New Intrusive Thought Unlocked? What The Hell Was That

I wish syshopping was real so that i could chose some random problematic system to hop into and then kill myself

Mf please explode i don't even know where to begin expressing how much i hate you

Endos who claim to want things to be different for them but freak out when they encounter a system with system experiences 💀

Pay attention to me please

Your fav boi is spiraling send help

All of this thinking about the past is making me want to relapse out of fear, i'm working so hard on practicing healthier coping mechanisms but god i really can't stand all this pressure

I seriously need endos to fuck the hell off, what i go through daily isn't fun quirky little game you can decide to play, it is a fucking trauma response and i actually have to waste tons of my energy not to cause any more unreversible damage to the other alters. Having other people in your head isn't fucking funny, they're not just "friends you can have inside jokes with". It's tiring. It's debilitating. It's not knowing what will happen when you're not in front. Is having the others getting potentially exposed to danger and being unable to do anything to protect yourself and/or the body. It's others hating you for doing exactly what you were formed to do. The shame, the guilt, the self hate you constantly have to carry around that came after years and years of terrible trauma. It can sometimes be fun but the main point is it's a fucking disorder. I can't stand you guys fucking de-medicalising it so that you can enjoy a fake ass romanticised version of it. I hope my traumas hit you all at once. I hope you split a pre self-consciousness me. I wish all the worst to y'all

They should invent like an electric shock for everytime i start thinking about relapsing again.

I'll either end up stopping or liking the shock, i'd love to see what would happen

The crisis has restarted

The crisis has passed

"me no regressing" says i, age regressing