Memorial - Blog Posts

Today is harder than any day I ever thought I'd bare;

It's even harder cause I'm surrounded by people who do not care.

They may care about me and the pain that runs through,

But they are perfectly incapable of actually missing you.

I feel that you're still out there though it does feel far away;

How am I supposed to accept that you have gone a different way?

I've loved and fought for so long I don't know how to stop,

And it's even fucking harder to finally give up.

I worshipped you, I prayed for you, I fell down to my knees

Hopin' and prayin' for a life we fought to see;

But now you've taken your own life and brought it to an end;

I thought that at the very least I'd find a way to call you friend.

I thought I had accepted that our love just couldn't be,

But what I failed to realize was how strong you were still holding on to me.

I was holding onto hope for us harder than any drug I've had,

Even though I knew that any ending would only turn out bad.

But this was not an end that I'd ever thought I'd see,

Now you're gone and taken every single piece of me.

Made some art of an old friend's Spamton self-insert. Rest in peace Bored Guy.

Made some left-handed doodles because I can't use my dominant hand rn. These turned out pretty good imo

Here are my Three Random Drawings I Wasted My Talent On

Drawing #1: Pixel Leaf Fanart in 2024

Time Spent: 3:01

So about a few months ago, I made this Pixel Leaf fanart based on her new sona's design. I'm honestly really proud of this one, the only problem I have is to draw a hand pointing. TBH, fingers are kinda hard to draw.

But anyways, @pixel-leaf if you are reading this or somehow stumbled upon this post, hopefully you'll enjoy this fanart I made and if you do, I'll safely say thank you for your appreciation 😊👍

Drawing #2: Public Domain Frenzy

Time Spent: 6:54

In case you live under a rock, Mickey Mouse and the cartoon made for him has recently reached public domain on the first day of January in 2024. Which makes it a great idea for Keithan (my OC) to be cast in Steamboat Willy where Doom Ramirez (My other OC) built a boat for him. Needless to say, things went horribly wrong.

However I recently heard that Mickey being on the public domain would also bring out some huge downfalls such as making some money by making crappy horror games, and being copyright claimed by Disney themselves, but hopefully I'll never be copyright claimed by Disney ;)

Drawing #3: Tribute to the Fallen

Time Spent: 10:26

Well, it seems that you made it to the first drawing that has some serious topics. If you are feeling depressed or overwhelmed that these two have passed away, be happy for them for creating one of your childhood favorites.

I personally haven't watched Dragon Ball yet, but I've had one of my friends inside or outside the Internet that are huge fans of Dragon Ball and it is sad to see Akira Toriyama, the creator of Dragon Ball, pass away. So thank you Akira for making one of the most goated anime of all time, and hopefully you'll rest in peace.

It was also sad to see the creator of one of my childhood favorites also pass away in the same month. I haven't heard of Janice but I appreciated her for creating a wonderful childhood for me.

I have no other words to say other than my deepest respect goes to everyone that supports these two people and their family.

Thank you for everything...

A school project, but one I’m quite proud of

Objectification

To be human is to live in all the things we keep around us

A nest full of shiny objects we’ve collected

That make us feel at one with the world

To live and die in these objects

A bit of soul left behind in every knickknack

A coffee mug that says Ethyl, which was painted in Alaska

You found it in a second hand store

And now when you drink coffee each morning you toast

To Ethyl, a stranger

When you die someone else will toast to you

With Ethyl’s mug

Generations of strangers live inside a coffee cup

“It reminds me of how she held on to someone she didn’t even know,

Didn’t want to forget or have her be forgotten”

My favorite mug will hold my soul when I die

And you can have it, toast to me every morning

Or with every evening tea

I want to live on in your coffee dregs

Long after I’ve passed

Maybe life really ends when the living forget us

And all these ceramic elephants, matryoshka dolls, carnival glassware

Will immortalize us as stories solidify

And simplify our existence

What will you live in when you die?