“sorry I Didn’t Mean To Dump That On You”

Recently I’ve been feeling so off, and it’s really starting to weigh on me. I know a lot, if not most, of my symptoms are caused by my own bad habits, but I just can’t stop giving into the facade of safety in familiar distractions.

The part that’s affecting me the most is the fact I have just not been able to feel anything for like. Days now. And I am usually a lot more neurotic, but I have just not been able to feel much of anything at all lately, and I’m not gonna lie it’s kind of scary. And the worst result of this apathy, is the fact that I seem to have nothing to say lately. I just feel so much less lively than usual. It’s harder to start and continue conversations with my friends, when I love talking to them more than anyone else, and I feel so because of it. I think I’m able to conceal it relatively well, at least I hope so, but I don’t know. This post also kind of negates the whole secret thing.

This is kind of stupid, I just didn’t have much to say when talking to some friends earlier and it made me sad. I feel so numb Aughh Aughh

behind the scenes of scott pilgrim vs the world (2010) based on the comic book series by @radiomaru

it's eating away at me Ngl

“Human relationships are strange. I mean, you are with one person a while, eating and sleeping and living with them, loving them, talking to them, going places together, and then it stops”

— Charles Bukowski

The only thing keeping me motivated to finish my finals is the promise of a sweet, passionate kiss between me and my Peach Dreams dispo after the fact

I think what I need

To go to someones house, invited ofc. I take my shoes off and change into indoor clothes. They offer me a spot on their bed and I oblige.

What it is that Im needing though, is to be pulled into an embrace. They rest myself on themself and I dont know like.. Play with my hair or something

Cringe cringe cringe crine

Le sigh we cringe on

i hold resentment deep in my chest and it eats me from the inside out

i wish i wasn’t jealous of people for having things they deserve

Top surgery recovery has involved an onslaught of emotions that I'm still figuring out how to express, but this grief was not something I anticipated would be part of it.

Yearning for what I can’t have. Premature and doomed.