I'm Trying To Continue Writing The Draft Which Is Basically A Remake Of The Intro To My Main Bnha Dr,

I'm working on both my main bnha reality script and a new one (that I won't be sharing because it's a little bit too personal) so now I'm alternating obsessing over these two realities.

But my little human brain is worried that if I make an attempt to shift to another reality different from my bnha one, which is the one I put more effort in, I'll magically lose the progress I made.

Can someone be like "the fuck are you talking about? You won't lose anything!" because I'm going insane-

What is your favorite thing from any of your DR’s?

Thank you for the question! I'll take any opportunity to yap about my drs LMAO-

I'll start by saying that I love all my drs and all of them have that one special thing that makes them unique.

But most of the drs I wrote in my pinned post don't have a script yet, I only have a general idea for them, so here I'll only talk about the ones I have a good amount of information about. So sorry if I don't cover all of them!

symbol of fear: main bnha reality → this is obviously the reality I'm more attached to. This is the reality in which I'll spend most of my time in and it could easily become my 'new cr', if you get what I mean. I love a lot of things about this one, so it's difficult to pinpoint THE favorite thing. But the first thing that comes to mind when I think 'favorite' is my found family. The League Of Villains has a really special place in my heart and I genuinely cannot wait to be with them. I also cannot wait for the postwar. I'm still scripting it properly, but it'll be absolutely amazing. Another thing that I guess I could add as a favorite is the fact that I'll be myself. I've been trying to connect more to my dr lately and it's gotten to the point that whenever I get to the 'my dr self' part of a new script it feels strange to not write 'Shigaraki Tomura'...so yeah- I'll take it as a sign that I'm close to shifting to my main dr LMAO-

cozy lov: waiting room → in my pinned post I didn't call this a waiting room because my plans for this reality changed only recently. This will be a waiting room-ish kind of reality. Basically take my dr self and the LOV from my main bnha reality and put them in a reality in which only they exist and can basically do whatever they want (+ immortality because I'm terrified of death). What I really like about this reality is that I can be with the LOV and be completely free to do whatever we want. It resembles my main a bit, but I don't really care-

???: a bnha reality → I haven't started scripting this one yet, but I can safely say that my favorite thing about it is the music- I love music and I can't wait to make something majestic! Also, you know the drill, the LOV is there too and all that!

home: main waiting room → what I love the most about my main waiting room is that it basically functions as my 'secret hideout' or something. I can just go there whenever and do whatever I want without being bothered by anyone. I'm also the only person in the world, so I don't have to worry about things like social standards or things like that LMAO-

I wanted to write about other drs, but lately I've been working on other drs I didn't share here because they're quite personal, so this is all I've got for now- I'm sorry 😭🙏🏻

Also I'm pretty tired and my brain isn't cooperating right now💀

The drs I wrote here are the ones I'm planning to talk about the most on my blog, so at least I covered the bare minimum-

Wait for me Iguchi "Spinner" Shūichi, my dr is not too far away

BRIDBEHEBDBD THIS SEEMS FUN- IF ANYONE CARES PLEASE SEND ASKS!!

[I'll answer for my main bnha reality because it's the reality I have the most information of!]

EXCUSE THE MESS ✶ ASK GAME

౨ৎ excuse the mess is a shifting ask game inspired by frank ocean's channel orange with a focus on your relationships in your desired realities. ﹙ reblog for asks & send emojis to ask ﹚

cw! a few of these questions are less "fun" and more phycological. i completely understand if that's not your cup of tea. take care of yourselves <3

𐔌 . 💫 ⋮ 'BOUT YOU ֹ ₊ ꒱ what do you reminisce on late at night? is it a person you had to leave behind? someone who left you? why are you still reminded of that past? are you upset with the memories? do you regret them?

𐔌 . 🩳 ⋮ SWEET LIFE ֹ ₊ ꒱ what are the sweetest parts of your relationship with your s/o? all the not sugar-free, tooth-aching sweetness you two share. is your dynamic as simple as grumpiness vs sweetness or is it something more complex?

𐔌 . 🥂 ⋮ SUPER RICH KIDS ֹ ₊ ꒱ is there something in your desired realty that we would think is fantastical or unheard-of but is completely normal there? do you splurge thousands of dollars a day like you're in gossip girl? or fly around on a broomstick?

𐔌 . 🍃 ⋮ PILOT JONES ֹ ₊ ꒱ who is your bad influence? the one person you can count on to be involved with something insane and drag you along with them? have they always been "bad"? why won't you let them go?

𐔌 . ✈️ ⋮ LOST IN THE HEAT ֹ ₊ ꒱ was there a point where you were "lost" in your desired reality? a point where you knew you weren't going the way you want but couldn't recognize the way back? could be physical or emotional.

