Experience Tumblr like never before
I moved into my dorm today and it is 10pm and i'm sitting on my couch in my childhood home playing mario kart with my family cause I couldn't stop crying cause I had so much anxiety (I also had a tummy ache, also from anxiety). luckily I live 35 minutes from my dorm and my first class is on monday. I will, unfortunately, have to go tomorrow so I have a bit of a tummy ache about that but I don't have to leave my dorm cause my class is online. I think that this last day at home as helped a lot and I'm less anxious, there's also the fact that I will be home in 3-4 days (wednesday or thursday) since all but 2 of my classes are online- the wonder life of a baking & pastry arts student, all but my lab days are online. there was also the fact that I got my room changed last minute cause I wasn't with my original rommies that was sent via email like 2 weeks ago! they gave us the others emails so we can start connecting and they changed it! I don't do well with change (and moving houses was already SUCH a big change) that it completely threw me off. its a good thing that their just down the hall from me.
I was (and still slightly am) so embarrassed about coming home after move in day cause no one was going home and I am 19, I should be able to stay on my own. I think I have separation anxiety from my parents, Even as a child I was terrified to stay on my own. I was like 10 and I had a sleepover at my grandma's house and I had to go home at like midnight because I was just crying and homesick so much. and when I did Girl Guides I also had to be picked up cause I just wouldn't stop crying. Maybe I should see a therapist, this can't be healthy.
anywho, I hate being an adult. this shit is scary