At First I Wanted To Shift To My Waiting Room Before Shifting To My Drs, But I Noticed How I'm Starting

I WANT TO THANK WHOEVER FIRST CAME UP WITH SCRIPTING AND SHIT BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHERE I'D BE RIGHT NOW!!!

(I basically lore dump about my main bnha reality in this post- but only about something really specific that kinda touches other things, so yeah-)

Ok- so yesterday I was getting all excited for shifting to my main bnha reality and all, like one does before going to bed and doing their method. At some point I focused more on the future in the postwar, since I still have to script it properly, until something hit me:

We're all gonna die. Plus I'm not only one of the youngest in the LOV, but I also have All For One's quirk, which means I also have that quirk I can't remember the name of that stops aging as long as it's active. So I'm probably going to see them all die.

In the cr, whenever I think about it I feel like absolute shit, so I don't even want to imagine how I'd feel about it in my dr.

SO WHAT IF I SCRIPT THAT WE BECOME IMMORTAL?? And obviously I also script that we're going to be happy about our endless life + we never get tired of it + we always find something to do (and even repeating some things doesn't get boring) + we live peacefully (so people don't bother us- like- in the future they'll know we've existed for a really long time, but they won't constantly be harassing us for whatever reason, they leave us be) + etc.

(actually, if you think about it, me and the LOV being immortal is good for society- if they try anything to make society bad again we WILL kick their fucking asses.)

So while I was brushing my teeth before going to bed yesterday I started thinking about how I'd make this make sense in my dr and how it'd happen. This is what I came up with ("why did you decide to make this post?" because I'm losing my mind, it helps me organise my thoughts and if someone wants to "steal" this for a similar dr then be my guest-):

(main bnha reality lore dump, let's gooo-)

All For One, during the time he temporarily ruled Japan, was able to get his dirty hands on an immortality quirk. This quirk is a one use quirk the effect of which can't be reversed. So he could have became immortal forever.

He never ends up using it for a number of reasons, so I'll still have it after the war.

The first reason why he hasn't used it is because he wanted to keep it in case of emergency, maybe when he was close to death or something similar.

Then the day of his death came. I was 14 and he was fighting All Might somewhere and he got killed.

"Why didn't he use that quirk?"

One thing about the All For One in my dr (I'm pretty sure it's like this in canon as well, but whatever) is that he's a complete narcissist with a god complex. He consistently believes to be better than anyone. So during his fight against All Might he was 100% sure he was going to win. But then he didn't. So he still has the immortality quirk.

The second reason why he hasn't used it is because of his plans for me.

All For One plans years in advance. When he got a hold of five year old me he had different plans. Plan A consisted of using my body as a vessel for Yoichi's vestige, once he got One For All back. This also explains why he made sure I kept living a certain lifestyle and, as a result, ended up looking very similar to Yoichi.

But then he got killed by All Might.

This started plan B, which is the plan he'll stick to until the end. His body was damaged and using the immortality quirk would have been a waste, so now the new plan consists of using my body for HIS vestige. Then he'll use the immortality quirk.

But it'll not work out in his favour.

So the war starts and now he's literally in two places at once: his original body and his vestige in mine.

He'll give me the original All For One through the surgery and he's going to have a copy. But All For One and Daruma won't be able to duplicate the immortality quirk, so the original and only existing one is inside the original All For One quirk, which I have.

(The idea that they won't be able to duplicate it came form the fact that the strange teleportation quirk All For One has is a failed duplication of Kurogiri's quirk, so the failed duplication of the immortality quirk doesn't sound too far fetched.)

During the war his original body will die after he'll rewind himself back in time thanks to the drug made by Overhaul with Eri's DNA, leaving only his vestige inside me.

But he won't use the immortality quirk. Not only does my vestige's presence interfere with the proper use of All For One's quirk, but if he could use the immortality quirk while my vestige still exists it'd become immortal as well. And trust me, he does NOT want to share a body with me, he'd rather fucking die.

