Saw A Girl With The Tiniest Waist And A Butch Gf At Work Today. Idk If I Even Like Girls Like That, But

Mindlessly overeating just to be absolutely devastated about my body and inability to lose enough weight to feel like a human

I am one unnecessary and out of nowhere comment about my eating away from completely blowing off at my parents.

It's so weird feeling that you have a lot of love to give, but feeling as if you have no one to give that specific love to. Yes I have loved ones that that love me, that I keep living for really. But it's no the same.

And at the same time my mind just yearns to have someone to obsess over.

My mind is so hazy that if I don't see a person for like a day I can almost forget that they exist. I wonder if I went away for a few weeks would I be able to forget my parent enough to forget how much I would hurt them, to defeat the quilt for just a minute and finally be able to kill myself.

I wish they just didn't love me, than I could have been buried for a long time by now.

Gotta hate it when the hunger gets so suffocating you just start to dryly sob.

Accidentally hurting your pets is the worst, because you can't even tell them how absolutely sorry you are.

It fucking hurts so much. I need to sleep, but how can i

NOOOO!!! A GIRL IVE BECOME GOOD FRIENDS WITH OVER THE MONTHS JUST TOLD ME SHE HAS AN ED. NOW MY BRAIN WILL AUTOMATICALLY START SEEING HER AS COMPETITION, START HYPERANALYZING EVERYTHING I AND SHE DO AND SAY AND ITLL START TO SPITE HER FOR BEING SKINNIER THAN ME.

Where can I find a man like that lol??

Many hours

I wish I knew what he thought of me. What thought come into his head when he glides his gaze over me? I would even want to know if it's bad, it's better than living in the unknown, I could change if possible and I could use the sadness to cut myself.

If only I could read his mind, better yet control it.

Need to keep myself in check cause I feel so close to asking my mom if she could live on if I died.