Disillusioned

Poetry

Dreams

We trip and stumble around

We're lost, but we don't want to be found

This is our own little paradise

Away from the world and its lies

And for a moment, there's only love

We can't let them taint what we have

So please, stay a little longer

I'm not yet ready for this fantasy to shatter.

Ruins

You're still stuck in the crevices of my mind

Still haunting all the places I can find

I've given you the key, offered my chains

Hoping for a shelter, yet you turned out to be rain

You promised freedom but you are chaos

You made certain I'll never recover from your loss

Yet still here I am, waiting for your forgiveness

Still believing you're my one shot at happiness

Will I ever be free from the angel in my memory?

Will a time come when I'll finally see?

That the pedestal I put you on has already been toppled

And the sand castle we've built have long since crumbled.

Spellbound

You smile and I feel myself melt

Are these the cards I was dealt?

For I'd certainly lose in the depth of your eyes

In that honey in your voice as it whisper lies

I should turn my back, I know better than this

But I'm dying to get a taste of your lips

So spin me around, play my strings

Make me dance, make me sing

I'm just another fool to dance right to your web

And I'll stay 'till your interests reach its lowest ebb.

Innocence Lost

My heart clenches as if it can still feel

Can still discern what's right, what's real

But I know better, it was torn

The day it fell for you, I was reborn

I can still feel the phantom beating

I can still hear the echoes of footsteps receding

The day it fell for you, I was reborn

That was the last day in my sleeve, it was worn.

Him

The way he talks,

The way he laughs

Is like music to my ears

The way he says my name,

The way he smiles

Take away all my fears

But as I think,

And fall asleep

While wiping away my tears

I know that I’ve fallen

For a man

Who won’t ever hold me near.

-jileeza

It is my tragedy to have you as my enemy

Once upon a time, you loved me dearly

Sweeter than I prefer until it turned bitter

Everything soured, words could've been phrased better

But once a year, like an eclipse, we'll be back

Trying to touch those hands, tiptoeing around the cracks

You'd pour salt in my wounds and I'd offer you a smile

It is my tragedy, to have a taste of you for a while.

Ruthless

My heart aches as you walk near

You, who've once taken everything I held dear

You have some nerve to come to me

When you made certain to ruin who I could be

Are you here to gloat, parade your victory?

I want to go, but you won't set me free

And I'm tired, I have nothing left to give

I wish you wouldn't come back once you leave.

I want to write everything that doesn't make sense

About you, the moonlight, the fence

But even if I did manage to put them into words

It won't be different, still the same repetitive chords.