Tht Moment When You Realize The 'cute Moments Of Peace' Between You And Your Abusive Partner Are Literally

something that doesn't get talked enough about in my opinion is how absolutely isolating it is when you throw up all. the. time. and especially because it's seen as a "gross" symptom by most people. It is and has been the most isolating symptom for me and also happens to be my most severe symptom. I have thrown up at almost all of my friends houses, in my friends cars, at the majority of all sleepovers that i've been to, in public, on public transportation, in front of my friends or my friends parents, etc etc and this has been happening since i was a young child. It is absolutely devastating to lose your social life due to something you can't control and it is even more devastating to be considered gross by those you are around. And I ask that people please be kind to those of us that experience symptoms like vomiting and other gastrointestinal problems, because i can guarantee that it is a lot harder on us than it is you for witnessing it.

Art is meant to comfort the disturbed and disturb the comforted. I love you, Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov. I love you, 120 Days of Sodom by Marquis de Sade. I love you, All Quiet on the Western Front by Enrich M. Remarque. I love you, The Death of the Heart by Elizabeth Bowen. I love you, American Psycho by Bret E. Ellis. I love you, Speak by Laurie Halsie Anderson. I love you, I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou.

friendly reminder that radqueers aren't valid <3

you're romanticizing suffering and the experiences that led to it <3

you're tokenizing actual people's experiences and stereotyping them <3

go fuck yourself <3

reblog to scream at full volume about your chronic illness without actually moving

💜 Dark/Villain/Criminal Self-Ship Asks

For those with evil, morally questionable f/o’s anyone with darker self-ships. Warning for suggestion of occasionally toxic dynamics.

🖤 - What is a twisted, secret act of love you and your F/O share that only the two of you would understand?

🩸 - Has your F/O ever marked you in a way that felt like a bond, even if others might see it as dangerous or unhinged?

🔪 - Has your F/O ever protected you in a way that was violent or ruthless, but it made you feel deeply cherished? Do they kill or intimidate others for you?

🕷️ - Does your F/O bug your clothing, house or vehicle? Would they ensure you’re well monitored? Do they do it out of protection or obsession?

🕸️ - Does your F/O trap you in their world, or do you willingly crawl into their web?

🥀 - Has your F/O ever “tested” your loyalty in a way that felt dangerous or thrilling? How did you prove yourself to them?

🎭 - Does your F/O hide their true self from others? How does it feel knowing the side of them no one else does?

🌙 - What’s the darkest secret you and your F/O share that bonds you, even if it would horrify anyone else? How did they confess this secret?

👻 - Does your F/O enjoy toying with your fear, knowing it brings you closer to them?

🪓 - Does your F/O ever fear losing control around you? How do you reassure them? Or do you like the chaos?

🦂 - Has your F/O ever lied to you for your own safety or to manipulate your feelings, and how did it change your relationship?

⛓️ - If your F/O could keep you by their side forever through unconventional means, (being immortal via soul pact, vampirism, science) would you let them?

💣 - Would your F/O ever involve you in their criminal or villainous schemes, willingly or not? How would it bond you? Would it be fun or sickening? Other?

🗡️ - Is there a dark or forbidden fantasy your F/O has indulged for you? How did they react to you telling them about it?

🧲 - Has your F/O ever manipulated a situation to keep you close? How do you feel knowing they did it?

🔗 - Does your F/O see you as their weakness, their strength, or both? How does that shape your connection?

🎁 - Has your F/O ever gifted you something darkly romantic, like a token from their crimes or a memento from a fallen enemy?

🕯️- Has your F/O ever orchestrated a chillingly intimate moment, a declaration of love in a tense setting, like an illicit deal or crime scene?

🔥 - Does your F/O have any dangerous habits they’ve pulled you into, and how does it make you feel?

📜 - Does your F/O have a code or rule they live by? How does it affect the way they treat you? Do they have any rules for you in particular?

⛏️ - Has your F/O ever trusted you with their signature weapon, or even asked you to use it?

⚰️ - If your F/O had to fake your death, kidnap you or move you to another country to keep you safe, how do you think they’d go about it?

🪦 - Would you help your F/O cover up a crime, no questions asked? How far would you go to protect them?

💀 - What’s the most cryptic or ominous thing your F/O has ever said to you that you still can’t forget?

💍 - Does your F/O treat you like a partner, a prize, or something else entirely? How do you feel about it?

💋 - Does your F/O enjoy teasing you about their darker side, as if daring you to love them despite it? How do you respond?

💎 - Does your F/O ever use their charm to manipulate you, even in harmless ways? How do you feel about their slyness?

🔮 - Does your F/O believe you’re destined to be together? What lengths would they go to if fate didn’t agree?

👑 - How does your F/O treat you differently from everyone else, even when they’re at their cruelest?

🫀 - If your F/O could claim ownership of a part of you, physically or emotionally, what would they choose?

🌌 - If your F/O could rewrite the world, what would it look like, and where would you stand in it?

🕳️ - If your F/O lost their current life or position (taken in by authorities, empire crumbled, demoted by higher ups) how would your dynamic change?

🪢 - What’s a moral line you’ve crossed because of your F/O’s influence? Would you do it again?

🌪️ - How is your romance inherently destructive in nature? What kind of people do you end up hurting? Do you hurt yourselves in the process?

😈 - Does your F/O take pleasure in seeing others afraid of you, knowing you're tied to their darkness?

☠️ - If you were forced to kill for your F/O, would you do it willingly, or would they push you to the edge?

🎻 - What is a villainous song for your F/O?

Dividers by @/adornedwithlight

hey so God why did you make Late January feel like a very foggy snuff film haha no offense just like. why

Alr no one is gonna talk about this so i guess i will, even if i really do not want to bring this sort of topic onto my account.

Long long ass post so (i’m a Proshipper AND ANTI-radqueer. rant ahead)

As a proshipper who has been harmed by "pro-c radqueers" (and questioned joining the community for a while for reasons i will also discuss later on) It is extremely difficult for me to interact with fellow Anti-rqs (blogs or just people) because of the idea that all proshippers are also rq.

I am not here to start discourse, Just to spread the word around that while we may disagree on shipping and fiction, please know that many proshippers do not want any of the true harm that rqs push onto others!! The proship community has been here far far longer than them, we have unfortunately had to deal with becoming their scapegoat over time and i would love for others to recognize that anti-rq proshippers exist, But interacting with the community makes it feel as though one can "only be on [the actual irl danger] side if you're into [fictional characters doing something i do not like] thing" , it makes it very easy for some proshippers to fall into the trap, !!!!Radqueers depend on others’ exclusionism to take advantage and bring others into their community!!!!!

Yes, many Rqs are proshippers, but proshippers are not all inherently rq!!! Kind of like a squares and rectangles situation.

nsfw below the cut, mdni

THANK YOU @foppydog for the dead dove tierlist!!! teehee

have an urge to create an online presence

post something in a discord server

instant regret! overwhelming shame!

its been hours at this point and i still feel awful!

selfship joy when you wear an oversized shirt with your F/O's favorite band on it... (If anyone wants to know, he loves ACDC! :3)