Also keep in mind that All For One, in my dr, could EASILY win the war, but he thinks so highly of himself that he's going to underestimate EVERYTHING and EVERYONE and he'll miserably fail.

So All For One's vestige goes down, everyone else survives and this will mark the beginning of a new era.

If you read the intro to this dr then you know the drill: shit changes for the better, the world will be amazing and bla bla bla.

(I don't remember if I wrote this in the intro, but One For All doesn't cease to exist after the war. I'll give it back to Deku, since during the war he passes it to me to get rid of All For One's vestige- and I'll still have All For One's quirk.)

"So how do you and your friends become immortal?"

In the postwar, since I'm now the holder of the original All For One quirk, I'll dedicate quite some time to properly make All For One's quirk my own. But keep in mind that the immortality quirk still goes unused.

(Keep in mind that for my dr I scripted quite some things about how All For One's quirk works and other things like that- I also scripted about vestiges and other peculiar things.)

(Also, in case I'll talk about it in the future [aka I want to yap about it now]: in my dr, the places in which vestiges are found are generically called 'Vestige Realms'. Deku's Vestige Realm, the one within One For All, is called 'Vestige Room' because it's supposed to resemble the room in which Yoichi was trapped in by All For One. My Vestige Realm, the one that formed after the surgery, is called 'Vestige World' because in the middle of it there's my childhood house surrounded by a city and it seemingly goes on forever. All For One's Vestige Realm is either 'Vestige Realm' because it's the first/original one, or 'The Black Hole' because it's literally a black hole. The reason why I decided to give names to all of them is because me and Deku are going to talk about it A LOT- and eventually we're going to tell everyone the truth about everything [so everything about All For One, what's One For All, etc], so this makes it a bit easier.)

The way we ALL become immortal, which shouldn't really be possible, is kind of strange. But I didn't know what else to script and to be honest I don't really give a shit, so fuck it we ball.

It's your typical "oopsie! Kinda lost control of my quirk for a second there, sorry guys!" kind of situation.

The fact that I accidentally activate a quirk within All For One isn't that strange, especially if I haven't trained that quirk much. So me accidentally using the immortality quirk, which cannot be trained and can only be activated once, isn't that far fetched.

The unusual and nonsensical part is the fact that everyone gets the permanent effect.

The best thing I could script is this: remember that quirk All For One used on an unconscious Kurogiri to forcefully activate his quirk? Yeah, it involves that quirk.

All For One used a quirk called Rivet Stab to touch Kurogiri from a distance and then used the other quirk to activate Kurogiri's. And this is basically what will happen.

Rivet Stab, at least in my dr, becomes an extremely versatile quirk when mixed with others stored within All For One's quirk. This makes it a bit of a pain in the ass to properly train.

So after some thinking I figured that Rivet Stab getting out of control and the immortality quirk activating, mixed with the DNA changing nature of All For One's quirk (if I start yapping about how All For One's quirk works in my dr I'll never shut up), is the most likely scenario.

So here you have it! How me and the LOV will become immortal and live an amazing, peaceful life!

I'm gonna be honest. My original plan for shifting was to achieve immortality because I'm terrified of death, so sharing it with my found family in a peaceful environment sounds so fucking good!

But I'll also make a new script for a separate reality, kind of like a waiting room, where it's just our immortal selves. Because fuck death, that's why!

(also it's my brother's birthday and my mum is making a cake. It's literally my dr self's favourite cake. I'm fucking winning.)

Do you guys have that one song that never fails to remind you of someone in your dr? Well, I have multiple songs that remind me of multiple people, so I thought about making a little post about one of those!! (for my main bnha reality)

I'll surely make more of these posts because they give me lots of motivation. But unfortunately for you something that strangely motivates me a lot is All For One's death, so in this post I'll be talking about a song that reminds me of him. I hate this fucker so much, it's not even funny.

Unfortunately my playlist, which was started WAY before I started scripting this dr, is full of songs that remind me of him. So maybe I could do more posts about him.

