Illusion

Hard feelings.

Now I’m in his bed

This moment fulfilling every dream I ever had

Cuddles, kisses and he treats me like a Mrs.

But there is no satisfaction in it

There has to be a problem with me at least a bit,

cause I thought we were the perfect fit.

Now my thoughts keep running crazy

Just like Donald Loves Daisy

and I dancing with Swazy

while smoking the blunt Bob said is hazy.

This makes no sense ?

Oh didn’t knew that, thanks.

I know I should enjoy

Not all men treat woman like a toy

But it’s so hard to believe

Because of all the pain I received.

-B.I

Frauenherz

Cro sagt er glaubt gott sei ne frau

Aber es ist ein mann das weiß ich ganz genau

Wär ers nicht

Gäbe es mehr licht

Mehr licht an den dunkelsten orten

Und mehr Wahrheit in worten

Mehr Gerechtigkeit auf dieser welt

Und das ende ist nicht so tief wenn man fällt

Es geht nicht so viel schief wenn man sich stellt

Und ein Reichtum an liebe statt an geld

-B.I

@winterpilgrim

Can’t describe how beautiful this is.

Insane Work from a wonderful soul

@winterpilgrim

Omg! Just recently saw your blog and totally love it! Übrigens wünsche ich dir einen schönen Tag!

Omg i swear i could cry becaus y‘all supporting me so crazy. I loooove you so freaking much and thank god i‘m blessed with such cute people ! 🙏 all i wanted is that people read my poems and feel attached. Thank u for making this possible 😍🙏❤️🫶 und ich wünsche dir auch einen wunderschönen Tag 🥰

Thank you so much for liking my posts, I really appreciate that🥰💕& thanks for your reply too.. though it was hard to digest it first😅, but i think I really needed that. To love ourselves is something I’ve only read about till now😅but it’s just always confusing.. i mean i do all that self care n all of my own stuff🤔🤷‍♀️😕… but yeah, I do admit I don’t really have that mentality😅.. ‘To actually love myself the way I expect someone else would’ is something I need to look into. Like I really think you were right with that! I do think whenever/if i will be in a relationship, i do have a huge tendency to turn into someone clingy (if not by actions then thoughts🤔)..

Also yes😁, I went through your poems and read each of them😍they’re really well-written & relatable. I’m not much of a poet or a writer myself😅, but i can say.. I really enjoyed reading yours🙌😁n they do get the msg through!✨

Hey i just wanted to say that i am so touched by your message ! I am so happy i touched you with my words and that you understood that i meant it ally by heart and for your happiness. I hope you have started working on loving yourself more because you deserve to be loved !!!!! ❤️❤️

And thank you for all your kind and nice kompliments to my poems, its such a blessing when my work gets appreciated 🥰🙏🫶❤️

Keep on beeing such a beautiful person beeing and always protect but not prison your heart ❤️❤️❤️ (learned that from a beautiful person)

Endloses Labyrinth

Ich versteh es nicht wie kann sowas passieren

Wie kann mich das glück so hardcore ignorieren

Versuche jeden tag zu verstehen

Was der Grund ist

doch ich kann ihn nicht sehen.

Ist das vielleicht alles nur eine List?

Damit du alles gute vergisst ?

Immer der spruch, hab kein selbst mitleid

Aber wie, wenn keiner so wie man selbst mitleidet ?

Überleg doch mal, denk doch mal ganz genau nach

Du kannst nie verstehen wies mir ging als meine welt zerbrach

Mag wohl sein dass du auch schlimmes durchgemacht hast

und deine Matura nicht geschafft hast

danach deine beste chance verpasst hast und von da an nur mehr ne last warst.

Aber was gibt dir das recht zu verstehen

Was die Menschen täglich durchgehen und durchmachen,

mit Großem schmerz alles schaffen.

Also lass dich nicht täuschen von dem Gesicht der Glückseligkeit

Denn es ist nur aufgesetzt in eurer Anwesenheit

Nennen wir es Arbeitszeit,

Denn das ist keine leichte Angelegenheit!

Zu täuschen man wäre fit

Und das leben ist der größte hit.

Doch das is alles nur bullshit.

Im Hintergrund zerbicht man

Du fragst wie man das alles dann noch kann ?

Ich sags dir es ist der klang.

Der klang eines liedes, völlig egal

Ob genre klassik, raggae oder tiktok viral

Es geht um die syphonie und Zusammenarbeit

Damit dir die Melodie im kopf hängen bleibt

Denn eines bin ich mir sicher

Wär die musik mein richter

Bräuchte ich nicht mehrere Gesichter.

-B.I

Reality Check

Hello again after a while

I know, such long absence is not my style

But i have so many struggles to deal with

I am praying for „its getting better“

to be no myth

So i packed up my warmest sweater

And wrote this letter

Its about feelings happy or sad

Its about the best i ever had

And all the times i got mad

Mad because i feel so empty

Like the nutella jar on day twenty

But no one is seeing

My loneliness and emptiness

Just how well i‘m being

How thin i‘m becoming

All the happiness

All the dm‘s incoming

I must be famous or something

I wish someone would look under this cover

If its my mother a brother or a lover

I just want it to be recognised

To be recognised that i‘m not doing well

and its a long way down i fell

To come for me, to love for me, to fight for me

and to never leave me

But the longer i wait the more i understand

That there will be no one coming

And it has to be me I’m counting

I have to come for me, love me, fight me, and

never ever leave me

Its like in Phantom of the Opera

„Learn to be lonely

Learn to find your way in darkness

Who will be there for you“

And i think thats true

-B.I

Hope…..full

Could cry the whole day

But that doesn’t take my pain away

So i keep the tears inside

The pain is the groom and i’m the bride

Forever together until death

So thats the hell if you do the math.

But as in every relationship

You try your best, at least a bit

So others think you’re the perfect fit.

No problems and no pain

You’re handling it like your favourite game.

Oh but there is nothing less true

Just a banana that is blue

Or sherlock that has no clue.

But there is a small silverlining

Is it you or the sun shining?

-B.I

Cloudy thoughts

Laying in bed,

so much stuff in my head

cant decide what i think about

so much shit to care about.

So much questions to understand

but who will respond to em ?

I cant say whats right or wrong

but does anybody can ?

Looking out my window,

thinking is there anything we know.

Everyone doing their daily routine

thinking they’re doing their own thing.

But that’s wrong

cause we’re following the system for way too long

Nothing we do is our own choice

Its just the only way we survive in this weird place.

But the’re is a way to escape

This is a experience just a few people can make

This exit is called love

Its a feeling u cant get enough

Its the way out of this grey place

And i can feel it when i look into your face

-B.I

Thank you for supporting me and my art with all the likes 💛💛

I will support everyone who loves to share his art as much as i do 🫶🫶 you are very welcome 🤍