𐔌 . 🎹 ⋮ BAD RELIGION ֹ ₊ ꒱ what or who do you turn to when you need a safe space? do you turn on your favorite album and sit alone in your bedroom? do you have a friend you know will always be comforting ear? perhaps you take solo walks around your neighborhood?

𐔌 . 🍊 ⋮ FORREST GUMP ֹ ₊ ꒱ who runs your mind? the person you're always thinking about? when you make a joke that doesn't quite land, who do you know would've loved it?

﹙ ordered by track list ﹚ ꕀ would you laugh if i told you one of my least favorite colors is orange...

This is kind of a rant about what the hell I'm scripting in my main bnha reality (and also a little rant about how much I love the people in my dr- but it's not the 'hehe I love them so much' kind of post, it's more like 'I'd literally die for them', so be careful I guess-). Also a little update about the post in which I talked about me and the lov becoming immortal because fuck death.

Also you know the drill: making this post helped me better organise my thoughts and all that!

So in my main bnha reality I'm literally Shigaraki, so my script MUST have safety things for trauma and things like that...BUT...

I've been feeling like absolute shit lately and that's because I feel like an horrible fucking human being specifically for scripting these safety rules. Because what do you mean that I go through horrible shit and feel fine while my friends, who also go through horrible shit, will live with it for the rest of their lives? (+ I scripted that we become immortal, so even worse).

Who do I think I am? I'm not above them, so why would I script that I get to not experience trauma and they do?

"Just script that they also don't get traumatised" alright, what are we fighting for then? If our experiences don't affect us then why are we trying this hard to change society and create a better world? For fun? No. Absolutely not.

"You don't need to be incredibly scarred to want change" true, but would we fucking sacrifice ourselves for it? No, because there's a chance of us having a 'if it doesn't affect us that much then it isn't really our problem' kind of mentality- but even if we didn't (because I can just script that doesn't happen), as I already said, I doubt we'd be willing to die for it.

"Then don't shift there" I don't wanna fucking hear it, I have my reasons to shift there.

The thing that I want you to understand is the fact that I love the people in my dr and I would do anything- ANYTHING for them. And if that means going though hell and back and risk my life then I'm gonna fucking do it. If being equal to them means scripting out some safety rules then I'm gonna fucking do it.

I feel like this is the only way for me to feel at peace because OH MY GOD- THIS HAS BEEN EATING ME ALIVE FOR A LONG TIME- I didn't want to do it, but it's the only thing that feels...'right'- I feel like it's fair to my friends and also anyone that goes through horrible shit in my dr too. Because I'm not more important than anyone, we're all in this together god damnit.

At first I thought of scripting that yes, I feel completely fine but I still act like 'canon Shigaraki' would, but I feel like such a big liar- I don't want to lie to my friends, especially about something serious like this. It'd feel like I'm making fun of them or something.

Also, reminder that where I shift and what I script doesn't affect you in any way, so I don't want to hear anything like "are you stupid or something?" or anything similar. I know that I'm stupid and that it's going to be horrible, but for me it's worth it + I'm not coming back to the cr, so if I regret this decision I can always shift to a reality in which what I experienced doesn't effect me in the slightest, so I'll be alright. Hell, I could even script I don't remember it at all if I want to!

So what am I scripting now?

Keep in mind that I'm never going to come back here. Once I shift I'm going to spend 90% of my time in my main bnha reality and the rest 10% will be spent in other realities including waiting rooms. In all of my realities (drs and wrs) I scripted that not only I can't 'bring back trauma' but my mind is 'made of steel', so even if I go through horrible shit I won't develop anything like PTSD/C-PTSD or other similar conditions. So basically I can't get traumatised.

But there is one exception and that is my main bnha reality. Obviously I didn't just erase all of my safety rules regarding trauma, but almost.

So what am I doing?

I'm still scripting this, so I apologise if it's messy.

Basically when I first shift to my dr it'll be the 4th of April 2124. For a week I'll be completely fine. After that week, in a span of about two weeks my mind will gradually 'go back to what it's supposed to be like', so the trauma will be there.

"That's not how it works" 80% of the population in my main reality has superpowers, I don't want to hear it.

The reason why I scripted this is because it'll basically help me decide if I want to stick with it or if it'd be better to go to a waiting room and modify my script.

I scripted that I forget my script while I'm in my dr and I remember it whenever I'm in a different reality. But just to be sure, I scripted that I'll never forget that I shifted and I can shift whenever I want (and every attempt is successful + I remember my other realities, especially waiting rooms, but I'll forget the 'plot' of the ones that are kind of similar to this one, just to be sure); I always remember what I scripted for safety and for the lifa app; I'll never confuse memories; I remember that I'll never die, I know that everything is going to end well no matter how fucked up the situation is and I know that what I scripted about trauma and similar things is for a good reason, it's 100% worth it in the end and I'll never regret it (+ I know that it's temporary- continue reading to understand.)