Usually when I see people talking about someone from their dr it's always a s/o, a family member or a friend, but I guess I'll be talking about my worst enemy!! One of the reasons why I find myself thinking about him a lot is because in the present of my dr (thank fuck it'll change in the future) this bastard is basically a role model to me, someone could argue he's supposed to be a father figure, so... yeah- I can't wait for his death!! :D

And since I'm talking about All For One of all people, supposing you know who he is (if you're still reading this then I assume you do), then don't expect anything pretty out of this post...so warning I guess? Also reminder that in my main bnha reality I'm Shigaraki...so it's even worse!! :D

As I already said, my playlist has lots of songs that remind me of All For One. Some remind me of certain scenarios that will take place in my dr, some remind me of him in general, while some remind me of more specific things about him.

"All Eyes On Me" by Bo Burnham never fails to remind me of how self centered he is. He's a complete narcissist, his god complex is unmatched. This song reminds me of the war, specifically when he'll be literally possessing me.

I don't know how to explain this, but all I can hear when I listen to this song is a dialogue between me and him- although he's the one who ends up talking the most. So to better understand what the fuck I'm talking about, here's the lyrics of the song! The blue text is supposed to be my dr self and the red text is All For One. I suggest you keep in mind the fact that I said this reminds me of when he's possessing me, it just hits different-

BUT WAIT!

The song starts with "Get your fuckin' hands up", but if you look down here I've written 'off' instead of 'up'. I know it says 'up', but I genuinely cannot hear it, even if I think about it and try to hear it. I really can't. For me it always has been and always will be 'off'. So please play along and pretend it's 'off', because every time I listen to this song my brain thinks 'off' and goes "hehe, it makes sense for your dr!"

Also when it says "Get on out of your seats" I always hear "Get 'em out of your seats". I always interpreted this as "applaud me" like...I don't know- you're in a crowd, get your hands off of your lap and applaud someone on stage or something.

But those are not the only things I can't 'hear properly'. In fact I changed another part. It's when it says "Heads down, pray for me" and "Heads down now, pray for me". I genuinely cannot hear that, I always heard and will always hear "Hands down — Pray for me" and "Hands down, now — Pray for me". It doesn't make sense, I know, but with the context I've given (it being a dialogue between two people – me and All For One – and the fact that he's literally possessing my body) I promise it makes sense!! So please play along-

...AND YOU GUESSED IT- ANOTHER THING: "Got it? Good, now get inside" I always hear it as "Got it. Good, now get inside". So instead of "did you get it? Good..." it's like "ok I got it. Good...".

“What's the point of the post if you changed the song?” I didn't change the song. The song says 'up', it says 'on', it says 'heads down', it puts a question mark. What I'm doing is making it so you can hear what I hear. Because every time I listen to this song (like while writing this post) I hear it like this- it doesn't matter if I know that it doesn't go like this, it doesn't matter if I'm reading the lyrics, I can't hear it any other way. Which actually makes me appreciate it more to be honest- especially since I've kind of connected it with my dr.

So yeah, sorry- I'll shut up now-

Get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seats

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seats

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Are you feeling nervous?

Are you having 'fun'?

It's almost over

It's just begun

Don't overthink this

Look in my eye

Don't be scared, don't be shy

Come on in, the water's fine

We're goin' to go where everybody knows

Everybody knows, everybody, oh

We're goin' to go where everybody knows

Everybody knows

Get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Ay, come on, get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me, yeah

Hands down — Pray for me

Hands down, now — Pray for me

Get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Are you feeling nervous?

Are you having 'fun'?

It's almost over

It's just begun

Don't overthink this

Look in my eye

Don't be scared, don't be shy

Come on in, the water's fine

You say “the ocean's rising” like I give a shit

You say “the whole world's ending”, honey, it already did

You're not gonna slow it, Heaven knows you tried

...Got it. Good, now get inside

We're goin' to go where everybody knows

Everybody knows, everybody knows

We're goin' to go where everybody knows

Everybody knows

Come on, get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Hey, come on, get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seats

All eyes on me, all eyes on me, yeah

Hands down — Pray for me

Hands down, now — Pray for me

I said get your fuckin' hands off

...

