 days which wouldn’t be enough time.

im desperate for this to be over with. we were hoping to be financially stable finally until this happened and as a gay couple no one wants to help or deal with us. we’re basically cornered. let me know if i can do ANYTHING, and absolutely anything would help to get out of this debt even the change you have leftover in your account. i can write, help with homework, i can do pretty much anything.

my PayPal email is divynem@gmail.com and its the same email for my venmo. if you don’t have either of those and still want to help, let me know and I will figure it out. And if you cant or dont want to help, PLEASE at least reblog. im sure a lot of other people have been in this situation or similar but after everything we’ve been through i don’t want to have to lose the only stability we have and have to give our animals to others or away.

Signs In a Shady Fight And How To Face Them

(A shady fight is a tense conversation full of shady remarks, personal attacks and it usually goes off the top pretty fast)

Fire Signs: Go full on fight mode, sick of it. To stop them, expose all their bad traits and be sure you have people to rely on (possibly not Pisceans, they wouldn’t win over a Leo easily for example) so that they feel like they better stop. Also facts can help a lot.

Water Signs: Damn good at throwing the best temper tantrums, they can make you look guilty even when you’re not. Do not answer back because it’s something they’re really good at doing, just show them facts and tell them to grow up and stop being pathetic.

Air Signs: Will avoid conflict and just tell you to get lost, just let them know you’re getting pretty done with their shit and that if they want to win this argument they better come up with stuff and stop saying nonsense. If they do, act like an Earth sign and be the adult.

Earth Signs: They tend to act snarky, mean and superior to intimidate you and feel bigger than they are. Just hit a weak spot and act like you’re having the best fun ever. They’ll slowly stop trying to hit you with facts and internally will feel confused.

The Signs as Plants

Aries: Crown Imperial, its flowers contain large drops of nectar and it represents majesty and power.

Taurus: Kingcup, its Latin name Caltha palustris literally means “swamp calice”. Represents desire for riches.

Gemini: European Sweetbrier, also known as eglantine (from Latin aculentus, “prickly”), known for the sweet apple fragrance of the leaves. Represents poetry.

Cancer: Dahlia, also known as “valley flower” referred to the Swedish “dal” (homophone of the man whose name was given to the flower, Anders Dahl). Used to treat epilepsy by natives of Mexico, it became famous during the Victorian era as a symbol of instability.

Leo: Basil, from Ancient Greek βασιλικός, an adjective meaning “royal”. Brought by Asian kings to Greece, it was said that only the most pure-hearted young men could pick it. Represents good wishes but also hatred.

Virgo: Vervain, also known as Tears of Isis in Egypt and Holy Herb in Christianity for having been used to stanch Jesus’ wounds on the cross. Also the Latin term "verbenae" was used with regard to the crowns made up of flowers and plants used by flamines, aka Roman priests in celebrations. Its use dates back to the Vedic era, therefore it is considered a magical, divine plant since millennia. Represents purity, protection, mystical bliss and sensibility.

Libra: Circaea, named after the Greek sorceress Circe, said to have a vast knowledge of magic and also known for transforming into feral creatures her enemies. Because of this in Italy it is also called erba maga, meaning “sorceress herb”, and as “enchanter’s nightshade” in English. Represents charm and allure.

Scorpio: Solomon’s Seal, said to bear a royal stamp or resemble Hebrew characters, therefore in reference to the King’s vast knowledge of plants. Represents secrets and discretion.

Sagittarius: Hyacinth, named after a boy whom Apollo loved that was killed by the jealous Zephyr, god of the west wind. It represents playfulness, sports, sincerity and sorrow.

Capricorn: Mountain laurel, aka “spoonwood”, extremely toxic but has a resistant wood. Represents ambition.

Aquarius: Ginkgo biloba, from Chinese yínxìng meaning “silver apricot”, in Ayurvedic medicine was said to be the main ingredient of the elixir of eternity, known as soma. Represents Tokyo and six plants survived the Hiroshima bombing. Represents vitality, peace and endurance.

Pisces: Mallow, coming from the Greek μαλακός (“sweet, soothing”), was considered by Celts a plant which granted heaven to the deceased and the Pythagoreans praised its beauty and importance. Represents a delicate nature and persuasion.

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I lost an uncle due to suicide because of his bipolar disorder, my family couldn’t accept his mental health issues and now I’m living the same.

Always enjoy, appreciate and give back everything you get from family love.

