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I am so fucking
Tired
Of feeling full of
Wires
I am so fucking
Sick
Of being filled with a fog so
Thick
That I can't think or
Breathe
And I am so fucking done
Of not feeling like
Enough
Not girly enough
Not boyish enough
Not happy enough
Not depressed enough
Not nervous enough
Not calm enough
Not formal enough
Not casual enough
Not warm enough
Not shy enough
Not
Fucking
Enough
I am
So
Fucking
Sick-
Tired-
Done.
Because this isn't enough.
Friend: *kills hinself*
My fucking, shit-brain: death? You like death?? You want some dreams of death??? Have some nightmares of people being mauled or run over! Have nightmares of your past friends and old teachers chasing you while tying to kill you!! Have a nightmare of your mom planing to kill you!!!
You LOVE death right?
Me: I'd rather die from exhaustion then sleep.
Brain: not good enough? Wanna imagine your nephew being murdering by someone gouging his eyes out?? Wanna imagine him falling down some stairs and smashing his head open??? I can do that! I'll even make you think about him being kidnapped!! Or maybe even just him suffocating in his sleep!!!
DONT YOU JUST L O V E DEATH???
Of random/oddly specific topics: do they exist and where can I get them. Seriously, I want.
I want encyclopedias/books of/about:
-plants (specifically succulents, cacti, and sunflowers)
-animals (rabbits, cats, frogs, turtles, sheep, goats, snakes, and bees)
-clothes/fashion/trends (fuck me up with that character design material)
-art (just a fucking book about art history and shit because I fucking want one)
I just- I have some things I wanna learn about and they happen to be very strange and specific, ok.
Me on Valentines:
Friend:*exists*
Me: I love you sm. Honestly you’re so fucking great. I will support every decision you ever make, no matter how poorly thought out it is. You’re so talented and beautiful, dang. How dare you dislike yourself/say bad things about yourself, like, that’s my friend how dare you? Wanna hug? Ilysm, wtf? You’re incredible. You could be a model, tbh. So great. I! LOVE! YOU! SO! MUCH!!
Friend:…coolio beans, friendo.
Me: why don’t you love meh..?