Get up...get up

I'm talkin' to you- GET THE FUCK UP

Get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Ay, fuckin' get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me, yeah

Come on, hands down — Pray for me

Hands down, now — Pray for me

I said get your fuckin' hands off

Get- HAHA

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

So that was something-

Now that you read (or listened too, that would be dope) this...do you see what I see?

And have you noticed how All For One gets progressively more and more aggressive? That's exactly how he is- especially in the war.

The All For One in my dr (like in canon) constantly puts up this patient, nice and welcoming yet still villainous persona. But in my dr, under that mask, he's actually the total opposite. His patience quickly runs out and his anger issues? Don't get me started on those! He quickly loses his temper and isn't afraid to get physically violent. You can see he's getting really mad by the way he speaks- and you're gonna know when you're in deep shit when he starts using a more vulgar vocabulary and, before you know it, he's literally trying to kill you. Luckily for him (and unfortunately for literally everyone else) he's a great fucking actor and he's willing to suppress 'the real him' if it means achieving his goals. In the war, while he's possessing me, he tries to keep the fake personality to manipulate me, sees it's not working anymore and completely drops the act, revealing his true nature. I JUST KNOW HIS LAST WORDS ARE GOING TO HURT- can't wait for his death either way to be honest-

"Get 'em out of your seats", as I said earlier, reminds me of applauding someone who's on stage- and followed by "all eyes on me" is just...so All For One! I remember that in canon (but I'm not 100% sure- it definitely happens in my dr though) All For One ends up killing the Light Baby because he was jealous that people weren't paying attention to him instead...so those lyrics are EXTREMELY fitting. Because, as I said, he's extremely self centered, a complete narcissist- IT'S THE SAME GUY THAT CALLS HIMSELF THE DEMON LORD BY THE WAY!!! (I know it's because of a comic he read...but still- damn- edgy teenage dr me could never-).

"Don't be scared, don't be shy — Come on in, the water's fine" NOT HIM TRYING TO MANIPULATE ME MORE- THIS BITCH

And in the part "Got it. Good, now get inside" (and what comes a bit before it) just seems like me speaking my mind and him just not caring at all. Because what I think doesn't fucking matter to him- so he's like "ok got it- now fucking listening to me because I'm right, you're wrong and you must always listen to me."

"Hands down — Pray for me" through all of this song what myself says the most is 'hands off'. Obviously this is because he's literally possessing my body, so...yeah- but him saying "pray for me"?...GIRL GET OUT- HIS GOD COMPLEX- WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE, YOU LITTLE SHIT??

HOLY FUCK- THIS SONG IS SO HIM IT'S ACTUALLY INSANE-

HANDS OFF FOR REAL- BECAUSE WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS????😭🙏🏻

(wish me luck guys🫡)

Am I the only one that doesn't really use affirmations on the regular?

One thing about me is that I don't want to do things unless I have fun with them. Luckily this doesn't apply to studying lmao (at least most of the time-), but it does to shifting.

Saying the same things over and over and over again is too repetitive and boring for me, so I just...don't really do it-

There are times in which I do use affirmations, but most of the time I try to focus on other things for the sake of not getting bored and dropping whatever I'm doing to shift.

If there's anything I've learned about shifting is that we shift constantly. I don't need to affirm to get up and go to the kitchen to get a snack, I just do it. So why would I need to do it to shift?

There's also the fact that when I keep repeating something in my head for a long time I kinda forget what I'm saying- or even how to say it unless I stop for a minute (you know that feeling when you say a word multiple times and suddenly it doesn't sound like a real word? Yeah, that). And most of the time my mind just ends up thinking about something completely unrelated and I completely abandon my method.

