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You ok?
A little bit yes, a little bit no! Some of you may have known I was in. A really, horrifically bad spot about 6 months ago before I moved across the country. I'm still struggling to recover from what the move and all of the stress has done to my body and my energy- I was already chronically ill with severe fatigue but it's been really god awfully bad lately. On top of that, I don't have the additional income from student aid since I have to wait to gain residency in my new state to be able to afford school, so I'm having to work to make enough to like. barely eat throughout the month and MAYBE pay bills on time (never mind my debt from moving so short notice and the situation I was in 🤡). I'm disabled and I really don't function well when I'm working, so I've been sleeping a lot, unable to keep up with keeping my house clean and my spouse taken care of, haven't been able to establish medical care here yet, and in a lot of pain. that being said, I'm not scared of where I live anymore and I'm no longer in active danger or an abusive situation.
so it's really a toss up but my silence here is largely medical related, including the fact that I can no longer afford the correct amount of my antidepressants so a bitch is withdrawing and having a mental health flare lmao
I miss you all and I want to get back in the swing of things as soon as I can! I like working on my games and interacting with my community! it's good for my mental well being and it helps me express myself and feel some purpose, and I hope spread some joy! right now I'm just trying to scrape by any energy possible to keeping living, though, so we'll see when I'm able to get back on the wagon. I'm also just TRULY embarrassed by the delay with FoE at thus point, and have ruminated on the project just long enough that I've started gutting and redesigning a lot of it.
the positive of this is hopefully I release a nice game. the negative is I'm scared of my socials bc my dev timeline is crap and I should have finished ages ago🤣🤣🤣 anyway this has been an annoyingly long upd8 since it had been a while since I checked in w everyone and I wanted to give the full scoop for anyone who wanted to know whats up. thank you for checking in nonnie ♥️ hope you're having a wonderful day!