I'd also like to add that if I went through the same things that my dr self went and will go through in the cr I wouldn't last a second. But my dr self is WAY stronger, both physically and mentally. My dr self deals with these kinds of things WAY better than my cr self. So there's also that.

"But what about you guys becoming immortal?" I scripted that the immortality quirk not only grants...well, immortality- but it also puts the target in a better condition to live forever. So basically we become immortal and we say bye bye to our trauma.

This doesn't mean that we forget what happened, but those memories won't affect us the same way they did before. Maybe they're a little uncomfortable to think about, maybe they make us feel sad, angry and sometimes scared, but they definitely don't have the same effect as before. They'll be easier to deal with, to not think about, etc.

Once I decided to script this I also contemplated what I scripted for physical pain- I'LL STILL HAVE A REALLY HIGH PAIN TOLERANCE, DON'T WORRY- but if you look at canon Shigaraki... that's basically it- got shot at least 4 times in a span of two milliseconds? grunted and didn't shead a tear. Redestro destroying his hand? Made a face, grunted, didn't shead a tear. The surgery to get All For One's quirk? Screamed at the top of his lungs, still didn't shead a tear. The war? Didn't shead a single tear.

With this I don't mean that he doesn't feel pain, he definitely does, but he deals with it REALLY well. His pain tolerance is incredible. It only makes sense for me to script that (+ after the surgery my pain tolerance will skyrocket thanks to whatever quirk is stored inside All For One.)

Obviously the same thing I scripted for trauma applies here: I know I didn't script it for nothing and it's worth it in the end.

In other words I'm a crazy bitch.

Yesterday I randomly found something that really reminded me of Kurogiri from my main bnha reality. I was tired so I didn't think too much about it, but I took a screenshot anyway.

A few minutes ago I was in my gallery, thinking about my dr and all, and I saw the screenshot.

"I'm not crying, you are!" that's what I would say if I wasn't crying- I'M CRYING-

I MISS MY BIG BROTHER SO MUCH- GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!!

↑ this was the thing I saw by the way. If I don't shift tonight and I don't get to hug Kurogiri for AT LEAST an hour straight, I'm going to make it everyone's problem-

Hey silly people!! :D

Do you guys have any shifting subliminal recommendations? I don't know why, but I randomly thought about trying them so…yeah- here I am asking for recommendations!!

I really like music, so any subs with it are welcome!! Also subs with ambience seem really, really cool- one of my dr selves LOVES the rain (me in the cr too to be honest-) so bonus points for those!! And yeah, I'm pretty open to whatever, you can throw at me whatever you want!! :D

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But I'm only doing it because I scripted a happy ending that makes it worth it, I would never do it otherwise

I love making myself miserable in my drs, god

I just remembered a dream I wrote down a long time ago and...I don't know- it felt SO REALISTIC IT WAS INSANE- IT WASN'T A LUCID DREAM BUT IN THE DREAM I LITERALLY WONDERED IF I SHIFTED BECAUSE OH MY GOD-

Thank fuck I wrote it down- so here's the dream! :)

I remember I was going to a fair in my town. My town in real life had a fair not too long ago, so it was probably that one. In real life the fair had a bouncy castle for the kids. Basically in the dream there was a super huge bouncy castle and my dream self gave herself the goal to explore every inch of that thing, she knew there were some parts of it that led to places we shouldn't be in, so she was determined to find out more. But to get to a higher part of the bouncy castle you had to go through a little obstacle course. And let me tell you, this part of the dream felt magical!

This part of the dream was so realistic that my dream self wondered if she shifted or not, but eventually settled for thinking it was a dream. But somehow this wasn't a lucid dream-

Basically the entrance to the obstacle course was under huge trees and if you looked back you could see how the leaves made some kind of cave entrance shape. From the inside you couldn't see the town, you could see a prairie with beautiful trees in the distance, the sky was clear and birds were flying. From the inside you could see the sunlight coming in and don't get me started on the wind. I found myself onto a wooden bridge without railings, I was admiring the beautiful view while I could feel the wind hitting my face and messing up my hair. It was an amazing feeling. It was at this point that my dream self was confused about it being real life (and I shifted somewhere random) or a dream, because it was just too realistic compared to what I was feeling earlier. I remember my dream self thinking that dreams can be super realistic like this- but then she fell into the water underneath the bridge, since the wind was shaking it, but then she just thought how it was so realistic that when she was going to step out of the water the wind was going to make her feel even more cold. So she stepped out and yes, it was colder! But eventually my dream self remembered her goal and decided to go away from that beautiful place.

When she stepped away the dream went back to feeling like a normal dream, so I said goodbye to that realistic feeling.

The dream goes on but like...did I shift or what?- I NEED TO KNOW BECAUSE IT WAS THE FIRST AND ONLY TIME SOMETHING LIKE THAT EVER HAPPENED TO ME!!😭🙏🏻

In my main bnha reality the 4th of April is my birthday, so happy birthday to me! :)