Instead of affirming that I'm in my dr I try to 'feel it'. Basically I think about being in my dr without using words- if that makes sense. I'm not sure how to explain it to be honest.

And obviously, since I've never seen anyone in the shifting community not mentioning affirmations, my smooth little brain HAD to start overthinking- but he better shut up, because I'm tired of his shit💀

And actually I just remembered that not everyone has 'a narrator' in their head when they think. And since literally anyone can shift then why wouldn't I be able to do it without affirming the way most people do? Also, there are people who have shifted on accident/without meaning to- AND ALSO, there are people who have shifted without knowing what shifting was- HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO NOT MAKE IT WHEN THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO HAVE SHIFTED WITHOUT KNOWING WHAT SHIFTING WAS??? I don't think they went to bed while affirming of being in their dr SINCE THEY DIDN'T KNOW WHAT SHIFTING WAS- AND YET THEY DID IT!!

So yeah, I'm going to shift now, goodnight!!

I'm trying to continue writing the draft which is basically a remake of the intro to my main bnha dr, but every time I come online and try to write something down I'm just unable to do so. I've been thinking about what happened the last time I tried to shift to that dr, it happened about a week ago I think.

Basically I was lying in bed, visualising my dr bedroom and eventually I fell asleep. When I woke up I was still here, but it was pretty early in the morning (around 3am if I remember correctly), so I began my lazy method again.

While I was visualising I felt something- and it wasn't pleasant at all.

Basically when I do my lazy method I just imagine that I'm my dr self and I'm laying in bed in my dr bedroom. But that can get kinda boring so, since I scripted that eventually Kurogiri will come into my room to wake me up, I prefer to imagine the same thing but Kurogiri is already there. I don't know why, it helps me concentrate more for some reason. Usually when I'm particularly sleepy and cozy I can't help myself but think about him sitting at the edge of my bed and running his hand through my hair (words cannot describe how much I like that- it's an amazing feeling- it makes me feel so cozy and loved😭🙏🏻💕)

So now you might be thinking "did you actually feel his hand on your head while you were trying to shift?"

Unfortunately no- I really wish that was it, but it wasn't.

I was doing my method, like usual, and suddenly I felt a hand touching the left side of my body on top of my blanket. It basically tapped my body from my hip to my shoulder and then once on my mouth which was covered by the blanket. When I tell you I was TERRIFIED it's an understatement- I literally thought someone was in the house. My first reaction was to pretend to be asleep and my heart was RACING. Eventually I said fuck it and did a reality check (pinched my nose and tried to breathe) just to make sure I wasn't dreaming.

The worst part is that it wasn't just a feeling, I literally perceived a hand- specifically a left hand (don't ask me why a left hand, but when that happened I could only picture a left hand for some reason).

Kurogiri would NEVER touch me like that, NEVER!!

So I know for a fact that wasn't him and I wasn't feeling something from my dr. I know I probably was just half asleep and feeling weird shit, but it's not the first time I wake up in the middle of the night and go back to sleep feeling like that AND THAT NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE- and coincidentally it happened right while I was doing my method.

I don't know, but whenever I think back to it, and I try to connect it to my dr for some reason (the reason being I'm delusional), I can only think of All For One- HAVE I EVER TOLD YOU GUYS ABOUT HOW MUCH I HATE THIS MAN? THE SHEER HATRED I FEEL FOR THIS POOR EXCUSE OF A HUMAN BEING IS ONE OF THE MANY THINGS THAT MOTIVATE ME TO SHIFT TO MY MAN BNHA DR- I GENUINELY CANNOT WAIT FOR HIS DEATH, WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW HAPPY I WILL BE ONCE THAT HAPPENS-

So yeah, I'm kinda going insane for what happened and now my hatred for All For One has reached a new level- can't believe my dr self will (temporary, thank fuck-) think of this man as a saviour and some kind of role model and shit-

I don't know why the hate I feel for him motivates me to shift, but it's so funny because whenever something bad yet silly happens in the cr I just pretend that's him trying to sabotage me and I'm like "bitch ass motherfucker that's not gonna work, I'm shifting and kicking your fucking ass💪🏻😼"

All For One I hope you shit your pants and have a horrible day overall!!!😘🥰😍

BRIDBEHEBDBD THIS SEEMS FUN- IF ANYONE CARES PLEASE SEND ASKS!!