Here’s a little bit of a story I want to tell to raise mental health awareness. I grew up in Poland. I was always told my uncle died from a heart attack. I never got to meet him. When I was older, I learned that he committed suicide 5 years before I was born. He suffered with schizophrenia. The mental health system in Poland in the 70-80s was more than just incompetent. They did nothing for my uncle other than make him the laughing stock of the small village we lived in. My family stopped talking to him. He was considered the disgrace of the family that only caused problems. He didn’t get the help he needed. And he was driven to suicide. This summer was the first time I visited his grave. Shortly after I dug up this picture. All I could do is cry. The boy on the left is my uncle, the one in the middle is my father, and on the far right my grandmother. My uncle was a good man. And he’s still rarely spoke of in parts of my family. Even though I never met him, I feel like that chance was taken from me. Please, make sure your family members that suffer from mental illness get the help they need. Spread awareness that ignoring a problem can bring. Please, help me honor my uncle. I wish he was still around to smile like he did in this picture.

Aries rules the head, we are born head first into the spirit of matter, between the temples on either side of the head the temple of the Godhead resides. Being born feet first may symbolise a premature death was suffered in the past life 

Taurus is ruled by Venus the Lover and personifies the physical senses, the first and persisting sound we respond to is the lullaby of our mother’s heartbeat, nourishing, loving, and nurturing the seed of our life  

Gemini materialises communication and the first words that we hear inside are the conversations that our mother is having with us, herself and with other people. Gemini also rules the nervous system, so we can be stimulated and rattled by the mother’s nerves in utero 

Cancer is the gateway to the earth kingdom so we pass through the waters of the Moon Goddess to birth spirit into form. Cancer is the dream that was had of your existence before you were here, like when your star was getting picked from the sky  

Leo is ruled by the sun, your birthday represents the number of times you have orbited around the sun, Leo is your birthday, and every celebration of your birth

Virgo is the Great Mother, our Mother Sophia, Mother Maya and our Mother Mary and Virgo is ruled by Mercury, the mind and the message, the first sound a baby makes is typically ‘maaa’ that sounds like ‘Mercury’, ‘Maya’ and ‘Mary’ calling to this Goddess, the Great Mother is always present, you can call her with your own thoughts 

Libra is the sign of relationships, when you arrived you relied on a relationship to survive, and you do evermore, the blooming relationship with yourself, other shades and hues of your self, and with the divine 

Scorpio is the masked assassin and the truth seeker, this is your second death. The theologians do this literally as a baptism. But it wasn’t like this. You know the experience I’m referring to. When you were lured to something greater, when the unconscious water took control of you and showed you something beyond this, the crackle and the madness that bought you here, to the deeper studies of soul and existence  

Sagittarius is the sign of higher education, it’s when you developed personal interests and started asking questions that nobody could answer, so you decided to start searching for yourself, and Sagittarius rules the thighs so now you can mobilise in the direction of clues 

Capricorn is the higher self, if you were to imagine a loving, idealising, and doting parent describing their child’s best achievements and their pride to a stranger, this is the pedestal that Saturn places you on but uses a harsher form of encouragement to edge you towards

Aquarius is when you developed a mind of your own, when you started thinking for yourself and following your natural fascination, inspiration and creativity and tapped into innate natural genius 

Pisces is the sign of spiritual reunion, this is when you could remember your dreams, when you made fantasies come to life through your invisible friends, when you still had the memory of where you came from

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About a week ago I posted this.

I’ve been getting horrible messages like this in my ask for months, including:

and my personal favorite

After getting the message saying “Just go kill yourself” I was completely done dealing with this person’s horrible messages and replied with just an “Okay.” and logged off tumblr.

About a week later I logged back on with 17 messages in my ask, most of them from the anon. I scrolled down and at first when I logged off, the anon messaged me things like

I scrolled up more and all of a sudden they started sending me more and more messages like

This was extremely surprising to me. I thought “After all those horrible messages you sent to me for MONTHS about hating me and wanting me dead, you say ‘sorry’ and that you ‘cant be responsible for someone’s suicide’?”

But I guess the lesson goes like this:

DONT TELL ANYONE TO KILL THEMSELVES UNLESS YOU ARE PREPARED FOR WHAT MIGHT ACTUALLY HAPPEN

i was at a protest today in support of the palestinian great march of return. a woman from gaza spoke about growing up under israeli occupation and the importance of standing in solidarity with the people marching there today. literally only 20 minutes after she spoke she found out that one of her childhood friends in gaza, a journalist who was at the march, was just murdered by the idf. we all took a moment of silence for him while the jdl marched around the protest with israeli flags, chanting in support of the idf who had just murdered this womans friend. and like honestly its beyond me how anyone could still try to frame the conflict as “equally bad/violent on both sides” or support the israeli state and the idf as they murder innocent people or do anything but give unwavering support for palestinians & palestinian liberation