[I'll answer for my main bnha reality because it's the reality I have the most information of!]

EXCUSE THE MESS ✶ ASK GAME

౨ৎ excuse the mess is a shifting ask game inspired by frank ocean's channel orange with a focus on your relationships in your desired realities. ﹙ reblog for asks & send emojis to ask ﹚

cw! a few of these questions are less "fun" and more phycological. i completely understand if that's not your cup of tea. take care of yourselves <3

𐔌 . 💫 ⋮ 'BOUT YOU ֹ ₊ ꒱ what do you reminisce on late at night? is it a person you had to leave behind? someone who left you? why are you still reminded of that past? are you upset with the memories? do you regret them?

𐔌 . 🩳 ⋮ SWEET LIFE ֹ ₊ ꒱ what are the sweetest parts of your relationship with your s/o? all the not sugar-free, tooth-aching sweetness you two share. is your dynamic as simple as grumpiness vs sweetness or is it something more complex?

𐔌 . 🥂 ⋮ SUPER RICH KIDS ֹ ₊ ꒱ is there something in your desired realty that we would think is fantastical or unheard-of but is completely normal there? do you splurge thousands of dollars a day like you're in gossip girl? or fly around on a broomstick?

𐔌 . 🍃 ⋮ PILOT JONES ֹ ₊ ꒱ who is your bad influence? the one person you can count on to be involved with something insane and drag you along with them? have they always been "bad"? why won't you let them go?

𐔌 . ✈️ ⋮ LOST IN THE HEAT ֹ ₊ ꒱ was there a point where you were "lost" in your desired reality? a point where you knew you weren't going the way you want but couldn't recognize the way back? could be physical or emotional.

𐔌 . 🎹 ⋮ BAD RELIGION ֹ ₊ ꒱ what or who do you turn to when you need a safe space? do you turn on your favorite album and sit alone in your bedroom? do you have a friend you know will always be comforting ear? perhaps you take solo walks around your neighborhood?

𐔌 . 🍊 ⋮ FORREST GUMP ֹ ₊ ꒱ who runs your mind? the person you're always thinking about? when you make a joke that doesn't quite land, who do you know would've loved it?

﹙ ordered by track list ﹚ ꕀ would you laugh if i told you one of my least favorite colors is orange...

And now that I finally posted the intro to my main bnha dr I can post stupid memes like this-

:D

This is kind of a rant about what the hell I'm scripting in my main bnha reality (and also a little rant about how much I love the people in my dr- but it's not the 'hehe I love them so much' kind of post, it's more like 'I'd literally die for them', so be careful I guess-). Also a little update about the post in which I talked about me and the lov becoming immortal because fuck death.

Also you know the drill: making this post helped me better organise my thoughts and all that!

So in my main bnha reality I'm literally Shigaraki, so my script MUST have safety things for trauma and things like that...BUT...

I've been feeling like absolute shit lately and that's because I feel like an horrible fucking human being specifically for scripting these safety rules. Because what do you mean that I go through horrible shit and feel fine while my friends, who also go through horrible shit, will live with it for the rest of their lives? (+ I scripted that we become immortal, so even worse).

Who do I think I am? I'm not above them, so why would I script that I get to not experience trauma and they do?

"Just script that they also don't get traumatised" alright, what are we fighting for then? If our experiences don't affect us then why are we trying this hard to change society and create a better world? For fun? No. Absolutely not.

"You don't need to be incredibly scarred to want change" true, but would we fucking sacrifice ourselves for it? No, because there's a chance of us having a 'if it doesn't affect us that much then it isn't really our problem' kind of mentality- but even if we didn't (because I can just script that doesn't happen), as I already said, I doubt we'd be willing to die for it.

"Then don't shift there" I don't wanna fucking hear it, I have my reasons to shift there.

The thing that I want you to understand is the fact that I love the people in my dr and I would do anything- ANYTHING for them. And if that means going though hell and back and risk my life then I'm gonna fucking do it. If being equal to them means scripting out some safety rules then I'm gonna fucking do it.

I feel like this is the only way for me to feel at peace because OH MY GOD- THIS HAS BEEN EATING ME ALIVE FOR A LONG TIME- I didn't want to do it, but it's the only thing that feels...'right'- I feel like it's fair to my friends and also anyone that goes through horrible shit in my dr too. Because I'm not more important than anyone, we're all in this together god damnit.

At first I thought of scripting that yes, I feel completely fine but I still act like 'canon Shigaraki' would, but I feel like such a big liar- I don't want to lie to my friends, especially about something serious like this. It'd feel like I'm making fun of them or something.

Also, reminder that where I shift and what I script doesn't affect you in any way, so I don't want to hear anything like "are you stupid or something?" or anything similar. I know that I'm stupid and that it's going to be horrible, but for me it's worth it + I'm not coming back to the cr, so if I regret this decision I can always shift to a reality in which what I experienced doesn't effect me in the slightest, so I'll be alright. Hell, I could even script I don't remember it at all if I want to!

So what am I scripting now?

Keep in mind that I'm never going to come back here. Once I shift I'm going to spend 90% of my time in my main bnha reality and the rest 10% will be spent in other realities including waiting rooms. In all of my realities (drs and wrs) I scripted that not only I can't 'bring back trauma' but my mind is 'made of steel', so even if I go through horrible shit I won't develop anything like PTSD/C-PTSD or other similar conditions. So basically I can't get traumatised.

But there is one exception and that is my main bnha reality. Obviously I didn't just erase all of my safety rules regarding trauma, but almost.

So what am I doing?

I'm still scripting this, so I apologise if it's messy.

Basically when I first shift to my dr it'll be the 4th of April 2124. For a week I'll be completely fine. After that week, in a span of about two weeks my mind will gradually 'go back to what it's supposed to be like', so the trauma will be there.

"That's not how it works" 80% of the population in my main reality has superpowers, I don't want to hear it.

The reason why I scripted this is because it'll basically help me decide if I want to stick with it or if it'd be better to go to a waiting room and modify my script.

I scripted that I forget my script while I'm in my dr and I remember it whenever I'm in a different reality. But just to be sure, I scripted that I'll never forget that I shifted and I can shift whenever I want (and every attempt is successful + I remember my other realities, especially waiting rooms, but I'll forget the 'plot' of the ones that are kind of similar to this one, just to be sure); I always remember what I scripted for safety and for the lifa app; I'll never confuse memories; I remember that I'll never die, I know that everything is going to end well no matter how fucked up the situation is and I know that what I scripted about trauma and similar things is for a good reason, it's 100% worth it in the end and I'll never regret it (+ I know that it's temporary- continue reading to understand.)

I'd also like to add that if I went through the same things that my dr self went and will go through in the cr I wouldn't last a second. But my dr self is WAY stronger, both physically and mentally. My dr self deals with these kinds of things WAY better than my cr self. So there's also that.

"But what about you guys becoming immortal?" I scripted that the immortality quirk not only grants...well, immortality- but it also puts the target in a better condition to live forever. So basically we become immortal and we say bye bye to our trauma.

This doesn't mean that we forget what happened, but those memories won't affect us the same way they did before. Maybe they're a little uncomfortable to think about, maybe they make us feel sad, angry and sometimes scared, but they definitely don't have the same effect as before. They'll be easier to deal with, to not think about, etc.

Once I decided to script this I also contemplated what I scripted for physical pain- I'LL STILL HAVE A REALLY HIGH PAIN TOLERANCE, DON'T WORRY- but if you look at canon Shigaraki... that's basically it- got shot at least 4 times in a span of two milliseconds? grunted and didn't shead a tear. Redestro destroying his hand? Made a face, grunted, didn't shead a tear. The surgery to get All For One's quirk? Screamed at the top of his lungs, still didn't shead a tear. The war? Didn't shead a single tear.

With this I don't mean that he doesn't feel pain, he definitely does, but he deals with it REALLY well. His pain tolerance is incredible. It only makes sense for me to script that (+ after the surgery my pain tolerance will skyrocket thanks to whatever quirk is stored inside All For One.)

Obviously the same thing I scripted for trauma applies here: I know I didn't script it for nothing and it's worth it in the end.

In other words I'm a crazy bitch.

I just remembered a dream I wrote down a long time ago and...I don't know- it felt SO REALISTIC IT WAS INSANE- IT WASN'T A LUCID DREAM BUT IN THE DREAM I LITERALLY WONDERED IF I SHIFTED BECAUSE OH MY GOD-

Thank fuck I wrote it down- so here's the dream! :)

I remember I was going to a fair in my town. My town in real life had a fair not too long ago, so it was probably that one. In real life the fair had a bouncy castle for the kids. Basically in the dream there was a super huge bouncy castle and my dream self gave herself the goal to explore every inch of that thing, she knew there were some parts of it that led to places we shouldn't be in, so she was determined to find out more. But to get to a higher part of the bouncy castle you had to go through a little obstacle course. And let me tell you, this part of the dream felt magical!

This part of the dream was so realistic that my dream self wondered if she shifted or not, but eventually settled for thinking it was a dream. But somehow this wasn't a lucid dream-

Basically the entrance to the obstacle course was under huge trees and if you looked back you could see how the leaves made some kind of cave entrance shape. From the inside you couldn't see the town, you could see a prairie with beautiful trees in the distance, the sky was clear and birds were flying. From the inside you could see the sunlight coming in and don't get me started on the wind. I found myself onto a wooden bridge without railings, I was admiring the beautiful view while I could feel the wind hitting my face and messing up my hair. It was an amazing feeling. It was at this point that my dream self was confused about it being real life (and I shifted somewhere random) or a dream, because it was just too realistic compared to what I was feeling earlier. I remember my dream self thinking that dreams can be super realistic like this- but then she fell into the water underneath the bridge, since the wind was shaking it, but then she just thought how it was so realistic that when she was going to step out of the water the wind was going to make her feel even more cold. So she stepped out and yes, it was colder! But eventually my dream self remembered her goal and decided to go away from that beautiful place.

When she stepped away the dream went back to feeling like a normal dream, so I said goodbye to that realistic feeling.

The dream goes on but like...did I shift or what?- I NEED TO KNOW BECAUSE IT WAS THE FIRST AND ONLY TIME SOMETHING LIKE THAT EVER HAPPENED TO ME!!😭🙏🏻

Ok...guys, I know I said I was going to be in my drafts all day, but not only my internet connection fucking sucks today but I also just found out about freeform poetry and you know I'm about to write some corny shit dedicated to my s/o-

Spinner I'm so sorry for whatever monstrosity I'm going to dedicate to you- please don't make fun of me pookie😭🙏🏻 (I know he'd never, he'd actually spontaneously combust positively if I were to write poetry about him, but I'll say it anyway)

MLP DR SLAYYYYYYYYYYY ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

IXBSSHHSSVSHGSVSVS-

LITTLE ME ALWAYS WANTED TO BE FRIENDS WITH THE MAIN 6, IT'S INSANE-

So don't mind me shifting as a cute, little pony and be a new element of friendship-

BUT I'M SO UPSET BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW I WANT TO LOOK LIKE IN MY DR, I SPONTANEOUSLY COMBUST EVERY TIME I TRY TO THINK OF SOMETHING GOOD, HELP😭🙏🏻